its 10am. and im still not ready to go out. im starting to dread.. zomg. i know no matter what i say, ill still become free frag de. bang bang.
for i stone.
took out the pretty lil top that bev and me got in far east. mixed feelings.
look like jap student when paired up with my skirt and high cut shoes. hahaha, it doesnt look gothic at all when im the one wearing it. so i gave up and made it high-sch-student style.
will update after i return from lan. ANYONE WILLING TO SAVE ME FROM AN EMBARRASSING DEATH PL0X SMS ME TO GIMME A REASON TO BE DISTRACTED.
Saturday, January 13, 2007
Friday, January 12, 2007
-50-
random addition post.. that is edited before published. real post is below.
song lyrics^^ ill translate it. Beautiful fighters, by ayumi hamasaki
scars that were not fully healed
were torn open
but after some time
they tries to heal again.
we cant deny that we
dont have sad days
but dont let this stop you in your tracks
all of the battling women are beautiful fighters..
its the chorus only, and a verse. the others too chim for my brain to translate.
sad lor. have to put on mask after mask to hide everything. i feel stupid but cannot stop. but too bad they are not there to help me. work work work. sad.
cant say out the problem, one found out while the other guessed it wtf. i must be more careful. ^^i know almost everyone went through this before too.. but.. it still feel so sad..
A.R.G.H.
why cant i just stay in school and only acknowledge that the whole world is in there?! why must i venture out of that place?!
warning to people who understands my insider language:
i tell you, a life of spades aint good. dont admire us. never ever ever admire us. you might see it as a blessing but to us, its a curse. a really , really bad one. one rare butterfly is more valuable than many many many little common butterflies.
song lyrics^^ ill translate it. Beautiful fighters, by ayumi hamasaki
scars that were not fully healed
were torn open
but after some time
they tries to heal again.
we cant deny that we
dont have sad days
but dont let this stop you in your tracks
all of the battling women are beautiful fighters..
its the chorus only, and a verse. the others too chim for my brain to translate.
sad lor. have to put on mask after mask to hide everything. i feel stupid but cannot stop. but too bad they are not there to help me. work work work. sad.
cant say out the problem, one found out while the other guessed it wtf. i must be more careful. ^^i know almost everyone went through this before too.. but.. it still feel so sad..
A.R.G.H.
why cant i just stay in school and only acknowledge that the whole world is in there?! why must i venture out of that place?!
warning to people who understands my insider language:
i tell you, a life of spades aint good. dont admire us. never ever ever admire us. you might see it as a blessing but to us, its a curse. a really , really bad one. one rare butterfly is more valuable than many many many little common butterflies.
-49-
Today is Friday.
..
WOOT. i survived one week ^^ with no bad memories whatsoever. hahaha.
1st up, PE. we ran in the rain. walking is alright, i love it. but RUNNING. heck. no wai im carrying on. so we took every shortcut available and cut our laps from 6 down to three. Hey, our school is HUGE. 3 is enough for a month or two. but still, we're drenched. hahaha.
Played badminton with HL. we have the same style when playing. Played using force and reactions. no skills needed. O: Just whack the shuttlecock and see the other person run everywhere to return the ball. and vice versa. the shuttlecock was like zooming everywhere LOL. our arms were sore from all that smashing.
Then, the best part came. MUSIC LESSONS ZOMG WTF. cher told us to write what we did that was associated with music.
i saw some.
"Band practice"
"Playing games"
so i thought a bit, and decided to put something special.
"Starting a rock band. :D"
Lmfao. everyone was exploding when cher read this out. with laughter or chatters. But im serious leh -.- Its my dream. my last dream that is not fulfilled. im on the track. the moment i perfect everything is the time i shall drag the pitiful victims to be members. muahaha. yes im looking at you.
i also wrote "Momentum" as my fav song or something. majority put " welcome to the black parade " . my ex fav song.
and talking abt MCR, zomg Gerard Way is still as charming as ever. O: he looks 100.1% like a pretty lady when viewed at the right angle LOL. still like his eyes. i judge people from their eyes. ^^
Making little avatars for people, (: im proud of my photoshop program. it does everything for me lmao. i just click and drag and a lousy pict comes out. spend a little more effort and it will look presentable, tho not to the rate of being excellent. im still at the C5 grade wahaha. ill post up the links to the designs when im free.
got a feeling that i was being interrogated during recess. ok la, look. My close friends are 90% guys. be it virtual or real life. Dont ask me why im like that. Ask god.
