2months old

It has been pretty long, eh

harley darling

FINISHED VERSION IN MY DA PAGE

fucking awesome

FUCKKK YES

8 sept

everytime my real family pops up, fucked up shit happens.

fuck.

dreamer

The antagonist in my dream ^


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"I shall fast forward to the events that happened this morning. I dreamt up a full story. A classic mystery puzzle type story. The ending was so so so so so impactful that the scene's imprinted in my mind. I'm probably gonna draw it out later. I woke up and immediately wrote my dreams down, so I'll never ever forget it.

Yeah, the secrets' out. Most of my best stories came from my dreams. The Greyscale Fairground, Dream Machine (I used this for my story assignment), Harlequin Romance, and now this. I should name this dream soon...

I have this secret folder in my desktop, named as DD. DD for Dream Diary, not DayDreamer. But yeah, that's basically my premium idea pool. Aweshum. It's a pity they don't come often, though I've noticed that I'm dreaming more ever since my final assignment is completed and done. Emma and Sheep eats dreams."

new shit's coming up soon!

April

UPDATE : EDITED PICTURE



Done forrrrr surreal twilight's calendar project.

character created by ellemerr, art by me.

FOR FULL PIC PLEASE GO HERE
http://artc-ore.deviantart.com/art/April-135134921



SPEEDSKETCH

DANCE WITH ME IN TOKEEYOH

my dream bike

IT'S MY DREAM BIKE AND I RUINED IT WITH THIS SHITTY PAINTING.

Please

Wait for me.

Thinking of you

A screencap sketch, dedicated to the song that accompanied me through most of my worst days.


<3



This is a tough one
bloody thumbnail's only 200x 300. cant see shit. Had to agar my own lighting and shadows _|_

BUT STILL. ITS MCR. MCR MAKES EVERYTHING BETTER.

humphwklfjeukghlf;

Pony is still as childish as ever pls

So we decided to go out to AFA, against the parents' wishes. So naturally, they complained and shit like that... but it's for a good cause. I know they just didn't want to tire me out, since I've been slogging my ass off for a straight month already. They even witnessed me doing that infamous 19 hour sleep routine...

Then good old Pony went all guai lan and give those beng attitude. I tried to fix the situation by, you know, countering his bengness with my concierge voice and attitude.

Smile smile oh no he didn't mean this smile smile I get what you mean, but I was really looking forward to it smile smile

But his bengness still won over and pissed off his parents major. We had to go all the way back home after just hitting the highway lol. I know he sure tio hoot one, so I tried to talk first and apologize for Pony. Hopefully it softened the blow for him???

Talked to Pony's Mom after settling his dad, and she went from all defensive to all sad and sadder. Make me even more heartpain man. How can Pony be so rude to his own parents wtf

I guess I was equally rude, or even ruder to my own in the past, so when I saw history repeating itself, I really felt like pulling him off and kicking his balls lol

Maybe the 'cutting off ties with family' incident matured me earlier, or he really is way too fucking childish for his age

i think its the latter

In my heart, feeding my ego

DETAILS : http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g162/pencilspam/details.jpg

ah

3D, 3D, 3D...

Still remember the day I got YK to teach me IK blending and shit like that, and at the last minute, I finally understood and grasped the methods of doing that test. Was so happy and relived that I cried at the computer like some idiot. Hopefully no one noticed me dabbing my scarf pitifully at my puny little eyes.

And I successfully got myself a good quality animation at that final test. Maybe a B. Maybe an A.

Problem is, I've been getting straight Fs for 3D Ani for the entire year now, with this last test being the only good, no, passing grade for this semester.

It's sad knowing that I COULD do it, but I just didn't want to.
It's happy knowing that I actually MANAGED to push my morale up and actually do it.

I'm regretting my past actions now, and want to fix the huge amount of damage I've done. I dunno if I can still do it now, given the extreme lack of time, BUT

BUT

I

WILL

STILL

TRY

The sparrow who couldn't fly

The melancholy of a 3D teacher

This is my 3D animation teacher.
Bumped into him today, on the bridge linked to my school. He was smoking, as usual. (wth lol, teachers aren't even supposed to be seen smoking near the campus) So anyway, I had to be a nice, polite student, so I went up to him and did all that usual greeting BSes students have to do.

