Friday, July 23, 2010

when we pray are we just closing our eyes

Feel like I'm under a lot of invisible pressure to perform.

I know I was more of a burden than a help. You were right to get pissed off at me. Sorry Edwin :C

I know I'm a slow learner. Sorry KP. :C

I haven't been talking to you much these days. Sorry Mom. :C

I suck. Sorry, self.

A quote I chanced on a book: "Never saying Sorry and Thank you is key to being successful." I can see why now. How can I ever be successful if I'm always bowing my head to others?

Thursday, July 22, 2010

no time for consequences

I havent raided the toilets with you guys yet :/

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

get a grip
dammit

the girl and the robot

So insecure.
Saw roulette accepting peeps on fuckbook, and it ruined my mood completely.
Who are those people?
Is that a lady?
I wonder if they screwed before?
I wonder if he screwed all his lady friends before?
What's he doing now, busy charming another lady up?
He's so popular, it's as if we're from two different worlds
How?
Does this mean its impossible to even try for a serious one?
Those advances in the past, those hints, what do they mean?
Were you even slightly interested? Or did you just see me as another easy meatbag?
Why me?
Why me?????????

i dont understand
i cant understand
i dont know you at all.....

Monday, July 19, 2010

You keep bouncing to the same song

Moving on.
Will take things as they come.

Very thankful to have so many nice friends beside me.
I'm one lucky ass.
HELLYEEEEAAAAH

Sky's too blue for comfort

Couldn't sleep the entire night. Can't even keep track of the amount of times I tossed and turned on the bed.

I'm feeling even shittier than usual, actually.
What is love
This is not love
This was never love

Dear god
I hate myself so much

Sunday, July 18, 2010

dirty numb angel, boy

WHAT HAVE YOU DONE.
WHAT HAVE /I/ DONE.

Don't know whether I should laugh or cry at this turnout.
Maybe I'll just do both.

YOU PROMISED NOT TO GO IN TOO DEEP, SHAN
WHY

wazzzza

this feels so different :E
no pining, no disappointment, no butterflies.