lol

Im lazy to get the player to fit into the table width ah, so i just dumped it in the bottom of my post rofl.

Colours of Sorrow, by Tsukasa.
Sad stuff.
Think the girl died/ turned into a vampire in the end?

Slept from 3pm till now.
Still feel like sleeping.

Uhhh
ahhhhh
SLEEP AH

enjoy the song

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The 'red' person I was trying to recall was called 'Redjuice999'
redjuice999.deviantart.com

go visit his page man.

DJ Max black square is epic.
Even 4b songs got my fingers scrambling lol.

challenging.

looking forward to attempting the 100% mission and 7x fever rofl.

SON OF SUN IS EPIC

Ash: wanted to show you some pictures, but i can only update later at night.

UPDATES

original



edited



does the buildings look like a toy?
haha

Cos I'mma tell you like you told me
Cash rules everything around me
Singin' dollar dollar bill yall
Singin' dollar dollar bill yall
Cos I'mma tell you like you told me
Cash rules everything around me
Singin' dollar dollar bill yall
Singin' dollar dollar bill yall

Wyclef Jean ft. Akon - Sweetest Girl.
Sad lyrics, but it's the truth.

KL trip kinda sucked.
Felt SO good to get back into my little cubbie hole and draw.
I was so relieved to get back in here that I finished the entire storyboard in one sitting.

The entire storyboard was 9 pages long, and was heavily, and I mean HEAVILY influenced by Gorillaz's animatics. To be specific, the animatics for Dare.
Seriously dug the shots they used for the MV, man.

And also..
BLACK SQUARE - DJ MAX IS NOW IN MY PSP UH HUH UH HUH

I'm going to play it like some no -lifer.
Definitely.

Went over to Twitlight and.. and wow. Power struggle. Epic power struggle.
Everyone got involved. Even Hope, whom I've always regarded as a passive and polite person.. kinda dislike her now. Lol.
This forum is great, it's just the politics in there that screw everything up.

Oh well.

Looked at some OCs and went like - damn.
Where did my storytelling dreams go, man. Gotta get into SNAFU lol. Get back on track.

Lol.
At least this little adventure made me look at the big picture ._.
Waffle is finally at peace, now.

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b'bye.
Cya on the 29th.

love

Sushi once shared some of his love woes to me.

So I said : " Y'know, there's this situation where you and her can be real close. Really close. But yet, it isn't enough for you guys to be a couple. That can probably solve your dilemma."

And he replied : " It probably won't be enough for me. And her. I think.. I'll just let her go.. "

...

So yeah. A picture of a girl crying and laughing at the same time. Pretty much describes the ups and downs of love, hmm?

Dedicated to sushi, and anyone being tested by Cupid right now. Ahaha.

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My own notes :
Yay. Comepleted Theme two : Love.
Next theme : Light.

So. Yeah. Not really happy with this. Wanted to try a saturated colouring scheme.
BUT SHAN WAS TOO AFRAID TO EXPERIMENT AGAIN.

I dont care I'm definitely gonna try that scheme for Light. Roar. Roarroarroar.

Tried a different colouring method to make her skin look less plastic. Kinda worked.

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GOODBYE, BLACK HAIR :D

Too bad I'm a first timer, coupled with a helluva black + thick hair.
Colour didn't get in that much.

Ohhhh well.
Pinkish brown~ I'll remember this colour~

Took pics of the entire process. Gotta put it in some album, man.
The virginity of my hair is finally lost.

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I miss you, I miss you so far~

Lol. Can't get Cemetry Drive out of my head. One of the nicest MCR song, I'll say.
hn.

read eiko-chan's la costa notra - Chpt 3. Art quality has gone down, but the storytelling blows. I'm surprised that she even managed to pump out Chpt 3 lol. I normally give up at Page 1/ 2 x:

Never knew that ang moh country had such a big thing against other people of italian blood o.o
Or maybe it's just all the stories blowing the issue up. Oh well. Whocaresaslongasthestoryisstillnice,imhappy.

feel so tempted to try out her drawing style.
It's like disney features + realism + manga proportions.

If you were here I'd never have a fear
So go and live your life
But I miss you more than I did yesterday.
You're so far away. your so far away
So c'mon show me how.
'Cause I mean this more than words can ever say.

Haha. MCR craze.

With so much rock-love songs, I feel so inspired.. to draw out the 2nd topic of the 100 themes challenge.

Love, that is.
It's gonna be an emotional piece, I tell ya.

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Right.
Right, right, right.

It really irks me whenever that presense pops up.
Goddamn.

And the fact that no one can help me seriously helps the entire situation.
Then again, I've been doing shit for people who needs aid too.

Waffle spent most of her time cheering people on with corny messages, instead of seriously digging in deeper to understand the situation, and actually think up a solution.

BUT. WAFFLE MEANT IT. ALL THOSE CORNY WORDS TO CHEER EVERYONE ON ):<
WAFFLE WILL REALLY GIVE SUPPORT, BE IT MENTAL OR PHYSICAL.
kay maybe not physical. BUT STILL.

heehee.
I guess I'll just do my best. And.. yeah. Do my best. TO SMILE.

Onto my diary to RANT.


:)

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This night, walk the dead
In a solitary style
And crash the cemetery gates.
In the dress your husband hates
Way down, mark the grave
Where the search lights find us
Drinking by the mausoleum door
And they found you on the bathroom floor

I miss you, I miss you so far
And the collision of your kiss that made it so hard

Back home, off the run
Singing songs that make you slit your wrists
It isn't that much fun, staring down a loaded gun
So I won't stop dying, won't stop lying (are you there at all?)
If you want I'll keep on crying (do you care at all?)
Did you get what you deserve? (are you there at all?)
Is this what you always want me for?