Now look at yourself.
How do you treat your close friends? stand a metre from each other and smile politely?
BULLSHIT.
pardon my crude language, but its the best word to describe my inner thoughts.
if you can get chummy with your friends why cant I get chummy with mine? >_>" like im doing anything disgusting like that. i didnt even go to your standard of touching and hugging and pulling and tugging and pushing AND molesting.
AND plus, i was un-informed. no need to elaborate right.
i really had a very good mind to give them a knuckle sandwich when they probed. irritating. but of course i cant la, cuz im still partly responsible for this. will be my fault if i flared up. i would have become unreasonable. so i smiled and replied. THEN. LOL. I went overboard with my happiness when i said that sentence. I CANT CONTROL MY EMOTIONS LOL LOL LOL. i started giggling like crap and going hyper. man, i should just pluck my face off and stomp it on the ground.
shan. you will snap out of it. now relax. but that feeling is so damn.. lol. FUNNY!
cough. i really.. cant wait. seriously. haha..
and btw, im not a flirt. to you two.. i might look like one in your eyes, BUT IM NOT ZOMFG. Maybe i really treated my guy friends as my sisters liao. wahaha.
but ..i still love everyone. haha. that sentence cheered me up.
about everything from my past, im forgetting it all. im sorry if ive hurt anyone. landed anyone in trouble. but im determined to go on. start the new chapter in my life.
Sapphire is not my audition character, Sapphire is ME. Im no longer the saddist from the past. Trying my best to be positive. Ill stop asking life to give anything to me. Ill give what i can to life. it was a mistake, ill admit it. a mistake from the very beginning. goodluck in life. (:
..
WOOT. i survived one week ^^ with no bad memories whatsoever. hahaha.
1st up, PE. we ran in the rain. walking is alright, i love it. but RUNNING. heck. no wai im carrying on. so we took every shortcut available and cut our laps from 6 down to three. Hey, our school is HUGE. 3 is enough for a month or two. but still, we're drenched. hahaha.
Played badminton with HL. we have the same style when playing. Played using force and reactions. no skills needed. O: Just whack the shuttlecock and see the other person run everywhere to return the ball. and vice versa. the shuttlecock was like zooming everywhere LOL. our arms were sore from all that smashing.
Then, the best part came. MUSIC LESSONS ZOMG WTF. cher told us to write what we did that was associated with music.
i saw some.
"Band practice"
"Playing games"
so i thought a bit, and decided to put something special.
"Starting a rock band. :D"
Lmfao. everyone was exploding when cher read this out. with laughter or chatters. But im serious leh -.- Its my dream. my last dream that is not fulfilled. im on the track. the moment i perfect everything is the time i shall drag the pitiful victims to be members. muahaha. yes im looking at you.
i also wrote "Momentum" as my fav song or something. majority put " welcome to the black parade " . my ex fav song.
and talking abt MCR, zomg Gerard Way is still as charming as ever. O: he looks 100.1% like a pretty lady when viewed at the right angle LOL. still like his eyes. i judge people from their eyes. ^^
Making little avatars for people, (: im proud of my photoshop program. it does everything for me lmao. i just click and drag and a lousy pict comes out. spend a little more effort and it will look presentable, tho not to the rate of being excellent. im still at the C5 grade wahaha. ill post up the links to the designs when im free.
got a feeling that i was being interrogated during recess. ok la, look. My close friends are 90% guys. be it virtual or real life. Dont ask me why im like that. Ask god.
Now look at yourself.
How do you treat your close friends? stand a metre from each other and smile politely?
BULLSHIT.
pardon my crude language, but its the best word to describe my inner thoughts.
if you can get chummy with your friends why cant I get chummy with mine? >_>" like im doing anything disgusting like that. i didnt even go to your standard of touching and hugging and pulling and tugging and pushing AND molesting.
