post got lost in the system, need to retype. hahaha. amusing. ill cut things short. lazy retype the full page of words.
was telling everyone not to tag at my blog for the time being. stay away from the tagboard. O: appreciated.
anddddddddd, ive nothing to say. it might look like im defeated but im not. ill be the coldest person i can be. and since ive paid dearly for my actions, its time for you all to follow suit. im willing to put my life on the line, so i can see that this is not a quick war to fight. >]
alrighty, i shall end here. dont want say too much..no matter how serious things got to, ill control and stop my fingers. O:
Friday, December 29, 2006
Wednesday, December 27, 2006
-37-
i guess this is Part II of post 36 lol. and after thinking abit about this.. only one word comes to mind.
CHEY.
i sorted out everything, but im still pissed :/
but to say the truth, shes just a small kid with a big mouth for lying. harmless.
now that the truth is out, im pretty sure that either she had a skiving PI , or she doesnt even have one, or shes lying again. yawn.
plus, its not just me, my whole family has a rebellious streak in us. bwahaha.
we can continue the game if she want~
bwahaha.
the idea of it was so freaking funny can. that call can win oscar award liao. sheesh. nearly fell for it again. heng i cleared my mind and decided to sneer at it instead. drama sia.
- -'
i feel very the unaffected lol. got over it in like.. 8 hours of sleep. but my parents do have smth to say, will stick to MSN to tell ltr. they are as amused as me.
ha.
ok, life's back to being boring. sad.
CHEY.
i sorted out everything, but im still pissed :/
but to say the truth, shes just a small kid with a big mouth for lying. harmless.
now that the truth is out, im pretty sure that either she had a skiving PI , or she doesnt even have one, or shes lying again. yawn.
plus, its not just me, my whole family has a rebellious streak in us. bwahaha.
we can continue the game if she want~
bwahaha.
the idea of it was so freaking funny can. that call can win oscar award liao. sheesh. nearly fell for it again. heng i cleared my mind and decided to sneer at it instead. drama sia.
- -'
i feel very the unaffected lol. got over it in like.. 8 hours of sleep. but my parents do have smth to say, will stick to MSN to tell ltr. they are as amused as me.
ha.
ok, life's back to being boring. sad.
Tuesday, December 26, 2006
-36-
ok, its 12 midnight, and im FUCKING PISSED. TMD. CANT EVEN SLEEP.
my mum finally told me the WHOLE CONTENTS OF THE CALL.
SINCE WHEN DID I STEAL PPL BF?! ok lor, you jealous, i close one eye.
HOW CAN YOU FUCKING FRAME THE INNOCENT!! walau. good lor you, must wait until i break le.. wait until i at the saddest moment then you come start the prank call. good la. make people naturally suspect the one i broke with. ADD RED HERRINGS SOMEMORE LA, AMKSS DE RIGHT~ EH? prank call back anyone who called your phone?! gawd. how low-down can you get , whoever you are?
im ok for my side, wan call jiu call lor. but the more i think about the framing issue the more irritated i get. want get me jiu lai la! drag in innocent people for what?! tmd.. even if you didnt mean it, IM STILL PISSED. if i ever find out that ure in my school.. im gunna thrash you sia. verbally, physically, whatever. i want you to pay back twice the pain ive suffered. pay back twice the tears i cried over it.
ARGH. when i first got the news, something in me shattered sia. really.
when i was figuring out who did it, i always clear you de leh. trusted you. T-T really lol. ure one of the closest friends ive got. and i ended up .. suspecting the people who really.. hai. i know its not ur fault la.. it was that jealous -girlfriend- of yours. but .. you did tell her everything i told you right.. or else how come she know all these details de.. im still very very blur. but im guessing from whatever info i have now lol.
):
why?
feel betrayed sia.
why didnt i notice the change in attitude whenever i bring up the issue.. why why why?! overlooked.. ><>
god. i give up on this school. i give up. nothing ever goes right for me. i should have went to MSS. joined my pri sch friends. had company. grew up happy. im already relying on the virtual world to get rid of my loneliness, and now you people are still taking away my real life friends from me. ):
lao tian ye ah~ does making me feel so wretched bring you satisfaction and happiness? answer me pl0x. why your jokes all not funny de. why aint i laughing. :/
im dreading school.. still need settle the maple issue.. tiring.. very very tiring.
i wan forfeit this game T-T wheres in Esc button in my life?
my mum finally told me the WHOLE CONTENTS OF THE CALL.
