feeling retarded

I'm feeling a pinch of anger, a dash of sadness, and a whole lot of detachment.
The result : A simmering brew of emotions, bubbling in my gut, but not quite strong enough to snap me out of my swing. Retarded analogy.

Hopefully my little hotpot of trouble will continue to boil
I'd rather feel something instead of this odd ... blankness

I thought we were back to friends
I felt happier when I thought we are back to being friends

Doh.

The kisses felt like nothing.

Also, I feel retarded.

big dango family

the magic that makes this song so damn sad for me is the 'family' theme




if this is the case, i'd rather not know
i'd rather stay as my unobservant self, walking around with my head in the clouds
spare me the knowledge

ungh

I realized I enjoy theory a lot more than 'practical' stuff.
Why?

1: There's a correct or wrong answer in theory. You know what to learn, there's textbooks to guide you

2: You know WHAT you are supposed to learn. Everything's written down for you in black and white. Just sit down, memorize the shit out of it, and voila!

Playing music itself, on the other hand...

I've to improvise, make up my own melodies, and let them sound good at the same time. You have no idea what you are doing half the time. There's nothing on paper to help you visualize things. Just your ears and memory. And boy, it just so happens that my ear power and memory skills are next to non-existent...

Frustrating at times, really |:

Makes me appreciate Maths.

She loves the cream

RESTORING MY FAITH IN FUCKING AWESOME GUITARISTS

JAZZ-HOP-ROCK FUSION GO!!!!!!!!!

Also my sister lied major to my parents and got caught.
Never with hold exam information from parents.....
You'll still end up screwed anyway (Y)

\o\

how high

i dont understand this
close contact is never a problem
it's just the little glimpses, the little hints of your presence that always throws me off guard

:c

doe deer

It's alright now...

I feel so much better already
I feel slimmer
My skin feels better
I'm looking all normal and average again.

Even though I can swear I still look the same as what I did a few weeks ago,
everything just feels so different after the main stress factor disappeared this morning.

Close shave...
Now that everything has been reset
I shall hereby promise myself to not engage in such risky ass acts ever again
I'd rather lose someone than put my own life and future on the line :v
You can be replaced
I can't

:|