weird

jujube, you will cry for me
find my rosa for me
live onnnn

Imitation

The end of the school term doesn't feel like an end at all
O_O
I'm still here
Sitting in front of the laptop
Working away

In fact, I feel even busier than my module days.

With me in full control of what I wanna do now
I feel like the standards for my performance should increase too

This is like the last thing separating me from ultimate freedom with my life. Make it worth the heavy symbolism, lol.

This trade sure requires a lot of discipline :|



actually
joan burned through so much people herself
but she's not ashamed of it
im starting to wonder if i should even bother feeling bad for being myself, lol
why push yourself down for the sake of looking 'human' :|

post801

And I'm down to the last day, mission unaccomplished.
Another 3 weeks to the next chance, one that I know I'll end up failing too.
And it'll just keep shrinking until NYP disappears from my mind lol.

The logical step is to try
But
Is it even worth it.

-
look, shan
what do you really want to do
animation, illu, graphics
you cant accomplish everything you wanna do in just 3 weeks
make a damn choice

不要问我从哪里来

我什么都不知道
别再问了~

looks like
some people have figured out what im going to do the moment this ends

... hahaha. :'>

everything, will change

vday.. i 'll dedicate it to us.
Two bummed young adults looking for a break in their lovelife.
Hahahaha

How fucked up is this
Two estranged friends who left over love
Now coming back to comfort each other over the same issue

I'll give it a shot.
I wish you luck, too :O

meltdown

this is the worst
this is it
since the killing blow has been dealt

i may just well just go ahead and unburden myself of the other issues.

settling things w/ e.
one down.

2 more to go.

wait

crashing of laptop is making me not want to turn it on ever again

a flash

I know i'm a pop art kind of person :O
I want recognition.
Passive aggressive with my approach to that goal but I know that's what i want.

But I'm having doubts about being a sellout lol.

It's easy to ride on the anime bandwagon and throw out 10000 cute looking anime figurines, take the money and just run the fuck off.
I like jap pop culture, yes, but not enough to get me to want to wholeheartedly jump into their world and swim in it. BUT I CAN. If i want to.

Or I could build up my own pop empire myself. It's going to be hard, since there's no more coattails to ride on. Gonna be up to me and myself only, to make it work. But hey. Jonny wander did it. QoD did it. endling. And I know I'm a lot happier designing stuff that's SELLABLE. Honestly, freelance mattepainting /illu cant earn that much, since they only work on prints and artbooks.

With graduation day looming over my head
it's getting increasingly hard to find a good foothole to grab on before my school disappears from under my feet.

Back to my dilemma.
Easy way out or impossible dream?

I think I'll juggle both for now...
Really need to talk to someone abt this. Someone with experience. WHERE ARE THE TEACHERS WHEN I NEED THEM

|:

to break it now
or to do it later

im deathly afraid
not of the confrontation
but of the consequence

because come on
i have enough targets on my back already :/