SINCE WHEN DID I STEAL PPL BF?! ok lor, you jealous, i close one eye.
HOW CAN YOU FUCKING FRAME THE INNOCENT!! walau. good lor you, must wait until i break le.. wait until i at the saddest moment then you come start the prank call. good la. make people naturally suspect the one i broke with. ADD RED HERRINGS SOMEMORE LA, AMKSS DE RIGHT~ EH? prank call back anyone who called your phone?! gawd. how low-down can you get , whoever you are?
im ok for my side, wan call jiu call lor. but the more i think about the framing issue the more irritated i get. want get me jiu lai la! drag in innocent people for what?! tmd.. even if you didnt mean it, IM STILL PISSED. if i ever find out that ure in my school.. im gunna thrash you sia. verbally, physically, whatever. i want you to pay back twice the pain ive suffered. pay back twice the tears i cried over it.
ARGH. when i first got the news, something in me shattered sia. really.
when i was figuring out who did it, i always clear you de leh. trusted you. T-T really lol. ure one of the closest friends ive got. and i ended up .. suspecting the people who really.. hai. i know its not ur fault la.. it was that jealous -girlfriend- of yours. but .. you did tell her everything i told you right.. or else how come she know all these details de.. im still very very blur. but im guessing from whatever info i have now lol.
):
why?
feel betrayed sia.
why didnt i notice the change in attitude whenever i bring up the issue.. why why why?! overlooked.. ><>
god. i give up on this school. i give up. nothing ever goes right for me. i should have went to MSS. joined my pri sch friends. had company. grew up happy. im already relying on the virtual world to get rid of my loneliness, and now you people are still taking away my real life friends from me. ):
lao tian ye ah~ does making me feel so wretched bring you satisfaction and happiness? answer me pl0x. why your jokes all not funny de. why aint i laughing. :/
im dreading school.. still need settle the maple issue.. tiring.. very very tiring.
i wan forfeit this game T-T wheres in Esc button in my life?
-35-
hmmm... not a good day.. lol. or rather.. ytd night.
forced to stay awake since prolly 3~4am.. leg pain dao~ dunno what the heck happened to it ah.. just suddenly the pain came back.. its supposed to fade at abt.. 9pm ytd de. plus the additions of nightmares which DIDNT end even after i woke up. ...ok it ended but.. i kept recalling scenes. scary..
these days quite sian lol. msn is dead, DEAD. no ones online de. nebermind. humph. go on ur hols, go play ur games~ i shall do the same x: bwahaha.
ill update if i see anything update-worthy later on. -7.55am-
my future.. seems..so..bleak. really got nothing interesting to do sia.
or maybe its just the rain. ):
stuff hmwk, i give up doing it.
sian.
-update-
sad. sadsadsad. the road just never seems to freaking end. ill be satisfied enough if i can at least see it twisting to a side or something, but this is not.
THE ROAD IM ON IS FREAKING STRAIGHT CAN.
every single step i walk.. i see the same thing. dry grass, sand, sun, cacti(?) haha. was picturing a desert.
and. i found out where i made all the mistakes. haha.. i just wanted to know a person more.. and thats it. but in sec2, my puny mind misintepreted all these overwhelming bits of data.. and mistook it as love. haha..
sec3, ok, no comments, tho i swear i improved from sec2. seriously.
sec4, we shall see (: ill bet my piggy bank + 40 cents that ill be in no mood for these stuff anymore lol. hell, slacking and stoning is way easier than this. but i admit that its quite lonely la. haha.. ill cope, ill cope. going out with friends -for once- should do the trick. if they are even free, that is. haha. guys got soccer, girls got CCA, ex-shattered ppl.. nah. ):
ah well. be optimistic.
btw~ psp pwns. im going to edit my own pict there soon. haha..
forced to stay awake since prolly 3~4am.. leg pain dao~ dunno what the heck happened to it ah.. just suddenly the pain came back.. its supposed to fade at abt.. 9pm ytd de. plus the additions of nightmares which DIDNT end even after i woke up. ...ok it ended but.. i kept recalling scenes. scary..
these days quite sian lol. msn is dead, DEAD. no ones online de. nebermind. humph. go on ur hols, go play ur games~ i shall do the same x: bwahaha.
ill update if i see anything update-worthy later on. -7.55am-
my future.. seems..so..bleak. really got nothing interesting to do sia.
or maybe its just the rain. ):
stuff hmwk, i give up doing it.
sian.
