on a good day

i don't feel like me
feel myself regularly preparing myself for the worst
always on tiptoes

is this the normal way to treat life, lol
being so careful

things are going great
but i kind of miss just throwing my head back and acting recklessly stupid
not caring about whose tail i step on
but
haha
of course that's not gonna happen

this is the curse of growing up, i guess
we learn |:

i feel a huge self inflicted pressure to not screw things up lol
scared of failing
dunno if i'll still have the luck to have a friend pick me up

the fall will probably be extra painful when it does happen
i guess

:(

but aiya
lol
whatever la, first world problems
i'll survive through it
other people have it worse than me

what am i even complaining about.