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34..25..33! never think about crooked stuff, you never know if an ESPer is around you.. (:
if youre thinking that the pictures doesnt go really well with the words, its because that isnt the correct script :x i just wanted to be lame and destroy the drama-ness.

this is a random page.. was thinking about my original concept at first.. but it spiraled to this one LOL. so i didnt ink or anything. not pleased with this one too..too lazy to do background. :/ lol yes, that girl with the ponytail was supposed to be standing on a stage with billions of rabid fans around it, but i got lazy and replaced them with reporters. but i still did a bad job with the reporters too X: see how they slowly turned into weird outlines at the back.. *i finally included a guy in the comic, hes one of the sad reporters with only an outline to show X:*
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im just tapping out something to entertain me, the below post will be probably filled with half assed essays :/ ill re edit if i feel like it.
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do you guys like to create stories?

im actually bored enough to draw a promo of a random comic that popped into my head. AND ITS NOTHING ABOUT HORNY HAMSTERS! anyways, feel like using contrast toning to colour.. but imagine lah, i can exhaust two ink pens during the toning of a single page. it sucks when your pen is extra fine and you need to colour huge chunks of black in. Then when you get thicker pen nibs you complain as you do the details on the face. why cant i ever get BOTH pens at the same time? best part, ink pens run out wayyy faster compared to ballpoint T-T

how about the fountain pen my primary school friend gave me? i lost it under my pile of random junk :/ so the bottle of ink will be rendered useless too.

and i doubt i can do the blotting effect with blue ink T-T

anyways yea :/ only one scene popped into my head, and no matter how hard i tried, i cant get the story going smoothly. and its irritating.

i might post it here when im done exhausting my favourite pen. even tho i know ill get no answer.

by the way, who knows the NEWEST SONG BY TIMBALAND THAT IS PLAYING ON RADIO? im starting to get addicted to his monotone works. he collab-ed that song with kelly something. i think.

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hell YEAAAA
FNN COURSEWORK IS OFFICIALLY DONE 11 shift eleven !!!11111 elevennnnnn!!11oneone!

soooooo... relieved. one burden gone. we started from Feb and i kinda just used up one week to do up the whole report -_- My motto : Panic is my muse.

my mood was so bad when i was forcing myself to focus i once considered throwing a tantrum at the computer lol -.- in the end i lengthened the report by spamming the enters and spaces. LOL. one page put one picture and make it big big :D there was once page where i only typed in 3 sentences. acknowledgments section owns all ! :D

best bit about this is.. we have to do this all over again~ Part II of coursework is coming~!~!~!

and stop playing truant lah you, i feel so jealous already >_>

oh. yea. i drew something! but im lazy to upload owing to the fact that im half starved. and tired. very very tired. lol 30 pages in a few nights.. WOOT.
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im going back to maaaapleeee! its the end of friday! well, almost. there is simply nothing to do lol. bored.

when can i ever find a good game ~ ~ ~

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yay im paid to draw :D thats the fugly first draft which i crumpled and is now lying in the bin.
btw.
small reminder to me: senxnes.
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We sat at the back of the library, one pathetic little group isolated at one corner. The corner of paradise, to be exact.
Who said silence is to be maintained during exams? We were chatting like theres no tomorrow~
I remember being so exasperated at dex not knowing whats a 'sin' i actually squeaked LOL. Anyways, thats also when i found out that..
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my dream course isn't under design, but infocomm. infocom. whatever :/ so yea, all my plans have to be re-planned.

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Good start, good start. I read out the passage in peace. Yes, there is a few wrong pronunciations but i think i still did well.

THEN .

" ..Now we will proceed to the conversation section. "

We tensed up immediately, me and the two female invigilators. Me because im nervous, and them because.. ill bet its because they are getting ready for my answer :/

" It has been observed that more shopping malls are being opened in Singapore these days. Can you explain the reasons behind this phenomenon? "

Shit.

" As Singapore's economy has been soaring these days, investments will surely rise along and thus it will create more business ventures that includes shopping malls. This might be the reason. "

* Why didnt i also crap about the people having more spending power when the economy rises, thats why more shopping malls are set up to meet their demand?! *

Silence.

" Okay, what do you think about shopping centres opening up near schools? "

Shit.

" I think its not really good because.. because.. some students might not be able to resist the temptation of buying snacks since they are now located at arms length and later smuggling it into school, which.. breaks the school rules.. "

I cringed with every word that came out of my mouth. Who gives a damn about the bloody malls pls. Theres totally no link between schools and malls lah. Well at least im impressed that they were still able to sustain their poker faces.

" Okay, what other effects do you think it might bring? "

Shit! No change of topic?! No new questions?!

" Ummmmmmm.. can you please repeat the question? "

IM ACTUALLY BUYING TIME?

" What other negative effects do you think that it will give the school? "

" Errrrrr. As malls are bound to attract more shoppers i guess more noise will be produced and it might disrupt the peace of the school.. "

Silence.

* WHY DIDNT I THINK THAT STUDENTS CAN PLAY TRUANT AND GO TOWARDS THE BLOODY ARCADES WHICH ARE LOCATED IN MOST MALLS?! *

" Do you think students are partly to blame for this too? "

" Uh yes yes yes.. They should have more self control and should be able to make the correct decisions.. "

I think all 3 of us are rambling lah.

