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I don't know what to say.
Really.

I'm just sitting here and staring at the screen, trying to see into another world. Some other world. Any world.

Don't even have the strength to get angry. Don't even have the strength to shout. To scream at the heavens. To cry.

I'm just sitting here, deflated. Defeated.

In shock.

I guess I've just witnessed the uglier side of life. Working, working, working and getting nothing back at all. So empty. Tasteless. Sad. Watching as masterpieces get torn into dust. Just watching. Can't do anything. To help. To salvage.

Unable to defend loved ones, as they fell to another's desperation. Useless. Helpless.

Feeling the hurt as the urge to hurt swept over me again and again. and again.

I'm strong. I know I am. But not today.