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i didnt put any copyright stuffies on it, for i trust you guys. ANYONE WHO STEALS IT WILL GET IT FROM ME. NO MATTER WHO YOU ARE.

yea, thats it. little story behind it..drawn for someone. :

so you want my heart? come take it D: its easy, just grab it happily and go home, but remember the consequences, remember your responsibility. its a human life, beating in your hands. . .
dont play if you dont know the rules (:
regret will do nothing good.

http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g162/pencilspam/Image001-1.jpg
my sketch

http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g162/pencilspam/Image004.jpg
close-up. LOL.

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uploadng..just a little while more
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click to view full picture :D

alrighty, intro-ing to you the alternate me[s]. i created four different me, going by seasons. left is summer, same old image as the real me, and right is fall, the one i like teh most. not too happy, not too sad. winter and spring coming up, if possible.

its inspired from quite a lot of stuffies. 1st, im in the year of the sheep. 2nd, i saw a review on the movie " silence of the lambs " , 3rd, i decided to try drawing something macabre without killing the cute drawing style and so on.. :D

sheep on a fork was supposed to be just a normal ol candy floss, but, mehehe. i twisted it after getting the DING in my head.

mehehe.

yes, i know its wacky, but wadaya expect from a person who daydreams 20/7? :/

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click to enlarge, as usual.

know 90% of you ppl will alr know who this is, but fret not, my blog is not read by your darlings.i hope. boss goes into emo mode ^^
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yawn. im bored. its a thin, thin line between arrogance and high self esteem. i guess i should start working on my faults and not defending it. bleh. im still bored. having a stupid block. cant draw anything. like, damn.

HOW CAN I BE A DESIGNER WHEN I BLANK OUT EVERYTIME I SHOVE PRESSURE ON MYSELF?!

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maybe its just my fever, or does everything seem to be extra against me today?

bah. 1st, i got the timing wrong! im supposed to fall sick on sun, not today!! need to increase my intake of water to balance things out. heng its mild.. wasnt in a good shape in morning, my throat was drying up.. budden after shuffling down for recess and taking a sip of the famous spaghetti sauce .. i kinda.. perked up again. and stayed that way.

2nd, its not my fault if i dont have a mature tone ;_; but at least i dont have a childish mind, alright. in case anyone of you are wondering, im NOT faking anything >_> its a habit of mine to smile and garble crap out at anyone, unless i seriously dislike them. even for people i dislike, ill just give a black face and ignore :/ normal stuff, im not that psycho.

sigh, you think i dont want to actually talk about something ah? who doesnt, tell me :/ i wanna chip in and stuff toooooo. but.. really.. theres.. no.. connection.. T_T nothing in common summore..hai. so ill just be the slapstick joker then :D be as random as i could be, so i can have fun even if i didnt fit in :D

maybe its a curse that im exceptionally sensitive towards such issues. one little action, one simple word can hurt quite deeply O:

i know its stupid to post such stuff on this blog. i should have went to the 100% private one :/ sure tio flame one. but, gimme a chance to be blunt pwish~ i know everyone has their own views, ill just be the first to say it then O: tho i still hope it will not be seen. . . .

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Jiahui, your pictures. :D

shan the 24/7 free service uploader, come find me for free uploading [TM]

today is basically typical,shant blog. ^^

oh wait, there IS something to blog. Sian, sometimes reflections are needed. self reflection. really.

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MY NEW DARLING = NOKIA 5300! its time i ditch the usual black for something brighter. red + white.

today was alright, got a makeover from a sales person -pink eyeliner ftw- , bought LONG top + tights, complained about my wedgies with every chance i had.
i wanted to upload photos of the loot and stuff via phone but my mood got spoilt before the photoshoot. too bad. :D

am not going to change my number.

off to install the CDrom.. then ill.. start uploading all my songs in.. ha.

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cmon cmon cmon, 13 more points to my chocopets background! go go go, quick, come to my site!
:D igniite.blogspot.commmmmmmmmmm~

today is the day i make meh darling mine. :D ooo ~ MP3, 3G, EVERYTHING! wahahaha. alright, im going to name my new phone.. " dian hua IV " ^^

i like MayDay :D i dunno why, but their songs kind of rock. i know they belong to the chi genre .. hmm. but maybe ill make an allowance for them.

making an effort to shorten my posts, you see. i call this ProjectShortenPosts II. haha, in a rename-everything-that-belongs-to-me mood.

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Yea, i deleted the older updates on purpose. it suddenly seemed so trivial a matter to ponder about.

Be a hawk, or be a bat? both gets what they want in the end, through different ways.. swoop and grab, or hide in shadows and slowly wait for the perfect timing to strike and kill?

considering all the factors... it all boils down to belief .. or.. throwing everything to the wind.

BAH. what, tell me, WHAT is safe enough for me to invest everything in?! my life, my emotions, my everything D:
friendship? relationships? kinship?? T_________________T

i want an answer... ;_; ...i NEED an answer! T_T