Then that guy turned, and gave me this exact sad smile. I mean, who the hell would suddenly go all depressed and fragile looking at a student? (Then again, I'm probably the most problematic student in his class. It's probably natural for him to want to cry when he sees me around the corner. ) And since we're on a bridge, there was super bright sunlight coming from both sides, adding to the dramatic effect. My mind was screaming at me : "DRAW THIS SHIT OUT, SHAN, YOU GOTTA DRAW THIS SHIT OUT"

And... so I did. :|

But yeah...if I ever lived his life, I'll probably be casting sad looks every where too. This guy suffered truckloads of hardships before getting here. And probably still is.

Punctuation

Saw this topic on the LevelI blog, and thought it kinda fits the situation I'm in now.

I feel like my future has met a FULLSTOP.
A big, fat, FULLSTOP.

errrf

Talked to Mr E, and got a bit of advice.
Didn't take it too hard, but still felt a little empty inside.
Didn't expect much, but part of me still prayed for some sort of a miracle.

uhh

pretty sad still

and tired

oh god am I tired or what

sketch

Some stuff i've done over the weekend

LADY GAGA

WATCH IT.
PLEASE D:

*copy pasta from my new abode*
"

WATCH IT

GIVE IT ANOTHER CHANCE

This has a totally different feel… raw, poppy, emotional.

Actually made me, a electronica fan, feel that she’s wasting her powerhouse vocals on her dance songs…
"

SPEEDPAINT

THE THEME : FRUGAL POSSUM

asdads

okay

I know I'm just delaying my time here, lol
Don't wanna get to bed

So. I shall type a bit more now, then, since Angie was whining about it.
Like I said, I probably won't be as active here now, since I've found a better blog site.

but i'll still post some shit up
just .. slower.

hehe
cheer up, gais

y'know

I should take this thing elsewhere.

lol what the hell

Dreamt that my dad was beating my mom up with some large metal object. And I just stood there like some useless statue lol. Can still feel the boiling anger that was surging through me at that point of time, lol. Dad was like : "hey, choose something" . and my mom did it without asking. then he took the object she chose and whacked her head with it ahh

Remembered my dreamself literally marching over to the phone and ringing the police up.Voice getting all clipped and rushed.

Dunno what happened before the whacking, but we definitely got involved in some problem. Car was stuck somewhere - we were lost. Guess things built up till the final showdown lol.

Woke up with a start.
Then again, who will ever wake naturally with this kind of dream =.=

Lol

Everytime I get the chance to have some decent sleep, nightmares MUST turn over and nip me in the butt.....
TO think that i actually sacrificed the WebD meeting for this.

Bittersweet symphony

got hold of the remix o:
Heard it while YK was trying to After Effects it up rofl
Looks pretty awesome, actually. I just hope everything will end well for that project.

ahem ahem.

Almost owned myself by trying to survive without sufficient rest. Felt pretty woozy on the bus, can even feel myself losing focus. Thought I was going to collapse anytime soon lol. But I still managed to make it back and spread my fat self over the bed before blacking out.

Aw man

The bed feels like heaven

Smack your face against the screen

Just realized that I'm unable to keep grudges any more.
Is this part of growing up? If this is, it really feels damn good ._.

Cleared things up with Herc
Apparently she's not lying ahaha ; was just a big, big misunderstanding.
Best part was, we still continued to act like the best of friends during the 'misunderstood period'.

Is this the 'line' adults keep talking about? Do not drag personal feuds into work, do not drag work into personal feuds?

Got Lox into my collection of Twitlight friends, now.
So hopefully, I'll be able to meet five of them ehehehe

On to school stuff. I've been slacking off way too much D:
And I still is. Hahaha I wonder what my mother will say, since she's under the impression that I've been getting straight As for every single subject. Wonder when that bubble of security will pop. Part of me is still thinking that I can pull through this, just like how I pulled through the first year. Bad, bad Shan.