AND plus, i was un-informed. no need to elaborate right.
i really had a very good mind to give them a knuckle sandwich when they probed. irritating. but of course i cant la, cuz im still partly responsible for this. will be my fault if i flared up. i would have become unreasonable. so i smiled and replied. THEN. LOL. I went overboard with my happiness when i said that sentence. I CANT CONTROL MY EMOTIONS LOL LOL LOL. i started giggling like crap and going hyper. man, i should just pluck my face off and stomp it on the ground.
shan. you will snap out of it. now relax. but that feeling is so damn.. lol. FUNNY!
cough. i really.. cant wait. seriously. haha..
and btw, im not a flirt. to you two.. i might look like one in your eyes, BUT IM NOT ZOMFG. Maybe i really treated my guy friends as my sisters liao. wahaha.
but ..i still love everyone. haha. that sentence cheered me up.
about everything from my past, im forgetting it all. im sorry if ive hurt anyone. landed anyone in trouble. but im determined to go on. start the new chapter in my life.
Sapphire is not my audition character, Sapphire is ME. Im no longer the saddist from the past. Trying my best to be positive. Ill stop asking life to give anything to me. Ill give what i can to life. it was a mistake, ill admit it. a mistake from the very beginning. goodluck in life. (:
Thursday, January 11, 2007
-48-
today is extraordinary! im so proud of myself that i can print this post out and hand them to people as leaflets. ^^
backtracking to SS presentation, ms kaur said i put in a lotta effort by really trying to present with no script, no nothing. But actually, truth is, i SIMPLY had NO SCRIPT. LOL. rushed work = no time for such troublesome stuff called scripts. the whole group crapped through everything but we made it. ^^ WOOHOO.
I broke my record by talking to a lot of people. feel extrovert-ish. hey, talking is fun! i plan to do it again soon. if i can have the chance again. thank god for today.
i blamed everyone for not talking to me, but truth is, its me who didnt talk to them lmao. wahaha.
im so happy i can change the timing of my tuition and go join them in lan and play cs on sat, but of course ill consider first. not fun being the best victim to shoot at, you know. but the way sherman crapped to me abt all ganging up on dex makes me even happier. bang. ^^ hohoho.
randy wanted to play my acnt for me. for free(?) i swooned at the idea but of course i didnt show it . >_>'. but.. kekeke. free xp sia. chiongster somemore, that guy. i would do everything to get him to play for me actually. hes more experienced, plays quicker, and basically it means that i can leave my darling angel in his care. unless hes planning to hack. :/
im settling down for some good ol friendship. to 90% of my friends, good luck with your loveys! ^^ wahaha. but next time.. TELL ME IF REALLY GOT DARLINGS LIAO HOR~ I WANT SPREAD~~~
cough.
A girl called my phone, friend of the harrasser. asked me about the snatching of steads. OMG SHE SOUNDS SO CUTE. LOL. i got her number. ^^ DIE YOU PEOPLE, SHAN IS ON REVENGE SOON! wahaha. but i wont la. she sounds too cute to be harmful. and i ..sorta.. started to show pity liao. i shouldnt have been so angry. they sounds so.. freaking.. worried. LOL. Please la~ i was lmaoing into my phone and i think she heard all the snorts and sniggers.
I shall repeat, I WONT be taking guys from CCHY's Sec4 cohort. Now shut up and go away. ^^
Dont destroy my preparations for poly. ^^
Ps: AYUMIIIIIII is my new idol ^^
p.p.s: Where are my copic markers TT
p.p.p.s: Please do a survey for me. Its sent to everyone in my contacts. important, not a joke, not a prank. I love you guys. ^^
backtracking to SS presentation, ms kaur said i put in a lotta effort by really trying to present with no script, no nothing. But actually, truth is, i SIMPLY had NO SCRIPT. LOL. rushed work = no time for such troublesome stuff called scripts. the whole group crapped through everything but we made it. ^^ WOOHOO.