-update-
sad. sadsadsad. the road just never seems to freaking end. ill be satisfied enough if i can at least see it twisting to a side or something, but this is not.
THE ROAD IM ON IS FREAKING STRAIGHT CAN.
every single step i walk.. i see the same thing. dry grass, sand, sun, cacti(?) haha. was picturing a desert.
and. i found out where i made all the mistakes. haha.. i just wanted to know a person more.. and thats it. but in sec2, my puny mind misintepreted all these overwhelming bits of data.. and mistook it as love. haha..
sec3, ok, no comments, tho i swear i improved from sec2. seriously.
sec4, we shall see (: ill bet my piggy bank + 40 cents that ill be in no mood for these stuff anymore lol. hell, slacking and stoning is way easier than this. but i admit that its quite lonely la. haha.. ill cope, ill cope. going out with friends -for once- should do the trick. if they are even free, that is. haha. guys got soccer, girls got CCA, ex-shattered ppl.. nah. ):
ah well. be optimistic.
btw~ psp pwns. im going to edit my own pict there soon. haha..
Monday, December 25, 2006
-34-
whos the cb kia who invented algebra manipulation and indices...?!! -___-''
god. i found my maths wb -reluctantly- and did a few sums. haha. 15 out of hundreds of questions later, i chucked the whole thing away and started to focus on my music -.- dont have much time, i know lol. going to focus on Eng first.. sot reminded me that ms kaur is scary. Maths.. KNS LA. anyhow copy. or dont do at all. -.- the most demerit nia. or i beg my tuition cher to help in the last sat i have this year. heh. last resort.
btw, during my game drifting journeys..
http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g162/pencilspam/pangya.jpg
i did a toma~ :D First time can. wow wow wow. no pots consumed :D hmm. too bad im not playing this game for long. was starting to grow an attachment to it. haha.. random ol golfing. ill never forget that person sia.. -not the one in ss- she actually scolded herself for not pangya-ing and giving us angel bonus. gosh. wearing angel set is bad. x: stress can.
sad. ran outta songs to play sia.
SOMEONE TEACH ME SOMETHING LEH T-T KEEP ME PREOCCUPIED!! hurhurhur.
god. i found my maths wb -reluctantly- and did a few sums. haha. 15 out of hundreds of questions later, i chucked the whole thing away and started to focus on my music -.- dont have much time, i know lol. going to focus on Eng first.. sot reminded me that ms kaur is scary. Maths.. KNS LA. anyhow copy. or dont do at all. -.- the most demerit nia. or i beg my tuition cher to help in the last sat i have this year. heh. last resort.
btw, during my game drifting journeys..
http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g162/pencilspam/pangya.jpg
i did a toma~ :D First time can. wow wow wow. no pots consumed :D hmm. too bad im not playing this game for long. was starting to grow an attachment to it. haha.. random ol golfing. ill never forget that person sia.. -not the one in ss- she actually scolded herself for not pangya-ing and giving us angel bonus. gosh. wearing angel set is bad. x: stress can.
sad. ran outta songs to play sia.
SOMEONE TEACH ME SOMETHING LEH T-T KEEP ME PREOCCUPIED!! hurhurhur.