Hmmm
We're supposed to form a band, too. But so far, no news?
But I wanna be vocals if we really do get one
Getting a bad sore throat - maybe I can use it to my advantage. Scratchy is the new sexy.
Yk can get the bass
Angie can get the keyboard
Deh can get the dru- no, deh can screw off
I'll take the guitars awwww yeah

So won't the real slim shady please stand up
please stand up
please stand up

*headbangs*

Kinda got drilled into my head after hearing it on Norwegian Recycling.

Please stand up
Please stand up
Please stand up

560

Curling up and sleeping in progress.

Fucked up

oww
think my heart stopped beating for a few seconds; never knew it would hurt so much

It's like chipping away at a wall I've painstakingly built over the years, and I've just knocked a huge chunk off a moment ago. Watching it fall just like that... shit.

I should be crying my eyes out by now, but I can't
That's the worst part.

Feel like slipping out and curling up somewhere. Maybe I'll roll into a canal and die or something.

Maybe I'm being too ambitious, too selfish
I'm favouring my own future over everything else; just like how I favoured my own happiness over my parents.

Maybe I don't deserved to be loved at all. Be it my family, friends, or partner.
I don't deserve these privileges.

Maybe I should just leave.

I feel like a hero, and you're my heroine

Dun dun dun
Thought I'll post up something post worthy. Since I've been tapping out two sentenced crap for quite some time already.

Uh so.
Life's pretty sad.
Screwed up the Maya test by sleeping through it, and now I'm like 4 hours late for Web D's assignment submission. Should have just chucked the entire file inside while I still could, instead of delaying it to the last minute. I finished 1 day early, damnit?

Overwhelmed with work ):
The workload is slightly lesser than Year 1, but the quality they demand.. /wrists

Am I'm still aiming to ace sem 1. Well screw you, Shan. Screw you.

What else. Oh.
PARENTAL ADVISORY LABELS ARE NOW FOUND ON KIDDIE STORIES.
What the hell?

Just because one kid thought he could fly, because the main character did so, it doesn't mean that the rest of the kids in the world will be as dumb as him, you know? It ruins the fun D:

How can anyone free up their creativity if these stupid labels keep on restricting their way?

Then again, this kid story-movie Ms Eva showed us was creepy as hell. 5 seconds into the story and the mother was already whining about sex positions. Woah man, woah. Then she had a hedgehog baby. ( Note: Everything is in visuals. That doubles the creepiness of it all ) The baby proceeds to grow up into a Hedgehog man, who - wait for it - strips off his quills every night, just to mingle with his animals in the farm.

Is this hinting at bestiality? Duuuuude.

I'm settling down on a tragic love story myself. Hehe. Under recommendation from Lee Anne plz. Surreal + Drama, I'll say.
Looking forward to making the dummy book for the final assignment!

Hmmm
What else.

Wanna ice skate during the June hols?

Cos' all I see is you

New favourite song
CHECK OUT THE PLAYLIST

4 out of 12weeks

hmmph
12 weeks till what, you'll ask. (or not)
Well, I'M NOT TELLING YOU D:

Meeting up with Herc and Time during the June hols WHOO
I can finally see her pretty pretty oh so pretty face ^^
Vice versa. Have to doll up too.

AND THAT MEANS.
THAT I HAVE TO SLIM THE HELL DOWN.

(yes, that's basically why I have been ranting at you two, bella and yk )

MY FAT FAT BODEH IS UNSIGHTLY TO TEH EYES
I'M TOO CHUBBY

Considering crash dieting
And exercising
AND combining both -oh!

I think we have found a solution 8D

uhhuh

i wanted to type a long post of rants, but .. kinda ran out of steam halfway. i'll add them back in when they come back into my head

thinking of you

God this song is so so so painful
So emotional ;_; katy perry > all

Listen to it on my playlist. last one in the list.

(V1)
Comparisons are easily done
Once you've had a taste of perfection
Like an apple hanging from a tree
I picked the ripest one
I still got the seed

(PRE)
You said move on
Where do I go
I guess second best
Is all I will know

(CHORUS)
Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes

(V2)
You're like an Indian summer
In the middle of winter
Like a hard candy
With a surprise center
How do I get better
Once I've had the best
You said there's
Tons of fish in the water
So the waters I will test

(PRE)
He kissed my lips
I taste your mouth
He pulled me in
I was disgusted with myself

(CHORUS)
Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into...

