pretty girl rock

had a very long talk with the mother
emerged feeling like the dumbest idiot on earth

the interview tired the hell out of me
lots of trick questions
lots of demoralizing prods
basically felt like a piece of shit by the time I walked out of the office

the mother said it was normal to go through this
apparently they're testing my personality and character
testing my confidence

apparently she went through the same shitty experience
but she made the mistake of giving up
only realized they actually planned on hiring her after she changed jobs.

I was like
OHHHH
OKAAAAY
LIKE THAT AHHH
CHEEEEEYYYYYY |||||:

Talked to her about other things too
Got my respective help and support back

Insecurity and lack of confidence is proving to be a major problem for me

Do I honestly think I'm not good enough to be hired/to have the most awesome peeps/to deserve happiness

YES, I REALLY THINK SO

lol
i'm like
another sean deep down insde

I still don't think I'm good enough la
But I'll try looking at myself with more self worth lor
Less hating, more self loving

think my jealousy problem will disappear once I get my confidence and trust back

then I wont stir up drama any more

:)