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UPDATE (:
ive since recovered from fatigue. and decided to take out all the cosmestics my mum had and experiment with it. with my sis.

Little kiddos acting adultish


My darling wedgies. Sis requested her darling tigger to be put beside it too.



Promised tuna that ill show him my lineart. The char in this pict is pretty much screwed, but.. just look at the lines, wouldcha.





THE PARAGRAPHS ARE TOTALLY RANDOM AS I DONT HAVE THE ENERGY TO LINK EM ALL UP TOGETHER.

woke up after 7 hours' sleep feeling all drained and achy.

found injuries that ive never noticed, until i accidently spilt water on my leg and went 'ow'.

needs a liquid based eyeliner >_> this current one is pissing my socks off. Damn smudges.

went home damn late..

feeling stupid and blocked. my head cannot function today. guess im still tired.

snapped at js with my fingers when i ran past him, and missed. incurred his wrath after he finished his run.

left mint and sot's groupie during the run, didnt bother catching up with them. and im glad i did. they freaking got 50+ positions. i would have died if i ran at their spd.

indulged in gossip with friends and found out some not-so-positive information. made me and my other friend rethink the situation we're in.

left mint and sot's groupie again after the run, and went home with another groupie. was full of crap lah, with kw and as and me. we were practically eyeing everything as food. was funnn! everyone was being hyper.

dont even have the energy to finish off this packet of potato chips.

when we went home, went on THE fateful bus. an uncle and -prolly- our sch mates were in a heated quarrel.. then the uncle went bonkers and screamed vulgar.

lost my balance in bus and clinged onto as.. like.. a .. koala. no its not a joke. :/ lesbies!

tired. might update if i can rem anything else.

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Its actually Post 151, i checked my total no. of posts in this blog. woot! new record!

S . T . F . U
Sexy Teddies Fanclub United
(c) Shan

finalised. ^^


Did a poem and made ms kaur and teachers laugh ^^

It was 15 Feb
When the British fell
The people cried
Tears filled a well

-i forgot this stanza-

From this day onwards
Total defence was born
To protect them from everything
Even aliens who eats corn

-i forgot this stanza too-

Dolled up for Xcountry, eyeliner pruss some extra stuffs. Getting ready to take photos. LOL. will update when i reach home.

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Im feeling neglected. O:

sian luh. no one paid any attention to me tdy.. even the fishes. at least MSN was better.. ABIT. i cant take the first steps >_>

the agony.. when you try to step into cliques.. cannot be described lah. so i was and never will be on the top of anyone's priority list. gotta get used to it.

destroyed my nail during FNN. the handmixer had a lousy button that SIMPLY DONT WANNA BUDGE. so i exerted all my force thru the nail on my thumb and it went crack. best part, ITS RIPPED OFF MY **** THUMB WHEN I ACCIDENTLY HOOKED THE CHIPPED PART ON SOME FABRIC.

now almost half of my nail is gone.

almost got run down by bikes, vans, cars this whole week. heck, MY UNIFORM IS WHITE! how can they not spot me. >_>

TMR NEED DO PRESENTATION ZOMG .. SOLO SOLO SOLOOOOO.... what shd i base it on, gotta come up with a corny topic.

WHY WE SHOULDNT USE TEXTBOOKS IN SCHOOL.

good enough? hmm.

(c) above .gif file belongs to deviantart.

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I ATE TAKOOOOOOO.
cheese + chicken ^^
OWNED.

if you ever saw a shan shaped object floating thru the air at 2.47, its me. was blown away by the taste. nibbles turned into chomps. MUAHAHA. its that nice.

eye very pain. injured it.. somewhere, somehow..

didnt thicken my eyeliner today, only a few spotted it this time round. wasnt that pleased with the look tho, too un-obvious. would have preferred the uber black one.

drew my masterpiece, version2. of Amis Pour toujours! i shaded it and stuff. all my closer friends were drawn in.. well, not all, for now. cant continue with this throbbing sht of an eye.

BTW~~~

S. T. F. U.
Shan The Fugly Umbrella.

^^

due to some discussions, its futher upgraded to shan the freaky umbrella, and then,

shan the fucking umbrella.

-_-

Stuff The Fucking Umbrellas, this STFU thing is officially scrapped.