(BRIDGE)
You're the best
And yes I do regret
How I could let myself
Let you go
Now the lesson's learned
I touched it I was burned
Oh I think you should know

(CHORUS)
Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your...

Your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Oh won't you walk through
And bust in the door and
Take me away
Oh no more mistakes
Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay

553

Mothers day was kinda screwed up hahaha
Got so pissed i actually cried tears of anger

and ummm

look



new hairstyle plz

It was you and me, against the world

Deh's birthday was splendid. I'm jealous already. The singing part was the best. you can see everyone casting these oh-god-can-you-guys-just-shut-the-fuck-up faces at us. Haha. Can't blame them, since our singing sucked hard.

Managed to whore out some ugly looking pictures of me
Along with a fugly video

<:

I looked so fat in there, coupled with a shrilly voice of doom. ): Hurhur

Good ol cake had to destroy the celebrations by admitting himself to hospital *whacks with stick*

For my story module.
I need to do a 38 page comic/story lol.

So.. yeah. this is one of my proposal pieces.

So...

I thought I'll do some screaming in here before I sleep.

./screams

hahaha
g'night

I'm not masochistic

So, my days of not - eatingness kinda paid off.
Tumbled down the flight of steps leading to the nyp library. My knees just unbuckled for no reason.

*shows off battle scars*

To be really honest, I'm kinda pleased at this incident, because

1) It shows that my body is weakening, and weakening can only mean that my new lifestyle is working the way I wanted it to

2) For once, I felt like some fragile vase who could actually break some bones with that fall, not like a tub of lard that'll just bounce off at the impact

But yeah, this better not spread to the adults or I'll get murdered

Epilepsy

Attended a wake
Holy cow, was it a disaster or what

The family next to ours were having a hard time, I guess
A case of epilepsy, then hysterics.
They just went on screaming and shouting until the ambulance came
Shit, I swear I could have just shat bricks in there

The mini outbursts also accumulated into an epic load of anger later on.

All in all, it was a terrible day.

):

And I'm really disturbed. and upset.

asd

ITS DEDICATED TO BELL

Murals

Yeah, I'm not putting in any effort at all.
Just unngh and ahhhed my way through the critique session.

The thoughts on my mind are already revolving around the possibility of me quitting this shit haha. How can you expect me to even focus on perfecting it

But yeah... I'm not proud of this development at all, of course. It's only week 2 and I'm already slipping. D8

Losing track of stuff. Like deadlines, for instance. Hahaha

Buuuut whatevs

A certain company I was mixing with a few years ago suddenly reappeared to haunt me lol
Looked kinda funny at first
But now it's just plain creepy plz

Delete delete delete

Uhh
And yeah sorry guys for dying on you
I should have joined into the Roughout sketch shit
but then again, I'm tired ;_;

On the good side of shit,
MY CLASSES START AT 3PM TODAY HAHAHA

And ATB is officially recognized by cake as ''not bad''

HAH

---

Gorillaz - Latin Simone

Give up
If you wanna survive
Get oh so alive
In your life everything
Falling out the sky on top of you
Now what you do

Set yourself up now
It's the love of your life
Shed a lead on me
All I know before it's gone
I always feel it's getting me down
When nothing's wrong

What's the matter with me?
What's the matter with me, me, me

Give up
If you wanna survive
Pick the sun back up
You got to get on the song, lowly
What's the point
It's funny till you're left to kill yourself
In this town

So what's the matter with me?
What's the matter with me
What's the matter with me
What's the matter with me, me, me

Teebee

edit:
Oh I forgot.
Clement and my short distance webcamming was laughable
XD
kinda fun, actually

---

Okay. It's been ages since I did a proper post

Mmmm so...
Yeah I'll admit it. I kinda miss the old life.
I'm getting along well with Group 1, but it just feels so different...
They're kind folks, though. But yeah. Everyone of them is so hard working, dammit >.>

Work > Socializing

Y' know?

