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maybe im just too sensitive :/ yea, maybe. well of course im pleased about it, but .. its also a sign that everything is gonna just fade away again >_> just like before.

ah well

FINALLY FOUND MP3 INPUTS TO MY SPEAKERS DAMMIT
found it by chance..
was putting my head on the table
then my eyes saw the little opening at the side!
and all these months..i was looking for it in front.

sorry, didnt notice that my post got cut by good ol blogger
just as well, i need to rant

HOW CAN YOU CRASH ON ME OMGGGGG
I DEFINED SOOOO MANY BRUSHES ALREADY >_>
ROAR ROAR ROAR
i hate you serif T_T

was about to make a new skin >___> but its all gone now, im too miffed to redo it

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i was one of the sad few who had hell loads of extra time left for coursework
missed recess yay
missed mock exams yay!
missed lessons YAY!
and im suspecting that mr tan is a gamer omg.

report card.. tense lol >< my mum and i were flashing that polite smile to each other LOLOLOL
have to find a hiding place for my report book asap >_>
my points..are almost double the points for the course im aiming for lalala :/

like what she said, the truth will only hit us when our noses are in front of the paper :D

went home with jh...again? o___o LOL.
we were stuffing each other with food
" shannnnn, i look like a mother feeding her child! "
thats all i remember :/

but heyyyyy, im 162 already!! grow 2 cm alr kthx :/ now i just need another 3cm LOL. i cannot be satisfied when it comes to height >_>

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boring. regret going school lol -.- waste my precious mc tmd. still have to redo a small bit tomorrow.

felt so sick at school lol, headache. miraculously recovered when school ended.

eh by the way. olvls day and timing tell me pl0x
Next mon is chi olvls.. 7.30.
then eng olvls is from 7.30 to 9.30.. date leh? 5 june???
didnt get the paper ytd ._. and the booklet iono throw where le


went to splurge with jiahui yay
got a furry pouch that matches my pencil case. pastel pink.
got lil magnet bookmarks. pastel blue.
got pair of earrings. silver. sad >< no pastel colours.

lol yes, what the hell happened to my gothic shades?!

shopping with her was fun.. but.. our tastes clashed.
i go for cute stuff
she go for elegance
i go for pastel colours
she go for vivid ones
i go for manga stuff
she go for disney
..i go for ninjas she goes for samurais LOLOLOL.

uhhh >_> rambling. ..rambling. COUGH. ack ack ack.

ill be off.. to research.. on ..coursework.. damn >_>

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its.. 10.50 :/ i cant believe i actually begged my mum to let go on again just to..
..type out an apology LOL.
or else i really cannot sleep ><

HAY PKS! Public apology for you zomg.
i wasnt angry, i swear
was so cold to you because i was multitasking away, and yea. tend to go lesser on emoticons.

appreciate all your help and advices, i really thought it through.. tho sometimes its abit harsh lah -.- cough. i know, going by your point of view, im walking on the same path of doom again..

but sometimes things isnt just black and white, you should know ><
im not blinded or anything this time, serious. i put in a lot a lot a lot a lot of thought into this ><
i know im taking a huge risk, but at least its a calculated risk :/one life.. might as well give it my all, right? plus, they taught me to stick up to what i think is right, im just following instructions X:

though yea, if it fails ill accept the consequences willingly :/
im sorry if i hurt you by being so.. stubborn :/ sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry! but shan only learns things the hard way.. LOL. :]

buddehs! ^^

its 11.15 now, btw. you owe me 25 mins ;)

-Shan

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yesterday night was the worst night possible, omfg -_-
being a side sleeper, i have to resort to putting all my weight on the left side of my body instead of alternating.. resulting in numb limbs LOLOLOL. .....actually its not that funny when you have been woken up by it for so many times.
add on to the fact that it was freezing. i turned off the fan, buried myself under a whole lot of blankies, and im still cold T_T

so yea, might as well dont sleep -_- could have grabbed the time being tortured to finish up on my newspapers and magazines.

the cycle carried on to today! lack of sleep either made me smash into things or made things smash into me. clumsy like @#^#& lah -_- and of course, i got miffed at myself for it.

have to exercise hell loads of control to contain my emotions. doubt its working.

ah well.. i feel like going to field trip T_____T
since im cutting short my mc and going school tmr, why not cut it even shorter and attend the trip.. anything is better than being caged up here. ahhh the agony ><

on a happier note, im recovering. pain is receding already.. i can open my mouth without wincing!
which definitely spells doom for that one oreo cookie left in the fridge.
>_> for the pain that little cookie has caused me.. ima give it hell loads more pain @$#%@#%

LOL.
bad excuse for wanting to eat it X:

by the way, have been thinking.



If you use panadol, you turn into a bunneh ._.
well, doesnt seem that bad ><
by the way..Love is designed by ai otsuka, not me.

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i felt a weird urge to remove this post and keep this as a lil secret with only people i trust!

or maybe im just being delirious :D

wrecked with worry about cs tho -_-
you sure mr tan is that heartless anot omfg
help me ask pl0x T_T

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GOODMORNING MAM SIR! :DDDD
Classic inside joke lolololol ><
Wonder if the MOE people got it or not.

English!
Ames and me got first in class omg shift eleven one one 111
lameass attempt to show off LOL. ><
but no lah, i still got screwed for the marks... am very happy of course.. but.. not to the point of feeling like celebrating.
im still short of one passing subject ><

cwp is full of loonies -.-
lucky i slowed my pace during the last minute -.-
at first i thought i did something wrong.. but after some time.. it finally dawned on me that ive became a weirdo's victim AGAIN.

lastly.. missed my medical checkup for..3rd year running? ah well.. tata, 21/5/07!

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Update :
Tried out realism.
phailed totally.
what can be more stupid than a manga nose in realism art LOL.
shadows arent dramatic enough..hair no depth, eyes cant blend with skin, and i wont bring up the nose again T_T
was gripping the mouse so hard that i thought it would crack or something o_o
dedicated to my pri sch friend yay T_T
sorry for such crap quality lol.

edit: i stuffed the piccy in photobucket so as to make it more troublesome to see, in hope that joo people will rather skip it instead.
HERE

tried to make myself feel happier because of the pathetic realism artwork and drew an oekaki!
HERE
i know it pretty much sucked, but at least its better than my realism -no, make it demi realism - disaster.


iono whether i should laugh or cry lol
sis has been stuck at stage... 3 ..for ages. feel like helping, but.. body no energy to go over there LOL. shes looking all sad and frustrated now~ but well, she must learn!

...helped in the end. -_-

hmmm o_o thats it?
today will be very boring X:
MAYBE i might try out PT. MAYBE. if im bored enough.