I broke my record by talking to a lot of people. feel extrovert-ish. hey, talking is fun! i plan to do it again soon. if i can have the chance again. thank god for today.
i blamed everyone for not talking to me, but truth is, its me who didnt talk to them lmao. wahaha.
im so happy i can change the timing of my tuition and go join them in lan and play cs on sat, but of course ill consider first. not fun being the best victim to shoot at, you know. but the way sherman crapped to me abt all ganging up on dex makes me even happier. bang. ^^ hohoho.
randy wanted to play my acnt for me. for free(?) i swooned at the idea but of course i didnt show it . >_>'. but.. kekeke. free xp sia. chiongster somemore, that guy. i would do everything to get him to play for me actually. hes more experienced, plays quicker, and basically it means that i can leave my darling angel in his care. unless hes planning to hack. :/
im settling down for some good ol friendship. to 90% of my friends, good luck with your loveys! ^^ wahaha. but next time.. TELL ME IF REALLY GOT DARLINGS LIAO HOR~ I WANT SPREAD~~~
cough.
A girl called my phone, friend of the harrasser. asked me about the snatching of steads. OMG SHE SOUNDS SO CUTE. LOL. i got her number. ^^ DIE YOU PEOPLE, SHAN IS ON REVENGE SOON! wahaha. but i wont la. she sounds too cute to be harmful. and i ..sorta.. started to show pity liao. i shouldnt have been so angry. they sounds so.. freaking.. worried. LOL. Please la~ i was lmaoing into my phone and i think she heard all the snorts and sniggers.
I shall repeat, I WONT be taking guys from CCHY's Sec4 cohort. Now shut up and go away. ^^
Dont destroy my preparations for poly. ^^
Ps: AYUMIIIIIII is my new idol ^^
p.p.s: Where are my copic markers TT
p.p.p.s: Please do a survey for me. Its sent to everyone in my contacts. important, not a joke, not a prank. I love you guys. ^^
Wednesday, January 10, 2007
-47-
im searching for lyrics O: will post them the moment they are out. damn im ..obsessed with these sad songs. but only sad songs allows my mind to wander.. ^^
you never know what i think of when im daydreaming lol. its not candyland or lollipop village. my daydreams are very drama de ^^ expect betrayal and fights and stabbing. ^^ hahaha.. i can drag the most innocents of all innocent lambs into my dream and twist him/her into a murderous killer wahaha.
i like ayumi's lyrics. even though the melodies are overly used. -gosh, stop repeating!- the lyrics sounds like a poem.. and one which i can completely comprehend and feel. because i have the chinese version of the lyrics, not because i understand japanese. ^^ my heart is stolen!! haha~ if i could i would sing lmao. and people who knows me know i loathe singing. ^^
took out my little goth chic top. pretty. when can i wear this? someone take me out pl0x.
omg my heart.. is being tugged out by this song again.. dun understand nevermind. can sing along jiu ok liao muahaha. its a sad love song. with a mesmerising, rockish melody. go dl and be pwned. ^^ chinese lyrics version.. cant find.. too bad. ^^
btw, if anyknow knows where copic markers are sold, inform me please. my art aint perfect without this godly colouring media. please tell me where they are found. ):
and btw, people who are reading this blog, freaking tag. i know people is looking, well, because i know it. i have my resources. would it hurt to tag. T-T
and i got my help for a tuition cher ^^ so now help me for my markers. ^^ please. ^^
you never know what i think of when im daydreaming lol. its not candyland or lollipop village. my daydreams are very drama de ^^ expect betrayal and fights and stabbing. ^^ hahaha.. i can drag the most innocents of all innocent lambs into my dream and twist him/her into a murderous killer wahaha.
i like ayumi's lyrics. even though the melodies are overly used. -gosh, stop repeating!- the lyrics sounds like a poem.. and one which i can completely comprehend and feel. because i have the chinese version of the lyrics, not because i understand japanese. ^^ my heart is stolen!! haha~ if i could i would sing lmao. and people who knows me know i loathe singing. ^^
took out my little goth chic top. pretty. when can i wear this? someone take me out pl0x.