My focus is slipping hahaha
Mr Jacques's French accent, Mr Jiunn's weird teaching ways, Mr Eugene's scariness..
Hell, it's hell, I tell you

The only classes I enjoy now is just Story and Web des haha. Especially Story. It's just so close to my heart, lol. We have to stand up in front of class and share information about us to each other. What's my obsession, what's my fear etc

It's filling up my life ;_;
I've not much time to play now.
Sad stuff



Let you go - Listennnnnn to it

I really have nothing to say outside school life hahahaha

Mmmm~mmmm

Lyrics:
Everything about you now,
I~ love but that's a lie
But what happens actually...
Mmm Mmm Mmm Mmm Mmm~
Mmm Mmm Mmm Mmm Mmm~
Everything about you now,
I~ hate but that's a lie
Because I actually...
Mmm Mmm Mmm Mmm Mmm~
I can't speak honestly
It's too challenging for me
So I keep on lying with a catty hat
I don't know when she came, but I feel her inside of me
ĕ-tō I~ said ĕ-Tōĕtō
What's important to her, she can't communicate it. That's her name, Tōĕtō
She is a timid girl, too shy to speak to you, so that's her Tōĕtō
She has hidden herself now
I really want to tell you my~ feelings from the heart
Hesitantly, Tōĕtō said no to that proposal
I can say it, I'll say it, I am saying, but not said
ĕ-tō ĕ-tō, I mean ĕ-tō, I meant ĕ-Tōĕtō
Red-faced Tōĕtō
ĕ-tō ĕ-tō cetera
She is regretful and she begins to cry
"It's all because of me" she said. Tōĕtō
There is no such thing, you know. Please stop crying Tōĕtō
I love that part of you, from~ head to toe
I really want to tell you my~ feelings from the heart
Hesitantly, Tōĕtō said no to that proposal
I can say it, I'll say it, I am saying, but not said
ĕ-tō ĕ-tō, I mean ĕ-tō, hang in there Tōĕtō
At the time I really really want to tell you how I feel
Hesitantly, Tōĕtō will also bravely reach you
I can say it, I'll say it, I am saying, but not said
ĕ-tō ĕ-tō, I mean ĕ-tō, hang in there Tōĕtō
There she is inside of me
Hang in there Tōĕtō

Dun dan dan Dun dan dan

Porcelain. She's my little porcelain princess. Oh so fragile. So weak. So beautiful.

I'm in a ''Why are you so greedy, Noi'' kind of mood. Sometimes, I wonder if I'm masochistic deep down inside.

Why do I enjoy putting myself in dangerous positions so much?

lol

I'M FINALLY GETTING PAID
in the form of candy

I knew I should have asked for paypal loot instead.

GETTING PAID GETTING PAID GETTING PAID!

Feels awesome to get in this situation
It's almost as if I'm working as a freelancer already 8D

Even though it's just candy. wtf.

With that said, I have to say a big thank you to bella swan
she's the only one I told the story to, and there's a video on her blog, featuring HER RIPPING APART A PACKAGE

Natural candidate lol. like.. like DUH.

And surprisingly, she agreed hohohohoho

i dont know how i got everyone caught up in the madness, but im definitely not regretting it. hopefully, they wont, too.

(right bella? ;_;)

(I swear it's not a bomb, disguised as a candy)

541

lily allen - not fair

YOU HAVE TO LISTEN TO IT

We'll never reach home

Uhhh
Last major update for now, I guess.
(I skipped a lecture just to come back and draw.. what the hell lul)

Realized that I've been churning out quite a lot of half assed drawings nowadays. Those 45minute (supposed to be) speedpaints seriously sucked. I'll be getting rid of those updates soon. Somehow.

Hur hur sorry I screwed up Bijou.

Doodled up this random lady. I gave her my clothes and ring hohoho.
Did A LOT of changes. Long hair to bob. Halter neck to a low cut dress. Eyeless to one eyed. And I added half a headphone, too!

Dumped 3~4 hours on it. Still not finished ;_;
Haven't even started on a proper BG yet hahaha.

Oh well. This piece is going under my '09 portfolio, that's for sure.
I won't be putting this under the main page, I guess. It's still in WIP status, afterall.

PS. I realized that her fringe looks kinda stiff?

School

This class is competitive beyond hope.
No one bothered to socialize. They just come in and work. work. work. Some even came in EARLY.

It was then the email surfaced from my memories.

'People with the highest GPA will be filtered from the other applicants.'

