:'D
i wonder.
you said it was a display of strength
but i've never felt that way
Surviving things doesnt mean I was able to get the best of it.
I only jumped because I knew someone's there to catch me
Saturday, November 06, 2010
dead hearts
I could say it but you wont believe me
You say you do but you don't deceive me
It's hard to know they're out there
It's hard to know that you still care
uuboohooboohooboohoo.
haha. thanks, you guys...
I probably would have ran out and mass murdered people along the streets if you guys werent here to hold me down
The calm after the storm feels as delicate as ever
And tired, I do feel.
Wistful.
And as needy as ever. I feel just like A.A, haha. Maybe that's why I like her so much. We're always in need of strong pillars to lean on. Thus the constant search for the right partner. Thus the overprotective sheltering of friends. Thus the tears.
We're doing it because that's, quite literally, our life force...
Really tired.
It's so tiring to always live in fear of our pillars crumbling.
So what's going to happen now..?
I don't know.
Find someone new and get hurt again.
Hahahahahaha
...
You say you do but you don't deceive me
It's hard to know they're out there
It's hard to know that you still care
uuboohooboohooboohoo.
haha. thanks, you guys...
I probably would have ran out and mass murdered people along the streets if you guys werent here to hold me down
The calm after the storm feels as delicate as ever
And tired, I do feel.
Wistful.
And as needy as ever. I feel just like A.A, haha. Maybe that's why I like her so much. We're always in need of strong pillars to lean on. Thus the constant search for the right partner. Thus the overprotective sheltering of friends. Thus the tears.
We're doing it because that's, quite literally, our life force...
Really tired.
It's so tiring to always live in fear of our pillars crumbling.
So what's going to happen now..?
I don't know.
Find someone new and get hurt again.
Hahahahahaha
...
Friday, November 05, 2010
Even though you lost your mind
I forgot what I wanted
Looks like my head is very good at denying
Can't even tell the difference between my own lies and truthful declarations now
I've found myself actually believing in the fibs i told
Hahaha.
习惯就好.
Looks like my head is very good at denying
Can't even tell the difference between my own lies and truthful declarations now
I've found myself actually believing in the fibs i told
Hahaha.
习惯就好.
Wednesday, November 03, 2010
i stopped giving a shan
MY GOD
I...
I... WANT TO CHOKE A COW TO DEATH...
it's not me, isnt it
if it's just me, then they won't be trying to console me, won't be trying to calm me down
is it a crime to feel insecure
is it a crime to not be confident
is it a crime to want to get some reassurance
what...?
I...
I... WANT TO CHOKE A COW TO DEATH...
it's not me, isnt it
if it's just me, then they won't be trying to console me, won't be trying to calm me down
is it a crime to feel insecure
is it a crime to not be confident
is it a crime to want to get some reassurance
what...?
Monday, November 01, 2010
horrible
the thing with having a soft mold for a heart is that people will always come over and mold it into the shape they want
Sunday, October 31, 2010
holding in, not holding on
holding in a lot of sneezes, it seems
flu and fever
come
go ahead
ruin my ALREADY PACKED SCHEDULE GOD DAMN IT
HOW THE SHIT AM I SUPPOSED TO KEEP UP WITH THE DEADLINES NOW
THIS IS TERRIBLE
/I'M/ TERRIBLE
WHY DID I ALLOW THIS TO HAPPEN TO MYSELF
FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU
flu and fever
come
go ahead
ruin my ALREADY PACKED SCHEDULE GOD DAMN IT
HOW THE SHIT AM I SUPPOSED TO KEEP UP WITH THE DEADLINES NOW
THIS IS TERRIBLE
/I'M/ TERRIBLE
WHY DID I ALLOW THIS TO HAPPEN TO MYSELF
FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU
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