above and beyond

suddenly
i wish i could go back and become sze yang's disciple

he would have known how to create these kickass electro tracks >:

he would have taught me how to do it >>:

>>>:

though making music is tough work
its like the maya of art courses lol
very technical
gotta know how to listen, gotta know how to play

the coffee is probably kicking in
I DONT FEEL SLEEPY AT ALL :(

and if the stars should shine

what is my purpose in life

suddenly
getting fame and money doesnt seem as attractive to me now

how come man

i thought ive been striving for that all my life

everything seems tilted in perspective now that i lost my track

@_@

im more confused than emo man
no one i talked to could give me a solid answer

its okay

come what may

blue skies are all we have

it was an emotional roller coaster ride

upsetting knowing i couldnt compete as well as i wanted
happy knowing that people still found me worthy of opportunities

finally got my hug from gail
after 2 years of waiting and regretting :<
one of the strongest, most cunning lady i've ever met
also one of the most fragile
ironically

think i found a friend with jD too lol
in just two days, he experienced me being serious, being high, saw me happy, watched me cry
hahahahaha

haha

ha :<<<<<<

how come i can only manage to forge nice memories before things end

iap
fyp
modules
now this

strange talk

read ms eva's post on overseas studies
i am
utterly
disgusted

partly why i am a little apprehensive about flying away

so much hidden hardships
no one to hold my hand and ease my way into the culture/mindset change

its a tough life out there

:(

i dunno if i can tahan through

trash the rental

thanks for sticking with me through the ups and downs, even after all the dumb shit that happened
especially thankful for the support even through this super tight period; i havent been paying as much attention these few weeks. been running to school, running out, running everywhere
but
yeah
thanks for making my growing process easier, with your patience :D
thanks buddy


on another note
thanks guys + KC tooooo
i dont think i'll survive the preparation period if you peeps disappeared

you guys actually made this 3weeks supah funnnnnn

(Y)(F)

it's raining again

almost there
two more days
come on, come on