So I was like 'Ohhh God. Oh God.'
I shouldn't be in here. I got stuffed in after people dropped out. I'm weak. What the fuck have I gotten myself into , lol.

I'm really pushing myself. A lot more than the combined efforts of my last term. Seriously. But.. even after putting in so much of my effort.. I still think.. I dunno. I think I still can't make it.

I can't do it, man.

I'm up against super humans. Immortals.

The white witch

SHE'S ACTUALLY A GOOD GUY

some wip that ill never finish

hahaha
inspired from that dreamscape trance music

deathstrike

ragnarok : into the abyss

DANCE, MY LOVE, DANCE

534

So I was liek ' Geez what did I miss'
And it turned out that I have indeed missed a lot of shit

Well
Well...

Weeeeell....

I dunno.
Don't care.

We start afresh with every new day.

o:

jamie hewlett

ROCKS YOUR ASS

LOL

#352172 +(7664)- [X]

I broke my G-string while fingering a minor :(
...
I was trying to play Knocking on Heaven's Door.
Oh well, time to buy new strings.

#99060 +(26433)- [X]

t0rbad> so there i was in this hallway right
BlackAdder> i believe i speak for all of us when i say...
BlackAdder> WRONG BTICH
BlackAdder> IM SICK OF YOU
BlackAdder> AND YOUR LAME STORIES
BlackAdder> NOBODY HERE THINKS YOURE FUNNY
BlackAdder> NOBODY HERE WANTS TO HEAR YOUR STORIES
BlackAdder> IN FACT
BlackAdder> IF YOU DIED RIGHT NOW
BlackAdder> I DON"T THINK NOBODY WOULD CARE
BlackAdder> SO WHAT DO YOU SAY TO THAT FAG
*** t0rbad sets mode: +b BlackAdder*!*@*.*
*** BlackAdder has been kicked my t0rbad ( )
t0rbad> so there i was in this hallway right
CRCError> right
heartless> Right.
r3v> right

#244321 +(24939)- [X]

hey, if you type in your pw, it will show as stars
********* see!
hunter2
doesnt look like stars to me
*******
thats what I see
oh, really?
Absolutely
you can go hunter2 my hunter2-ing hunter2
haha, does that look funny to you?
lol, yes. See, when YOU type hunter2, it shows to us as *******
thats neat, I didnt know IRC did that
yep, no matter how many times you type hunter2, it will show to us as *******
awesome!
wait, how do you know my pw?
er, I just copy pasted YOUR ******'s and it appears to YOU as hunter2 cause its your pw
oh, ok.

#99835 +(19819)- [X]

Hey, you know what sucks?
vaccuums
Hey, you know what sucks in a metaphorical sense?
black holes
Hey, you know what just isn't cool?
lava?

OKAY I HAVE TO STOP BEFORE I OVER SPAM THIS THING

GOTTEN FROM : http://bash.org/?777977

BassGuitar Girl

NOT DONE YET 'KAY
I STILL HAVE 25 MINI BACKGROUNDS TO DO
AND 18 MORE LIL EXPRESSIONS TO GO

FEATURING NOIA, THE BASS GIRL
NOTE: IT'S NOT ME, ITS THE 'ME' I HOPE I AM

LUL

LULULULULUL

double post

noi says:
yo josh
sorry, but i've an important (or not) question to ask O:
are guitar lessons tough as shit?
[b][c=0]J,[/c][/b] says:
The following message could not be delivered to all recipients:
no o_o its fun
*
* The following message could not be delivered to all recipients:
or at least IMO la cos i practice everyday
*
noi says:
damn
i should go learn it too
thanks man
i'm prolly getting a bass
[b][c=0]J,[/c][/b] says:
o_o ohh, why bass?
bass is like, non existant to me :X
no offence :/
noi says:
cus bass is the one that goes deeper *wink*
[b][c=0]J,[/c][/b] says:
btw do you have friends who plan to start a band or something?o.o
noi says:
nay
[b][c=0]J,[/c][/b] says:
LOL, sounds nasty
:O ohhh
cos like after i become pro thennnnn i wanna like join/form a band, whichever :/
though must be a genre that i like :X
noi says:
bass just seems cooler to me now, longer neck and shit like that/

lol go rock lor
[b][c=0]J,[/c][/b] says:
ohh o_o no wonderrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
next time find you if need bass :X

All about guitars

All of them features that Canon in D piece
Bass guitar, Electric Violin, Guitar

Damn, do they kick ass or what



AND THIS YOU MUST WATCH THIS HOLY SHIT


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Blood and gore

Hehe
Went to arcade after the book raping event.
well, there's no ju-beat, but i found that drumming thing.
and that's how my internal wound came from

too focused on winning ; didn't notice i was gripping the damn things waaaay too hard, causing a bloody blister to form.

