Single ladies

@deh: YES I AM SO POOR NOW ): I... kinda did. But I dont think you gai will notice. Only an inch gone or so. And yeh :D Family love be nice. Until the sister gets annoying HAWHAW nah just kidding.

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SENT AN EMAIL TO YOU, ANNE
let's try completing everything before we get hitched and marry our asses off

curse of unpopularity

@deh: i replied to your comment, but i forgot it'll get pushed down with every new post i make l: i'll find new ways to allow you to chat/sex me up soon

went ahead and did it
now my hair's way too straight for me hahahaha
and i smell like i just soaked myself in chemicals for four long hours

self esteem +1 now, though.

Makeup isn't appealing to me as much as before. I be looking into more permanent changes. Honey potting, rebonding, healing the skin... Expensive, but I won't have to give it care and concern every damn day. I've no time for this yo. Think it'll just be a matter of time before I succumb to plastic stuff. In a few years, maybe. Haha.

Had a nice bonding time with the family, as promised. Good stuff. Found out that my favourite tree in Sembawang beach fell a long while ago. Felt like a bit of my old memories just died a little inside.

I'll spend every day of the weekday worrying about my appearance
but when the weekends come, my mind'll just switch to this "oh fuck it whats the point" mode.
So the huge ass spending spree I have been planning since the start of the week just got scrapped today. I threw away my whole list of stuff to buy and settled on buying sushi for the family instead. Because fuck my indecisive mind.

(Y)

stuck on repeat

over and over again

easy to laugh it off
not easy to really laugh it off

this weird flowery jasmine scent be haunting me since morning
why do i smell all jasmine-y, i dont know

i dont know anything \m/

gonna dedicate tomorrow to family and myself
get back in touch with that 'other forms of love' mr odd guy talked about
maybe it'll help

you're just a sad song

just when i'm feeling all down and out, itunes had to be an angel and send a shitload of sad songs playing my way.

yeah...
i dont need this now.

and the stars came out and filled up the sky

For a female who knows exactly how her body works
It's weird that I still feel so extremely uncomfortable with my own self.

Not one bit of my body that I actually like. Shitty face, shitty waist, shitty legs. I spend more time in front of the mirror frowning at myself than anything else.

So upset about this. Binge.

My day's cleanly split into two halves now. Art in the day, music at night. Keeps me busy... but for some reason, my head still can find time to worry about dumb things. O heart, cease your pining...!!!

On a lighter note, the mother bought me green tea sachets :D
Luff!

Air in G

Forcing myself to read score sheets sucks ass.
But I'm doing it, and will continue doing it.
Because I know I can.

RAAAAHHH

Rainbows all up my sock

Not fated ah
Kept on missing each others' calls


NOT FATED AHHHahahahaha.

The day you slipped away

We're very good at acting, huh.
It's nice that I'm a lot more at ease around you now, though. I guess it's great progress for a wasted potential. Lunch was actually fun with you guys.

Makes me appreciate art a lot more. Seeing how much you suck at drawing made me giggle inside. :B Teehee.

The inner hopeless romantic in me likes the fact that you're taking up violin too... could be a coincidence, but I realized you only started showing interest after knowing I played the violin as a child. Didn't give a reply after the Fang badgered you repeatedly for the reason behind the choice too. Makes one wonder.

I guess, below all that jaded experiences and tough words
I still believe in love stories. :B

So curious.