Sunday, December 24, 2006
-33-
i hate to admit it, but i just respected my sis a little more than last time lol. a little. -.-
considering how badly i thrashed her.. (eh, she BIT me. hard. its fair.) a few days before ..and after a few hours, we were back to being chummy friends. i even helped her got over the phobia of division. yes~ im a great tutor! bwahaha. im shameless. but today we thrashed each other again. wonder how long will it take for her to break the ice again lol.
anw~ the earholes i got in K2.. or issit K1.. nearly closed up ytd.. -.- i was wondering how long i didnt wear earrings ler.. then i walked over to mirror.. HOLY COW! its nearly gone lol. i took the thickest studs i can find and just stuffed it in. first its pain, then a kinda numbness set in.. but the pain is still there. esp in left ear. haha..since 80% of my ears are covered in injuries.. bobian. i think i opened up a wound when i was putting that stud in ba. hai. beauty = pain. haha.
hmm. regarding the issue, id figured i shd use this space instead of the tag. or im gunna flood the board lol.
i dont mind having you in my life, you were and still are a worthy friend. but that wont make any difference..i still cant find you, play with you, talk to you etc etc etc. its going to be hell for you sia. this is beyond my control ler...
i reached this decision because i -maybe- knew something more than you did. i wont say im disgusted by the info, i just had a really negative view towards it. made me quite dispirited. btw its reliable lol. came outta my mum's mouth. she wont lie, no matter how badly she was hurt by me. guranteed. i was sitting on the fence all the time.. and this just pushed me to the other side.
i dunno whether im going the right or wrong way. but i dont really care now lol. i just know that if i go on im gonna go mental liao..everytime i open fridge and see the candy cane ill go sad sia. more specifically, guilty. till now still cant bear to eat. hah. so i got myself a final decision to ease the bad feelings inside. tadaa. anw.. back on topic~
step back for a moment ba.. i can only use words.. the decision still lies in you lol. its not worth it.. to have a relationship that will leave everybody scarred and hurt.. for both you and me lol. a relationship that you know wont be lasting de. even if all these never happened.. what will happen in the next few weeks? months? years? have to face this ending.. no matter how much time has passed. for our case, the ending came ler. maybe its really too early, but its not up to us to control.
so yea. i cant force you to change the way youre thinking.. but ill try to dissuade. saw a lot of people suffering in this kinda situations. dont be the next victim.. its really mentally tiring de. not fun at all..
considering how badly i thrashed her.. (eh, she BIT me. hard. its fair.) a few days before ..and after a few hours, we were back to being chummy friends. i even helped her got over the phobia of division. yes~ im a great tutor! bwahaha. im shameless. but today we thrashed each other again. wonder how long will it take for her to break the ice again lol.
anw~ the earholes i got in K2.. or issit K1.. nearly closed up ytd.. -.- i was wondering how long i didnt wear earrings ler.. then i walked over to mirror.. HOLY COW! its nearly gone lol. i took the thickest studs i can find and just stuffed it in. first its pain, then a kinda numbness set in.. but the pain is still there. esp in left ear. haha..since 80% of my ears are covered in injuries.. bobian. i think i opened up a wound when i was putting that stud in ba. hai. beauty = pain. haha.
hmm. regarding the issue, id figured i shd use this space instead of the tag. or im gunna flood the board lol.
i dont mind having you in my life, you were and still are a worthy friend. but that wont make any difference..i still cant find you, play with you, talk to you etc etc etc. its going to be hell for you sia. this is beyond my control ler...
i reached this decision because i -maybe- knew something more than you did. i wont say im disgusted by the info, i just had a really negative view towards it. made me quite dispirited. btw its reliable lol. came outta my mum's mouth. she wont lie, no matter how badly she was hurt by me. guranteed. i was sitting on the fence all the time.. and this just pushed me to the other side.
i dunno whether im going the right or wrong way. but i dont really care now lol. i just know that if i go on im gonna go mental liao..everytime i open fridge and see the candy cane ill go sad sia. more specifically, guilty. till now still cant bear to eat. hah. so i got myself a final decision to ease the bad feelings inside. tadaa. anw.. back on topic~
step back for a moment ba.. i can only use words.. the decision still lies in you lol. its not worth it.. to have a relationship that will leave everybody scarred and hurt.. for both you and me lol. a relationship that you know wont be lasting de. even if all these never happened.. what will happen in the next few weeks? months? years? have to face this ending.. no matter how much time has passed. for our case, the ending came ler. maybe its really too early, but its not up to us to control.
so yea. i cant force you to change the way youre thinking.. but ill try to dissuade. saw a lot of people suffering in this kinda situations. dont be the next victim.. its really mentally tiring de. not fun at all..
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