Kiss o' Kill
Kanashimanai de watashi wa itsu demo
Hitomi tojireba hora anata no soba ni iru
Kodoku wa itsumo riyuu o sagashita
Fuan wa itsumo hakeguchi o sagashita
Tsutaete tooku temo
Sakende chikaku temo
Tsuyogaru hodo ni yowasa ga mieru yo
Kiba o muku hodo itami ga mieru yo
Marude warau you ni namida o nagashite
Marude naku you ni warau anata da kara
Karada ga ikura samayotte ite mo
Kokoro wa itsumo kekkyoku yorisotte ru
Kikasete kore made o
Hanashite kore kara o
Arinomama de ii yo uketomete iku kara
Kowagaranai de ii yo wakatte iru kara
Marude warau you ni namida o nagashite
Marude naku you ni warau anata no koto
Tsuyogaru hodo ni yowasa ga mieru yo
Kiba o muku hodo itami ga mieru yo
Arinomama de ii yo uketomete iku kara
Kowagaranai de ii yo wakatte iru kara
Marude warau you ni namida o nagashite
Marude naku you ni warau watashi tachi
omg my heart.. is being tugged out by this song again.. dun understand nevermind. can sing along jiu ok liao muahaha. its a sad love song. with a mesmerising, rockish melody. go dl and be pwned. ^^ chinese lyrics version.. cant find.. too bad. ^^
btw, if anyknow knows where copic markers are sold, inform me please. my art aint perfect without this godly colouring media. please tell me where they are found. ):
and btw, people who are reading this blog, freaking tag. i know people is looking, well, because i know it. i have my resources. would it hurt to tag. T-T
and i got my help for a tuition cher ^^ so now help me for my markers. ^^ please. ^^
Tuesday, January 09, 2007
-46-
hmmm, today was quite.. eventful.. ^^
i started feeling lousy after chatting with josh and dex online last night lmao. and i still do.. the two of them .. hit my weak spot la tmd. abit .. envious. how can people get so freaking chummy with each other wtf.
i said someone was stupid, actually im one also LOL. i only noticed after it was mentioned by someone.
that blankness, you cant fight it, right? it tells you to follow, dont think why, dont refuse, dont resist. just follow. then you will smile and feel happy. you might look like a idiot, but what matters is that youre contented. ^^ i was doing all these without realising it.
what i do for them, keke.
too bad my friends have their own cliques. all of them. sometimes, you get really.. jealous. then you will start to hate. thats why my friendships with people are rarely long lasting. the evil side of me took over. i put on an aloof and cold personality on purpose sometimes. just to piss people off. ^^ but of course, such actions have consequences. but stubborn ol Shan still refuses to change for personal reasons. Shes bitter. shes feeling insecure. shes hopeless. >_>
its not fair. all my fairytales ended ugly. whenever i see happy couples and friends im sobbing inside. i admit im jealous, so quit sniggering. I want a confidant.. i want someone who can be there for me! I also need love and care.. even if i am an antisocial. like, who doesnt, right? Seeing all your friends being happy and sisterly/brotherly with each other and lousy old me being a flaw in this perfect picture is not very amusing.
Joining their cliques is out of the picture. i said im an antisocial, right?
sucks being a mixture of passion and coldness. i can be happy as an extreme extrovert or introvert. why gimme both?!
ah well. anw.
RP : Slack time. Can travel all over campus with your lappie as long as you do your work on time. I can see poly from my window. but the cert.. aiyo. lose nyp and np leh.
NYP: Killer maths score needed. focuses on courses.. for.. nurses. no comments.
NP: Here too. Killer scores. i forgot which course it focuses on but i know i wasnt interested in it.
TP: good for IT .. but.. no interest in this poly.
): its either nyp or np lor. if i cannot make it go rp. and btw, np open house is compulsory de what. not meh. when we reach .. im going to chiong to the recording studio there and find the wall that i leant on when i was there last time. wahaha. memories. being a dj pwns. though i was a bad one.
found out jh cousin in np de o: lol. get the feeling that most of us are going open house to look for relatives and friends LOL. hahaha~
i started feeling lousy after chatting with josh and dex online last night lmao. and i still do.. the two of them .. hit my weak spot la tmd. abit .. envious. how can people get so freaking chummy with each other wtf.
i said someone was stupid, actually im one also LOL. i only noticed after it was mentioned by someone.
