in this life

Lookin' good!

got to be biased to be fair

Played the game Melvyn and peeps made in Gambit. Good stuff O: I like it. Really forced me to reflect on my tendencies to collect stuff despite knowing the harm it can bring. Ironically, my restaurant city tab is still open... I'm still playing it, trying to collect all my achievements... hahahahha....

Shan the virtual hoarder, dun dun dun

going to go back to score reading
been emauing long enough >:C
i hope i can play PoTC by december lol
would be the best present for myself

empathy

So... all that '3 day' shit I kept on bragging about to my lady friends...
...was actually hurting my body

Turns out that I'm only having it cool and easy because my body, most probably, wasn't ovulating at all.

Best part: It's already been like that for MONTHS

I fear to think about how fucked my body is already.

And now it.. just.. stopped entirely. I KNOW I kept on yakking about how i dont want a kid... but fuck, I still want to have the ability to CHOOSE......

Not gonna lie here, I am hella worried
And I dunno who the hell to turn to :|

I dont know what I am doing wrong
I am eating well
I am sleeping well
I am drinking well

So why?????

Year of silence

Sunday was a lot of fun

I think that was the happiest day we had throughout our 6-month long friendship :/
Was a little bummed seeing that we've been stuck in limbo for so long, but man, after yesterday, I realized that it doesn't matter in the end

:E

A little more
A little less
What's the difference, we're all well and happy

I like to think that I'm more emotionally independent now :E

Went to the library and did some reading... Learnt a lot, both artwise and music wise. Ready to take on my minor proj now. Going to scrap animation, but throw out an awe-fucking-some illustration, complete with crazy perspective, backgrounds, x12312 details and a few nice technical effects. Have a rough picture in my mind already. Ironically, the idea only came to me after I gave up and fell asleep in the lab HAHAHA

Just a single girl standing on an A3 canvas won't do now, no matter how many S or C curves I give her. Those poses have been done to death...

AHHHH.
Still waiting for my chocolate and jam hahahahahah OH ANNE. :C

it's raining clouds

I feel myself falling into a slump.
THIS MUST NOT HAPPEN.

Going to force myself to move
or else
i know i'll never move at all

Gonna run to school. Exercise, practice, do my minor, whatever. Just do something.