dead hearts

I could say it but you wont believe me
You say you do but you don't deceive me
It's hard to know they're out there
It's hard to know that you still care

uuboohooboohooboohoo.
haha. thanks, you guys...
I probably would have ran out and mass murdered people along the streets if you guys werent here to hold me down
The calm after the storm feels as delicate as ever

And tired, I do feel.

Wistful.

And as needy as ever. I feel just like A.A, haha. Maybe that's why I like her so much. We're always in need of strong pillars to lean on. Thus the constant search for the right partner. Thus the overprotective sheltering of friends. Thus the tears.

We're doing it because that's, quite literally, our life force...

Really tired.

It's so tiring to always live in fear of our pillars crumbling.

So what's going to happen now..?
I don't know.
Find someone new and get hurt again.
Hahahahahaha

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