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went to school with eyeliners. ... ahhh... horrible mix of emotions.

caused a mini ruckus..
" EH SHAN WHAT HAPPEN TO YOUR EYES ZOMFG "
" WAH LOOK LIKE THE CARTOON IN MANGA LEH "
" GOTHICCCCCCC "
" eyebags? "
" MY GOD PANDA EYES "
" ehhh , pretty! "
" look like doll leh you "
" i think shan looks hotter today "
" OMG WASH AWAY LAH "
" wah shan.. make-up lehhh.. not bad "
" SHAN THE VOODOO DOLL!!! "
" woah gothic eh? ^^ "
" EEEE WTF... ER XIN LAH!! WHY DO UNTIL LIDAT?! "

thats all that i can remember.. some thru sms, some thru words.
=_=
waliewwww.
overwhelmed.
my emotions was going from up to down and up again.

but.. this is me lor. i like black eyes, and i dont wear contacts :/ i dont know why the black pigmentations in my hair and eyes are so.. un-black, not my problem. :/

at least now i know who appreciates goth muahaha. X:

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you know what? im bored. either life's getting so exciting you feel like youre gunna die of heart failure anytime, or its just dead boring. whats up with the extremes?

bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored;

and hungry.
getting sick of sch food, which is good. im reverting back to my usual diet soon.. ah well.. OFF TO FIND SOME CHOW~~~

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sian.

majority said my bangs are alright, 2 said it sucked, some said cute, one said that i looked like a doll. one said its hot.
overall its ok i guess, didnt fare too badly. heng -_-

tried to understand her. since we depend on each other to survive in sch, why not treat each other like friends instead of.. just a partner to pair up with. lol. i rly tried lah, tho, you know, its hard to control my temper when chemical solutions are left out in the open.. when THE BUNSEN BURNER IS LIKE THIS CLOSE TO HER ARM OMFG. i was freaked out ._. stoned there, beside the sink until shes done with her stuff. And she didnt even notice how close she was to danger.

...

of course i kept quiet. didnt flare up or smth. i aint the teacher -_- shes so mysterious. dunno what can actually make her lose her cool and.. show some emotions.

ps:

yay , measured my wedgies to see if i can surpass my friends' heights.
its 3.5 inches.
im 159cm.
in total, 168cm.
still short.

..
damn.

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update:
Ill delete the Ghost online review soon, or you guys just stop reading when your eyes reach the green bold wordings. (:

Bought
1.Eyeliner
2. Polishes
3. Foundation
4. Uber high wedgies. I towered above my mum kekeke.
5. THICK hairband. Polka dotted. lols.

I have finished my look for goth arh. used loads of mascara and eyeliner. only thing missing is.. clothing. need to stock up.

i felt so.. captivated by myself. LOL. how weird that make-up can change my lousy face into a better one. Ill bring the loot to sch tmr, going to hog a toilet putting all that stuff on. Think Ms kaur is the only one who can spot eyeliner ah. must be careful.

Im brimming with confidence lmao.
I GOT MY CHINA DOLL BANGS.
FOR FREE!! mum cut it for me. yea, i know it was a BIG risk.
good points:
1.The pathetic tendrils are now gone. Jh and mint can now stare at my face in peace.
2. I was actually pleased with the results.
3. It highlighted my eyes. ^^ i can have the perfect excuse to get my eyeliner now.

bad points:
1. I DONT LOOK EMO ANYMORE~~~ yes, i have to open my eyes and smile.
2. Have to make tying ponytails my 24hr job, it looks too freaking.. young.. when let down. yuck. reminds me of a certain haruhi when i put on my hairband with ribbons. ..my god..
3. My jawline managed to kill off the perfect look..have to position my head in a certain angle in order to achieve that. and its tiring. so i dumped it all together.

Summary:
Its a love or hate it hairstyle. Might take sometime for you guys to get used to it. After all, shan was known among you people as the emo kia. 3 years of curtain like fringes, gone. ^^ ive gone over to the.. un-emo side.

uhhh, and i guess thats about it? Ill be on at weird timings until dad's com is fixed.

and.. ill start my photo uploading the moment i get my trade in settled. so dont worry, little miss photo freak. ill join you soon. tho, of course, i wont be sticking my face everywhere in my blog. cant risk making my readers hurl, no?

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why why why why why ><>

i have a heart too, you know.

kinda hurts when people doesnt notice your little hints.
WHERE THE HELL CAN I FIND SOMEONE WHO ACTUALLY NOTICES AND UNDERSTANDS MY HINTS?! eesh.