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Ytd was the soft method, today was the hard method.
I FREAKING SOBBED T__T whole room was weeping away.. sad la.

THEN.

that bastard ah, took out a wine glass, smashed it on the floor, and continued with his motivational scoldings. >_> ITS ALL PLANNED. AND EVERYONE FELL FOR IT.

confirmed with the other class. all planned. >_>

i hate you so much i love you sia.. -_-

heng i never put on eyeliner today, it aint waterproof. heng heng heng. -_- thank god. some people were like, eh shan, you look wayyyy better w/o make up la. so natural and un-intimidating.

i didnt go like.. walau no la, i know youre joking~~ i go smile smile and smile summore this time round.

high esteem kay. X:

opened up abit more, screamed and hollered and shouted and cheered X: i like speed reading, super memory techniques and stuff~ am going to apply it to everything like teriyaki sauce. imagine maths paper + teriyaki sauce.

hahaha..
im going to aim for NAFA, or something.. X:

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ok, i only have 10mins -.- measly mum eh.

That adam khoo talk = pwnage.
I woke up la.
really.

Im NOT going to slump my shoulders and go " aw shucks, whats wrong with me? why am i being ignored? "

Alright..

Its your loss if people missed this person called shan, okay. Im not going to wallow in sorrow and waste my precious time anymore.

i can do it la, i CAN make my life happy. its just my attiude towards life.

Made my mum happy when i just breezed in through the door and said " Damn me, i was wrong. " yes, i WAS wrong. had a long talk with her, she said im finally mature ;_;

i focused on the wrong things. i worried about trivial stuff.
Talking on MSN witth my friends ytd also sorta .. provided another point of view to this problem.

Right, IF you guys deem yourself as good friends who care, -yes im talking to everyone, be it virtual or rl.- you guys will forgive me for being offline mostly from today onwards, for i am doing the right thing ._.

SHAN, YES SHAN IS GONNA STUDY.
i can do it >_> and now i WANT to do it.

but, of course, some smses occasionally will be a great help, you know. :/

im going to get As and smush em up your faces. hah.

PS: woot! sos = stalker of stalker! yay new meaning to the sos acron. :D

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my eyelids are a pain in the neck -.-
left is more obvious, right aint that obvious.
so ill always thicken left and leave it looking unbalanced if i dont do it right.

-.-

im going to use the tape to tape out my right eyelid -.- have no more choices now.
FED UP !!! fedupfedupfedupfedupfedupfedupfedupfedupfedup!

shan the vainpot. yay.

ILL NOT BE ONLINE FROM TMR TO SAT, I HAVE A MOTIVATIONAL CAMP TO ATTEND (: YOU GUYS ARE ALLOWED TO MISS ME (:

lols. kidding. just being bhb. but yea, unless im feeling hyper and suddenly decides to blog or something in the middle of the night, theres no way im going on. haha..

guess thats it, everyone was appalled as usual, staring at my eyes. pks was acting cute in order to contrast with my so called emo-ness. in your face, pks. wahahahaha. the rest, same old comments.

duno what will happen if someday i go with mascara too lol.

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hmmm, bought my liquid eyeliner. took me only a short while to choose, i thought i have to spend hours in there. guess im wrong.

they said i upgraded from saddist to emo to goth >_> wtf.

its just my style can -_-
my new found style. some personal issues triggered it. i have confidence in myself, but i just didnt show it. just want to show people that i dare to be who i am lah, im not changing for anybody or any comments. it takes much much more to break me.. to make me succumb to your wishes. dont mess with me either, alright? :/

paranoid. when i reached my stop i was glancing everywhere. freaked out by the stalker already. >_>

my solo shoots were almost perfect, but its creepy -goth, you see- i just need to upload em.. to the com~ pandaaaa~ haha. my new nickname in class. well, i dont hate it.. X: it sounds nice.

the little fishie swammm~ and it reached a crossroad~ one is boarded up with, well, boards.. , and the other is clogged with piranhas~

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wtf wtf wtf, wtf wtf wtf, wtf wtf wtf.
wtf.

-_-

scared outta my wits today, kena a guy stalk.
" may i have ur number miss? "

-_-

wtfwtfwtf.

my mind's blank, everything i planned to blog about is gone.

wtf.

ps: elo xiuhuiiii~ i lazy edit my template font so i put the font here large large O: sorry!~

--
update: ive calmed down.

a group of little fishies are swimming..towards the sea. they always swam tgt ..
but slowly, one started lagging behind, it cant swim well due to a little injury..
the gap increased, increased, increased..
and the fish stopped trying to catch up.

turned around, and started swimming back to its little river.

...

WTF SIAAAA.. everytime smth bad happens, it always happens in threes.. -_- first the bad news, then the stupid stalker, THEN the surprise. -_-

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dolling myself up for a solo shoot O: shan looking all dark and dangerous, hmm. new challenge..

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Ima gonna learn HOW. TO. SEW.
yes, i see your jaw dropping.
Since G.L. dresses costs so **** expensive,
why not just make one myself. (:
have to sew one by CNY, if im good at it. a white + pink GL! :D

either someones trying to hack into my old account, or photobucket made a mistake. but either way, i was amused. feel abit honoured actually LOL.
heng my new acnt is harder to crack >_> my darling photoshop images and mousework are all there. time to save in thumbdrive just in case~

which left me wondering, am i really the hermit i made myself out to be? hahaha.. trouble magnet.

i drew my vday presents for everyone, well, almost. DREW. hand drawn. and coloured, with colour pencils. see how sincere i am.. X:
but too bad i aint drawing with happiness.. really irks me when i dont dare to make my stand known. almost forcing myself to draw lmao. if i made a tiny mistake and missed someone out, im going to die bad. worse fate.

got a nightmare yesterday! as usual. weird thing this time is, .. nevermind. X:
never listen to head pounding songs in the middle of the night, the result is worse than you can imagine ^^

hmm, i can sing! hahaha. dont ask me how i knew. but, i can!! wheee~