Saturday, May 23, 2009

Fucked up

oww
think my heart stopped beating for a few seconds; never knew it would hurt so much

It's like chipping away at a wall I've painstakingly built over the years, and I've just knocked a huge chunk off a moment ago. Watching it fall just like that... shit.

I should be crying my eyes out by now, but I can't
That's the worst part.

Feel like slipping out and curling up somewhere. Maybe I'll roll into a canal and die or something.

Maybe I'm being too ambitious, too selfish
I'm favouring my own future over everything else; just like how I favoured my own happiness over my parents.

Maybe I don't deserved to be loved at all. Be it my family, friends, or partner.
I don't deserve these privileges.

Maybe I should just leave.

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