so weird why i can be so honest with the roulette, even though i know i'm ruining my own chances for a serious relalala in the meantime
every single ugly thing i did, all the atrocious bullshit i pulled off
dude knows it all now :v
even matters where i'll lie or at least twist a little of the facts before retelling most people
totally at ease when the truth comes out
maybe its because a part of my mind has registered him to be as wild as me, and will be able to relate
maybe its also because i know our situation cant ever get worse than this. so why not just go all the way, drop all the fucking bombs
in turn, i got some info from him too
think /we're/ both ruining each other's chances.
but despite me being so willing to make myself out as a bad person
i'm still hoping someone will come over and tell me im not :v
had a really great day with the guitar people
especially with ai fang :D
serenaded her + got her some guitar strings :D So she could fix her guitar today. And fix it we did.
Had a fun little jamming session with Audrey + Fang too
Memorized the birthday song for Fang this morning, when i realized its her birthday.
SO GLAD I DID, YO. Now all three of us can jam to happy birthday anytime now LOL.
And my hardcore scale memorizing didnt fail me when the tests came. I seem to be getting some kind of a high every time i wow roulette and audrey by overdoing myself.
thats what pushing me on for now...
i like to be praised, it seems :v
Work hard, work hard!
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