study letter format till dawn go exam FORGET ALL. first time i feel so stressed. maybe the truth hit me. retaining.
went lib studied abit.. met him BY CHANCE, OKAY- and he last min gave me some stuff. abit guilty. mei you hui li. internal conflict. hm. ah well.
.. but saint/sheep/whatever's advice cant stop popping into my head. LOL. wtf. i try to stop thinking abt it but it comes back into my head even more 'loudly'. its a psycho thing. but hes right. i know..i know.. i know. im just running away from it. i know i have to face it someday,who told me to go this far?! damn.
kena gastric. irregular meals. hai. exam time then all these happen.
looking forward to being the good ol me in angst. hurhur. chem got hacked. dawn got new laopo. dion..what dion. -rolls eyes- virtual friends are virtual, my friends. -pun intended- should i even go this far..? stuff this world, everyone is so superficial. which brings me back to her. LOL.
i just want a fking consultant la! walau. why is it so hard to find one?
but sheep -yes im gunna cal joo sheep- said i should say no. ooh. im gunna think about it.. hm.
Friday, September 29, 2006
Thursday, September 28, 2006
rawr. im scared TT
ha.really dunno whats happening. its not the first time .. i guess.. im a hmp. ^^ which i thought i was not.
its the war ^^ between my mind and my body. LOL. i want her back TT i want to tell her all this. rawr!! i really need a person who knows what im feeling and shes that person. its all very superficial in my class.. everyone is happy. or is it. people can be smiling at me then throwing daggers at my back, who knows. i need someone to understand what i want. but shes not here.. i should have treasured her. now work ler then regret. too late le. hoho. still rem last time we talk until both are at the brink of tears (: which is rare.
zhi xing you heng nan zao.
feel empty. its been so long. really dread the time gran leaves us. touch wood. but it'll happen. obviously. my favourite gran will be gone, and so will her, uncle,.. everyone. TT dont leave me. its pathetic enough being left outta the world, and now this thought comes by and haunt me.
great.
even happy songs sound sad to me. LOL. im pessimistic. i really wish that i can read everyone's mind.. esp these 5. i just want the truth. are you guys just putting on an act? if yes, why? hai.
im gunna stop yakking about it, lest i get even deeper. how dangerous.
its the war ^^ between my mind and my body. LOL. i want her back TT i want to tell her all this. rawr!! i really need a person who knows what im feeling and shes that person. its all very superficial in my class.. everyone is happy. or is it. people can be smiling at me then throwing daggers at my back, who knows. i need someone to understand what i want. but shes not here.. i should have treasured her. now work ler then regret. too late le. hoho. still rem last time we talk until both are at the brink of tears (: which is rare.
zhi xing you heng nan zao.
feel empty. its been so long. really dread the time gran leaves us. touch wood. but it'll happen. obviously. my favourite gran will be gone, and so will her, uncle,.. everyone. TT dont leave me. its pathetic enough being left outta the world, and now this thought comes by and haunt me.
great.
even happy songs sound sad to me. LOL. im pessimistic. i really wish that i can read everyone's mind.. esp these 5. i just want the truth. are you guys just putting on an act? if yes, why? hai.
im gunna stop yakking about it, lest i get even deeper. how dangerous.
Monday, September 25, 2006
hohoho
i wrote everything i wanted to type here on a piece of paper. no mood to retype -.- how ler?
edit: after resting for hours..i still decided to retype my written stuff. here it is.
Today geog aint fun. pks and bev got a lot huo yao wei between each other..first time see pks talk with so much hatred in his voice. scary. duno wad happened last time, and dun want to know. ignorance is bliss. but this time pks really no trouble wan create trouble la. nothing happen he go provoke provoke. live and let live. tho i dont blame you for your actions, i know the angry feeling too. shrug. relax and give each other a chance la ._.
hmm. i said something i didnt know i could say in geog. or i shd say,write. lawl. still in my mind.
'' we never ask each other, but we know where we stand in each other de heart''. something like that. wah liew. wads wrong with me. tsk. even now i still shivering LOL. but nvm, i shd get used to it. >)
ahh. quite happy now.. really looking forward to the end of the eoys. then i can go out.. i can play.. (: hoho. alot ppl say i changed a lot. -no pun intended- happier(?) , happier (?), and happier.(?) LOL. also started to become zi lian.. wahaha.
focusing on studies for now..really no mood to draw lawl. duno wad happen. when modifying her drawing..i just anyhow doodled there. same for my pict.. anyhow draw. ugly. im gunna redraw. after exams.
we made a mini pact to grow our fringes till dec~ haha. abt 3cm. wonder how we'll look after that.feel like cutting my hair again. it looks..twohill-ish. i like. but its too..short. AHH. need to grow long again and restyle. wdh.
hmm.. one more week till exam.. cnt see friends that much. 9 days of exam. wah heartpain.
pRO was nice, managed to get a friend to play with me. (: tanking is ..lame, but i appreciate the company. but i know he after 1wk will quit de. haha, weak willed. like me (:
edit: after resting for hours..i still decided to retype my written stuff. here it is.
Today geog aint fun. pks and bev got a lot huo yao wei between each other..first time see pks talk with so much hatred in his voice. scary. duno wad happened last time, and dun want to know. ignorance is bliss. but this time pks really no trouble wan create trouble la. nothing happen he go provoke provoke. live and let live. tho i dont blame you for your actions, i know the angry feeling too. shrug. relax and give each other a chance la ._.
hmm. i said something i didnt know i could say in geog. or i shd say,write. lawl. still in my mind.
'' we never ask each other, but we know where we stand in each other de heart''. something like that. wah liew. wads wrong with me. tsk. even now i still shivering LOL. but nvm, i shd get used to it. >)
ahh. quite happy now.. really looking forward to the end of the eoys. then i can go out.. i can play.. (: hoho. alot ppl say i changed a lot. -no pun intended- happier(?) , happier (?), and happier.(?) LOL. also started to become zi lian.. wahaha.
focusing on studies for now..really no mood to draw lawl. duno wad happen. when modifying her drawing..i just anyhow doodled there. same for my pict.. anyhow draw. ugly. im gunna redraw. after exams.
we made a mini pact to grow our fringes till dec~ haha. abt 3cm. wonder how we'll look after that.feel like cutting my hair again. it looks..twohill-ish. i like. but its too..short. AHH. need to grow long again and restyle. wdh.
hmm.. one more week till exam.. cnt see friends that much. 9 days of exam. wah heartpain.
pRO was nice, managed to get a friend to play with me. (: tanking is ..lame, but i appreciate the company. but i know he after 1wk will quit de. haha, weak willed. like me (:
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