Whined about it for some time, but in the end, I ended up accepting as some kind of war scar instead.

I got this in exchange for winning that damn game - it's worth it! I'M PROUD OF IT!

YOU'RE GOING DOWWNNNNNNNN

all is full of love

bjork's voice is heavenly.

no one can beat her emotional wails.

Invitation

Hi, I looked in your gallery and I thought you might like to join an OCT. If you
are interested please feel free to join
*NeverlandNevermore

its not started yet. I'm one of their staffs.

FUCK YEAH!!!!!!!!!

YEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH
IT'S AN INVITATION
AN INVITATION
OH GOD HOW DO I REPLY
FLABBERGASTED

CAN I DO IT?
DO I HAVE THE PATIENCE?

OH GOD SHOULD I ACCEPT?
IS THIS A GREAT HONOUR?

CAN I FINALLY BE FAMOUS?!?!?!


SO MANY THOUGHTS RUNNING THROUGH MY MIND

AHHHHH

524

LOL
shan
learn to endure
next time
work place
is harder

S*T friend says:
Always.
I wish you were a bit less insecure though.

noi says:
blame it on my mind. >.>
for some reason, it's been wired to distrust everybody.
then again, maybe i'm just creating excuses to continue behaving like this.
hmmph. oh well. i'll leave the pondering to the professionals.

have you been neglecting your vs?

S*T friend says:
Yeah. You are.

lol is today a LETS -ALL- THINK- PHILOSOPHICAL-THOUGHTS-DAY?

She's Noia

UPDATE:

BLACK ROCK SHOOTER :d
Watermarked this because .. just because.
<3

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FINISHED TWO PORTRAITS.
ONE MORE TO GO. AZUUUUURRRRREEEEE!

TEAM WE-WILL-KICK-YOUR ASS IS ALMOST COMPLETE

Noi, Mal, Azure.
WHO ELSE IS WILLING TO JOIN ME?!

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Cake and I wanted to whore it out.
Works just like any other gun, just that there's no bullet coming out hahaha
That top , rectangular thing will even auto slide back when a shot is fired.

Cake is planning to make it look real + weathered soon, i think

Pffft
Oddly, massage chairs seem to give me more pain than pleasure.

Hehe.
Got myself a fresh stock of cosmetics. Block foundation is epic. Just twist it open like any other lippie and buah on your skin. Got a concealer and shimmer powdah too.

Have to get a liquid liner soon - the pencil is pissing me off. Bloody smudges.

Desperate for a scarf, too... desperate for lots of scarves.

revealed

I typed out a whole chunk of text, only to delete them in the end.
I hate this habit of mine.

Haha.

I wish I'm a vampire.

....lol I swear my dressing style on april 20th onwards will just scare everyone away

T.A.T.U

Shopping malls love playing ancient poppy songs.
Hehehe.

Enjoy some T.A.T.U.
*gestures at playlist*

Getting quite interested in the Lukeville Project.
Doubt it'll take off but no harm showing some support , I guess.
And. trying it out. The new battle system. :K

Mother, looking at me
Tell me, what do you see
Yes, I've lost my mind!

Daddy, looking at me
Will I ever be free
Have I crossed the line?

All the things she said, all the things she said
Running through my head
Running through my head
Running through my head!

And. eh.

I wonder if it's really coincidence that I chose Noia as my long term nickname?

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Paranoid personality disorder is characterized by a distrust of others and a constant suspicion that people around you have sinister motives. People with this disorder tend to have excessive trust in their own knowledge and abilities and usually avoid close relationships. They search for hidden meanings in everything and read hostile intentions into the actions of others. They are quick to challenge the loyalties of friends and loved ones and often appear cold and distant. They usually shift blame to other people and tend to carry long grudges.

