swoon

i kind of expected such answers
but seeing it in my face
holy cow
do i still deserve to love

i /am/ a very physical person
maybe me meeting such partners isnt due to my luck
it was due to me...
they gravitated towards me because that's what i've been calling out for
i gravitated towards them because that's what i wanted

is that why i never wanted to blame him, i never was that angry
i definitely played a big part in our disaster

so hard to turn back to innocent relationships when i already had a taste of the full treatment. so hard to settle for less.

its terrible i never shed tears for my partners
do i not care about them
has it always been purely physical
no, i do care
just not enough, it seems...

physical, unsincere

how can i dish out so much hate on dahlia when i'm another dahlia myself
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