that blankness, you cant fight it, right? it tells you to follow, dont think why, dont refuse, dont resist. just follow. then you will smile and feel happy. you might look like a idiot, but what matters is that youre contented. ^^ i was doing all these without realising it.
what i do for them, keke.
too bad my friends have their own cliques. all of them. sometimes, you get really.. jealous. then you will start to hate. thats why my friendships with people are rarely long lasting. the evil side of me took over. i put on an aloof and cold personality on purpose sometimes. just to piss people off. ^^ but of course, such actions have consequences. but stubborn ol Shan still refuses to change for personal reasons. Shes bitter. shes feeling insecure. shes hopeless. >_>
its not fair. all my fairytales ended ugly. whenever i see happy couples and friends im sobbing inside. i admit im jealous, so quit sniggering. I want a confidant.. i want someone who can be there for me! I also need love and care.. even if i am an antisocial. like, who doesnt, right? Seeing all your friends being happy and sisterly/brotherly with each other and lousy old me being a flaw in this perfect picture is not very amusing.
Joining their cliques is out of the picture. i said im an antisocial, right?
sucks being a mixture of passion and coldness. i can be happy as an extreme extrovert or introvert. why gimme both?!
ah well. anw.
RP : Slack time. Can travel all over campus with your lappie as long as you do your work on time. I can see poly from my window. but the cert.. aiyo. lose nyp and np leh.
NYP: Killer maths score needed. focuses on courses.. for.. nurses. no comments.
NP: Here too. Killer scores. i forgot which course it focuses on but i know i wasnt interested in it.
TP: good for IT .. but.. no interest in this poly.
): its either nyp or np lor. if i cannot make it go rp. and btw, np open house is compulsory de what. not meh. when we reach .. im going to chiong to the recording studio there and find the wall that i leant on when i was there last time. wahaha. memories. being a dj pwns. though i was a bad one.
found out jh cousin in np de o: lol. get the feeling that most of us are going open house to look for relatives and friends LOL. hahaha~
Monday, January 08, 2007
-45-
Today woke late. haha.. last year its always Mint who is the late one, but this year.. muahaha. Shan strikes back i guess. Last year wait so long ler. Now its your turn to wait. hahaha~
Let jl design stuff on my hand O: Not bad, the cursive handwriting. reminds me of a certain tattoo..
Tomorrow will be the day i return the Ancient Godly Guide Book Of Ro >_> ooh. my heart aches. Must remember to pack in bag.. extra weight T-T
Bought Ayumi's album, Secret. zomg im blown away. Been itching to buy it for SO long. And now its finally in my hands, along with a pretty poster of her. I like the melodies of her songs.. fantasy like. yet the sweetness is not too coy. and some songs sounds downright depressing. Tho not in the .. MCR way of being depressing. haha.
im stopping ALL forms of gaming till the END OF MY OLVLS. and YES IM FINDING A TUTOR FOR SCIENCE. and.. YES IM IN NERD MODE NOW. scrap the appearance tho, im being a nerd in SPIRIT only. roar. so any help or whatever, sms me. email. find me in sch. whatever.
haha, i cant believe it. im already motivated in January. I was betting the last few days before olvls or something. but no lmao. im feeling the stress and for the first time, im welcoming it. come challenge me. ill tear you scrap pieces of recycled paper and get a pretty cert lamented in plastic. then im going nyp. stuff ngee ann, im not going there for the food. no. ill resist.
And i still want to learn guitar. any one got info tell me pl0x. =/
Let jl design stuff on my hand O: Not bad, the cursive handwriting. reminds me of a certain tattoo..
Tomorrow will be the day i return the Ancient Godly Guide Book Of Ro >_> ooh. my heart aches. Must remember to pack in bag.. extra weight T-T
Bought Ayumi's album, Secret. zomg im blown away. Been itching to buy it for SO long. And now its finally in my hands, along with a pretty poster of her. I like the melodies of her songs.. fantasy like. yet the sweetness is not too coy. and some songs sounds downright depressing. Tho not in the .. MCR way of being depressing. haha.
im stopping ALL forms of gaming till the END OF MY OLVLS. and YES IM FINDING A TUTOR FOR SCIENCE. and.. YES IM IN NERD MODE NOW. scrap the appearance tho, im being a nerd in SPIRIT only. roar. so any help or whatever, sms me. email. find me in sch. whatever.
haha, i cant believe it. im already motivated in January. I was betting the last few days before olvls or something. but no lmao. im feeling the stress and for the first time, im welcoming it. come challenge me. ill tear you scrap pieces of recycled paper and get a pretty cert lamented in plastic. then im going nyp. stuff ngee ann, im not going there for the food. no. ill resist.
