can you believe that i coloured this whole piccy just for the hair? -_- thats why most of the pic looks like half assed efforts lol. pwned by my own laziness, sorta lost the patience to colour everything stroke by stroke.

whats with everyone today o_o
even my good lil sis decided to yell and throw tantrums at me :/
have to put up a fake smile all day lol, or ill risk getting lectured for ..not smiling -_-
eh, treating me as a rag doll to vent anger ah you all. gang up summore.. at least do it in a less obvious way lah -_-
have to crank my sensitivity levels wayyyy high up. tho it still didnt totally save me from the assaults. -.-''

miss my cousin o_o lol uber random but true
EHHHHH, if youre still reading my blog, which i seriously doubt now, come visit gran la :/
dont ditch me somewhere lol , now i dont even dare msg you le .. see the widening gap ><
i havent even give you a proper apology. :/

lalala, june hols >< who is gonna dump every single remedial that will be scheduled during that time and do something else lol. learnt it the hard way, must plan ahead or the blessed june hols will just be another week of hell. *cough* gaming *cough*

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she does know that what shes telling me now is totally not in her favour at all, right? :/
ah well, must act dumb.

4th week running. lets just hope my teacher doesnt skip this one too, i am in desperate need of events to fill up the extra time.
will only get the damn disc on monday.. -_- i cant wait already. just 1 and a half day to go. tolerancetolerancetolerance.

and tadaa! im done again LOL. 3/4 of the time is spent idling in bed.

oh, and i saw a cosplayyy eventtt! yesterday didnt explain much :/ pretty.
makes me wonder. if my friends ever cosplays.. LOLOLOL. or rather. if I ever cosplays.. LOL X1000. first one i thought of was doraemon. LOL.

YAY OWNED LOLOLOLOL.
Maths ppr II first question.
PWNED.
Maths ppr II second question.
PWNED.
Maths ppr II third question.
PWNED.
and so on .. till the end LOL.

my column there.. top half all gone case lol, me included. after just 10 mins our heads all droop down le .
is it true that to go poly..passing maths is a basic criteria o_o better not be.

i remember nothing else ><><

lalala, off to coop myself up!



edit: remember alr :/ COSPLAY ZOMG. ><

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AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
BOREDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

try cooping yourself up in your room for 8hours..
and facing RP's uber strong spotlight whenever you stare out of the window omfg

im rotting away T-T

its going to be just me and my darling phone for these few days i guess >< evillllll zomg , i feel like a hamster..

oh, remembered a lil goal set last mth abt losing weight till i get to 45 o_o yay i did it muahaha. reached teh godly status.. even fondue cant tempt me now. but wheres the satisfaction >< cant sense any..

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argh.
gawddamnit, is this a conspiracy for revenge?!
I shouldnt be the victim in the first place >_> im the one with the bo chup attitude, i should be the one escaping from this predicament. >_>'''
why did i go soft and listen to the whines >___________>
regret, regret. i wanna rechoose subs to take for olvls ..

at least i found out that most teachers are perfect angels :/
are we students really the ones who forced them to be so hard on us ;_;
thanks for helping. :/

hmmmmm
physics, not bad. if i continue at this rate ima get my class ranking back soon :D just hope that certain subbys wont drag me down THAT much. but after looking at 1/4 of the class just sleeping the time away.. -_- even if i get my top 5 rank back i doubt it means anything.

did something weird with my piccy

I played with layers and such for top piccy :/ made it super dark on purpose, overlay plus lightness PLUS brightness and contrast. LOL.
btm is original one :/ the colour aint that light >< i coloured 3 layers over it le.. sad. no scanner.

trying to merge two kinda colouring styles tgt.. hmmm.. i think im on the right track, but yea. still far away from the amateur status.

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Set CHANCES OF DROPPING FNN = 0
Set CSRESULTS = 0

Input CSRESULTS

If CSRESULTS < 60
then add 1 to CHANCES OF DROPPING FNN
else add 99
End if

Output CHANCES OF DROPPING FNN

..lol. :] if only the algorithms today were that simple. but they were fun all the same O_O
really.

only algorithm i oh-my-gawded at was the one which told us to use the select case structure. i know the structure @#%@^ but i cant pen it down wtf wtf wtf #$&^#& wasted.

mmm, for people who dont understand programming.. heres a piccy for joo all..
Insanity
InSANity
InSHANity

heh.

iono, i let my hand guide me..thus the randomness. and oh, the UFO is a joke, i dont have fetishes for human-capturing-UFOs.

Fear my crap.

what should i name this as.. its not emo for theres cute stuff, its not cute for theres emo stuff! -_-

Shan is teh neutral.