I went out of the exam room defeated. The 4J people aka my past classmates *lol i forgot one of their names, so i have to refer them as 4J students* asked me about it, and i repeated the questions.

"SHIT!"

LOL. 'Shit' is the new word of the month for us, i tell you. The toilets can be treated as holy shrines already.

Everyone was in trauma ><

I wanna.. strangle.. the MOE..

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My ability to doodle has returned to me! :D how relieved i felt when i drew my first presentable sketch of this week is indescribable in words!

first piccy was put on there just for the sake of putting it on o_o' since im deleting it soon why not give it a taste of the limelight lol.

next two! i drew the picture with the weird bird first. yes, add birds to the list of things i cant draw pls. then i drew a random curly haired female with victorian styled clothings. I THINK. was just messing around~ but the joy! the bliss~

AND! no wonder im so confused -.- i mixed up prelims with olvls LOL. its the Os that ill have tomorrow :D and its chinese oral. its the real thing omg D:

and thank you xiuhui for donating me the snacks :D that reminds me, that cappuccino kitkat is tasting more and more like heaven yay! its currently the only method to let coffee get into my system i guess :D

plus!
to the person who got me a mini chiding from my com studies teacher, YOU SHALL DIE :D it has destroyed my clean record and shan the great is not at all pleased with it :D you deserved the scolding for hitting me the fragile female anyways, cough cough :D

last thingy, im slightly miffed at the fact that its just plain unfair, nod. slightly.

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i feel a twinge of despondence. its been there the whole time, just that its presence felt so much stronger this time round :/

..and the book i just finished reading isn't helping matters too. why must i always choose books with such tragic endings, why must i pick stories that include bloodshed? That reminds me. With every single friend that i accompany to the library, they will pick some romantic teen story with glittery covers while ill get some weird book depicting two enemies at war.

im going out of the point. either way, i still feel as if im running round in circles..

Touched on something called pride today! It felt like a competition for deep insights, we were spewing philosophical stuff at each other. :/ yes, pride pins people down and gives more suffering than joy, but its also one main component that gives value to a life, it differentiates a person from other human beings :/ ill never ever EVER bow down to people and leave my fate to anyone else other than me! or maybe the heavens :/

thats how stubborn i am :D even if its at the expense of my life, i wont go round begging.

btw i missed grendel's quest D: orbisssssssssssssssss

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School is a great place for reality checks. Perfect, even. I woke up happy and cheerful, but imagine my horror as i caught my reflection in the mirror~

I. NEED. A. HAIRCUT.

okay, recommendations needed. desperately.
should i go back to china doll bangs or just have a trim. OR should i get some spiffy new hairstyle that i never tried before yet. tell me tell me tell me pl0x, its a matter of life and death~

gawd, the hair strands are curling up in ridiculous directions! my straightener can only straighten the hair for one day T_T when the hair touches water the straightness is doomed. so yes, a haircut should be better.

School got extended to 2.40 for Mondays! im happy actually lol >< for obvious reasons.

what else~

whined the crap outta my friends LOL. its the first time i actually whined from the start of the day till the end of school, personal record broken :D its mostly for entertainment actually, but if anyone can chip in to help out ill still appreciate it lots. i just want extra pocket munnie for now :/ saving up to buy something. dont link it to those major stuffies.

I wont be gaming from now onwards till the day i break under the temptation, because .. i wanna start the semester right eheheheh. lol actually no, ill just take a break off this week to finish up on my coursework. like everyone else, im still stuck on task analysis LOL. i wonder how the MOE will react when they get hold of our batch of coursework.

..and to think that prelims are starting this thursday. bo chup ah~ tho i swear ive been putting in just a teeny little bit more effort than usual.

so anyways, i wont be training till friday.

tata everyone, AND REMEMBER TO GIMME ADVICES ON MY HAIRSTYLES

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Come on hold my hand,
I wanna contact the living.
Not sure I understand,
This role I’ve been given.

I sit and talk to god
And he just laughs at my plans,
My head speaks a language, I don’t understand.

Extract from Feel, sung by~ Robbie Williams! lol yes, ancient ancient ancient song im listening to.
Am actually shuffling through odd and old songs through my trusty website X: but really, sometimes old songs hold much more meaning in their lyrics than the newer pieces.. not that bad i guess :/

cant focus at all today, my mind kept on wandering.. its as if im having a long nightmare while in a conscious state lol. ill bet i wont even notice if a stake went through my heart or something. even this current post im typing on spent a hour and a half of my time lol, and im not even done yet ._.

no mood to do anything, not even picking up my pencils helped. i wish i can do animations lah, feel like making a little flash movie >< depict my so called nightmare in a accurate manner :/ hate it when my doodles are just.. doodles. they are just frozen in that frame, that moment, that pose. sad.

maybe i should restart my comics. black humor ftw! but i dunno how to tone without the computer >_> need to analyze Shilin's comic again...the ink needed, the ink.. lol who said drawing is a cheap hobby in the past eh, you deserve a big smack on the head >_>

i have alot alot alot of little stories in my head, thanks to all the stuff that happened in my life recently. and the jokes sent from heaven doesn't seem to be subsiding anytime soon~ im trying to get them out my head before they evolve into more nightmares lol.

goodluck to me!