And i still want to learn guitar. any one got info tell me pl0x. =/
Sunday, January 07, 2007
-44-
its nearly midnight.. but i made it on time wahaha.
today pondered about a .. Comic! Fruit Basket, to be exact.
In a certain issue, saw a section about a very bitter relationship. The girl totally brokedown and went into a mental institution while the guy got blinded in the left eye -ok, shant elaborate, lazy. OT anw- With help, the girl made a recovery and 'erased' her memories, and restarted her life again. Married another person.While the guy is still wallowing in sorrow.. till a new girl appeared in his life. Well, not really new. She was there all along, he just didnt notice her. And tadaa, both of them .. went on their own routes in this journey of life. Its the end of their fate between each other.
Is the girl in the wrong? O: Is she doing the right thing by choosing to forget? Is this.. what people call.. 'heartless'?
I pondered so much about it, but i got no answer. Retreated into my N.Ro gaming to sooth my irritated feelings. Theres nothing killing some people cant cure. Well, virtually, that is.
Talking about virtual, is THIS life the original version? or just a copy? Look at your reflection and wonder. Which side is the reflection? O: What if this dimension is nothing but replicated data? We might be.. spares. To fill in the damaged parts of the real universe. That might be why we cant control our fate. O: Because we might be .. just .. data! What is our soul? Do we even have one? Who controls us? Our minds? Our actions?
Godly Programmers zomg.
No wonder we catch 'viruses' and fall ill eh >_> bad joke.
ah well . off to sleep . dont want to think too much .. ill rather keep life simple this 179 days. dont want anything major to crop up in the middle of my exams, do you.
(:
p.s: Baphomet Jr pwns. My pudding too. And of course, all Creators. kekeke. See other jobs slog their way out while we Creators just sit and let our little homunculus do the work, sipping on some condensed white potion every now and then. Creators trespasses on God's terrority~ They create Life~! Muahahaha~
today pondered about a .. Comic! Fruit Basket, to be exact.
In a certain issue, saw a section about a very bitter relationship. The girl totally brokedown and went into a mental institution while the guy got blinded in the left eye -ok, shant elaborate, lazy. OT anw- With help, the girl made a recovery and 'erased' her memories, and restarted her life again. Married another person.While the guy is still wallowing in sorrow.. till a new girl appeared in his life. Well, not really new. She was there all along, he just didnt notice her. And tadaa, both of them .. went on their own routes in this journey of life. Its the end of their fate between each other.
Is the girl in the wrong? O: Is she doing the right thing by choosing to forget? Is this.. what people call.. 'heartless'?
I pondered so much about it, but i got no answer. Retreated into my N.Ro gaming to sooth my irritated feelings. Theres nothing killing some people cant cure. Well, virtually, that is.
Talking about virtual, is THIS life the original version? or just a copy? Look at your reflection and wonder. Which side is the reflection? O: What if this dimension is nothing but replicated data? We might be.. spares. To fill in the damaged parts of the real universe. That might be why we cant control our fate. O: Because we might be .. just .. data! What is our soul? Do we even have one? Who controls us? Our minds? Our actions?
Godly Programmers zomg.
No wonder we catch 'viruses' and fall ill eh >_> bad joke.
ah well . off to sleep . dont want to think too much .. ill rather keep life simple this 179 days. dont want anything major to crop up in the middle of my exams, do you.
(:
p.s: Baphomet Jr pwns. My pudding too. And of course, all Creators. kekeke. See other jobs slog their way out while we Creators just sit and let our little homunculus do the work, sipping on some condensed white potion every now and then. Creators trespasses on God's terrority~ They create Life~! Muahahaha~
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