Symptoms of Paranoid Personality Disorder:

• Unwillingness to forgive perceived insults
• Excessive sensitivity to setbacks
• Distrustfulness and excessive self-reliance
• Projection of blame onto others
• Consumed by anticipation of betrayal
• Combative and tenacious adherence to personal rights
• Relentlessly suspicious

Additional Information:

Paranoid personality disorder is difficult to treat, as paranoids are often extremely suspicious of medical professionals. A combination of medication and talk therapy can be effective at combating the more debilitating symptoms of this disorder.

IM GONNA STARE AT THIS CHUNK OF TEXT TILL I DIE

THHHRRRRIPLE

scene queens
hehe
i still remember zui suicide
so cute

how did she name herself zui suicide though
so weird

'hg

awww
i wish i can vent these pent up fumes on those drama queens in twit

i dont feel like trying anymore.

brain isnt working

need sleep
need sleep
need sleep
need to dream and take flight , deeeeeep into my safetly tucked utopia.


As you can see, even a roach can tell I haven't been putting a rat's ass's worth of effort this time round hohoho

art block had to strike now.
lack of artistic mood had to strike now.
ohwell.
such is life..

515

UPDATE
OKAY, I REWATCHED THAT WARIO YOUTUBE THING.
BEST PART : I CAN MOVE THE FALLEN BLOCKS AND LETTERS. I CAN FREAKING MOVE THEM AND LINK THEM AND OH GOD


Alright, I'll let down my pride and admit this - I actually liked Twilight. It's not good, it's just half decent, really. I actually read through the four books just to watch out for Alice.

Hehe. Knew she would come back and save the day.
Bella should go away and mope at a corner. Mere defensive shielder. Pffft

Aliceeeee. Such a nice ring to the name. I like the way the name sounds on my tongue. My next babeh would be named after her, I swear.

Fallen in love with her choker.

It didn't help that I realized that her hairstyle is actually attainable with the way mine is cut. Pixie face, naw. I don't have a pixie face. But I'll try. To. Smile.

The only difference between a pixie cut and an emo cut is with the smiles on the owners' faces.


Alice Cullen by ~R-becca on deviantART

So pretty.

SO PRETTY.

Anyways. SInce I was feelind down, I gave myself a shopping trip.

The Mirror I saw a few months ago was still there. Last one on the shelf. I was liek : "HOMG IS THIS FATE?"

So I got it. I'll have to dangle it somewhere now.

Then I had a sudden craving for a choker. ( Should have saw that coming )
And used my senses to seek it out. Hehehe. Lovely. I really did find a whole load of them. And they were beautiful.

Of course, it's not the same ;_;
But I know there's only so far I can go before I becomed obsessed lul

But no, really, someday I'll really make my own Alice Cullen Choker. WITH the Cullen Emblem clearly showing on the pendant. AND THEN. I'll sell it on EBay for 50 bucks.

Last pic :

Emmett, Rosalie, Esme, Edward ,Carlisle, Alice and Jasper.

Rose and Carlisle just excudes AWESOME around them
lol i must be prejudiced against edward or something, he looks like an act cool ah beng in every shot I see.

And of course, the little pixie, Aliceeeeeee.

*cooes*

Twilight

Watched the movie. It was dumb.
Especially the glittery skin part. Can't help but turn my eyes away from the screen.

"This is the skin of a killer, Bella!"

Ooookay. Glitter skin and killer. Their moods doesn't even match lol.

Loved Alice to bits. So cute so cute so cute.
Nice name, nice personality, nice face, nice dressing style.

woooot

OKAY

Any grey-ish areas are essentially just black dots, spaced out. I darkened 'em so the greyish tones are gone, leaving only, well, those black dots.
Zoomed in to double check too. Even the sky is safe.
Whole pic's just black n' white now.

TO DO LIST
Mural
SDL Character
S*T Icon Contest
Vatie Soraliau

EDIT:
I ADDED A NEW SECION IN MAH BLOG

FUCKING MURALS

ARE DRAINING THE LIFE OUT OF ME