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im looking more and more fragile every single day >___>
howwwwww omg
when i reflect my eyes in the mirror, i saw jaded looking ones staring back
omfg o_________o
wheres the shine?!

if this goes on its going to ruin my image ><

geog, totally off form lah T-T i was yawning every few minutes.. add on to the fact that i lost my textbook, my file, my notes.. >_>
hope i can still salvage it ._. lucky mr lim's lessons are easy to recall..

fnn! :DDDD back at my peak!
snapped out of the drowsyness :/ heng i memorised quite a huge chunk of info at dawn -_- cant believe it, 2 hours and i improved so much o_o''
1st time, whole paper no blanks sia >_< and i actually remembered which minerals and nutrients have what effects on the body..
tho i dont think ill do really well, but im proud of myself all the same. heh. feel weird.

:/

oh yea! when i was doodling after finishing my paper, mr yip saw my doodle! O: i heard a loud, and i mean LOUD snort >_> managed to squeeze out a pained smile and stuffed the paper in my pencil case ;_; soo... stupid of me >< why did i not cover my doodleeee

i guess thats it? lol X:

you guys should see how we quarrel o_o our method is darnnn unique o_o one little letter spells DOOOOOM.


*emo* LOLOL. X:

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PKS! GOOD BUDDEH!
you landed me in trouble again, you lil ... >_>
why did i even bother to edit the coding for you @%$@^
why did i even bother to offer help in the first place #^#%&#
why did i agree to go online @%#$^%&

only my besties cause trouble for me , you know.. the irony -_-''
but well, ill do anything for people of that rank in my heart >_>
count yourself lucky~
very lucky . roar . X:

ahhh..he kept on giving me blessings in disguise lol, iono whether i should be angry or not.

its not all doom and gloom, today's lil incident.. a miracle happened
of course i grabbed the chance and managed to twist the situation around ..
and i hope the effect will be long enough to last me till end of Os.

but ill be dropping fnn soon .. i cant suppress my deep hatred for that subby. T-T how many times have i been defeated alr :/ i feel like im just being smashed thru every single obstacle lah.. instead of jumping over it .. the pain ><

ah well, pks read twice here, and memorise the lyrics. below is chorus plus abit from the next stanza.. I THINK.

When the sun shine we'll shine together
Told you ill be here forever
now its raining more than ever
said ill always be your friend
know that we still have each other
you can stand under my umbrella

not really in order :/ bad memory, you see. sounds sad. want me draft out a lil music score also can *LOL*

today will be a very very very very tiring studying session for me.. only have 2 hours left to midnight~ then ill chiong till 2~ then ill wake at .. aiyah. im gonna do that every single day >< till my exams are over..

maybe overstressing myself will do the trick O_O

As you can see, I am very good at using extra time left for exams :D

During Eng ppr II, was very discouraged.. well i wont fail, but i know ill only be able to get a B3 AT MOST.
was starting to think about how i should just give up and marry off as a rich man's wife when i grad LOL.
or ill be stuck at KFC.
OR ill retain O_O
bad thoughts, bad thoughts.. thus this picture >_>
THEN! DURING THE BLESSED CHEM PAPER!
I targeted 7/100 for chem.. well, maintaining a standard is always good. :/
Pks targeted 10/100 ..

I think.. Im.. 100000% sure that i can score wayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy higher than 7. I MIGHT EVEN PASS THIS DARN PAPER ZOMG I LOVE YOU CHEM PAPER SETTER O_O
i know they nerfed the damage of the paper *lol gaming geek* but..
i can do equations, i can balance em, i can spit out theory, i can crap weird reasons and draw diagrams on the paper le!
and to think last year i left 70% of them blank.
ahahaha~

mmm, part of the credits must go to my last-minute-formed study group :D
esp Melissa .. did i get your name spelt right O_O she gave info that i was able to apply to paper!
benjy! iono, um, o_o'' thanks for roping me in?
xav! o______________o'' ummmm.. youre a good distracter? LOLOLOL X:

girls are more reliable, see ~ :)

nah, but thanks to you guys all the same :D seriously.

thus i drew this during the extra time!
My baby blue jacket brings me good luck >< im so glad we're ordered to wear em.
and yea, i know we're not supposed to bring the extra papers outta the exam hall, so, um, i took a few snapshots before chucking them away! um, yea, i look like the kind of person who throws her sketches away, dont i :D

the warmness of the day is getting to my head~ highhhh ahhhhhh

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Post dripping with angst below, dont read if you hate angsty posts :/
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..eeeeee not fair >_>
how come people in worse state than me can still live a normal life huh?

but come to think of it, its all my fault >_>
bu yin gai zhe me rong yi jiu.. omg im speaking in chi zomg shift eleven
but you people cant do this to me baaaa T-T just a *coughhugecough* mistake in the past and i get sucha big punishment spanning for sucha long stretch of time T-T what is this, private probation?

no fun >_> i cant chat in peace, i cant blog in peace, i cant do anything in peace O_O
even my good old phone might get swapped anytime soon T-T
only managed to get this lucky break today or i wont even have the chance to complain >_>

yay! come, my hateclub, come marvel at the pathetic state im in now :D

but speaking of the past.. o_o
ummm.

forget me o_o
im not worthy ó_ò