I miss you, I miss you so far
And the collision of your kiss that made it so hard

Way down, way down
Way down, way down
Way down, way down
Way down, way down

I miss you, I miss you so far
And the collision of your kiss that made it so hard

When will I miss you, when will I miss you so far
And the collision of your kiss that made it so hard
Made it so hard

Way down, way down
Way down, way down
Way down, way down
Way down, way down
Way down...

A beautiful song about depression.
I miss you, I miss you, so far..

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I CAN'T PIMP MAH HEADPHONES IN REAL LIFE
SO I PIMPED THEM WITH PHOTOSHOP INSTEAD

HAH.


//shan is so desperate//

lol

I Hate YOU by ~Sir-SiriX on deviantART

Nice.

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There she is - Final Step. Imagine.

Damn. I've been catching up with that series for months now. And it.. just.. ended. Today. Now.

It's a happy ending, but the pain and obstacles they had to cross in order to reach that paradise..

Such is the magic of undying love lol.

The part where the Cat's newly made friends all pitched in to help him out seriously made me sniffle in happiness. To think that they, too, were against him going out with Bunny in the past.

Screw social conformations! Make love, not warrrrr!

http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/161181
I'll post up the first episode's link.

//update: changed song//

Where is my mind

lol, watch it till 2.07.
The dead corpse/ ballerina dancing seriously blows.
I've never seen such grace and power in a dancer's steps before.

So delicate, so fragile, yet ..


Introduction - Finished



OlderWIPS :
http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g162/pencilspam/introWIP.jpg
http://i56.photobucket.com/albums/g162/pencilspam/introWIPII.jpg

With your feet in the air and your head on the ground
Try this trick and spin it, yeah
Your head will collapse
But there's nothing in it
And you'll ask yourself

Where is my mind
Where is my mind,
Where is my mind...

Oh...

Where~ is my mind..

* And she ran, her head swimming, struggling to keep up. Trying to keep up with her thoughts, trying to keep up with.. Her.
"Let me give you an introduction of this place... " The tall lady then whispered, her voice tinkering softly in the cool air. "...Welcome... to your mind."

Technical bullshit:
This WIP took hours. Uncountable hours.I started at ..10am. It's 1.11 pm now. See?
Texture brushes used up to this point, 2.

// Finished project took up : 6 hours, a lot of temple rubs, 1 hour of 'I should give up'murmurs, 1/4 of my stock of pringles, 3 cups of water. Texture brush count, 4.//

Other notes:
Damn, I wanna defeat Clement so bad. SO bad.

//Shan is too scared to experiment much ahahaha. Covered up all her bold strokes with more layers. Don't look texturish anymore. ): //

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These babies are so cute so cute LOL.
The tunnel baby was the best.
That OMFG WTF WAS HAPPENING face.. Priceless!



OFF TO DO CHALLENGE NO 1. Introduction.

..

oh man I swear I'm not gonna get dehydrated again.
ohhh man.


Masamurai by ~Zeen84 on deviantART

Noice.

EDIT// I UPDATED LINKS LIST

So..

PROJECT 'GET MAH BUTT INTO SNAFU COMICS' INITIATED.
WATCH THIS SPACE.

Thank you

Thanks to Clement and Antony, Shan now has a fluffy green puppet to decorate her bed with.

Cat hat is very happy with him, oh yes.


update
// deleting posts that are older than this current one //

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Regret allowing my second earhole to close ;_;
REGRET

Bought those cheap plastic rings earrings at a mini store with G yesterday night, and immediately regretted my decision to close them. If my 2nd earhole is still there, the rings would look so much nicer ARGH.

Blue, pink, black, purple. Two on each ear.
Now there's only purple and blue, on my left and right ear respectively. Tried stuffing two rings into one earhole, but those damn pricks have healed so much after I took the extensions out......

NO SPACE TO STUFF IN AH. Then again, I stopped stuffing the plastic rod thingies at Sec 4 rofl.

Oh, and yeah.
ASHLEY
I TRIED COMMENTING ON YOUR BLOG, AND GUESS WHAT? IT SAID : "Please log in to confirm that you ARE A HUMAN. "

Wtfffff
Livejournal is so mean wtf
Do I look like an alien to them? ;_;

Quit Twilight officially.
Herc, Day, Ramos, Aries, even Lox commented. I was so.. tempted to reply ><
I'm happy Herc and Day became a couple. Really. Since I was the one who pulled them together in the first place. Those two are too shy to make a move rofl

But I'm still feeling the oddness of it all.
Herc now has Day, so.. It makes me the ''extra'' of the group already. Sometimes I'll still feel a bit bitter ah. But I'm still happy for them.

I've known you for one full year, Herc.
Don't dump me for Day, no matter how sweet or charming he can be rofl.

She even showed me the confession PM Day sent to her. Hell, my heart melted XD
But its nothing compared to G's.

....
Nah. Day's confession PM owned G's. HANDS DOWN.

Bloody hell, that guy typed out one WALL OF MUSHY TEXT. ONE WALL. I only have one sms that was limited to 160 words leh. leh leh leh. LEH.

):<

Rofl.
Just messing with ya'.

Anyways, where was I >.>
All the best to you two lovebirds.

So, anyways, back at home, I remember I have one spare eyeliner that I haven't used yet. So I tried to dig it out to give Ant. Went through a lot of my old stuff as I looked for it.

Jiahui ;_;
I shouldn't have deleted your link.

Ms Koh~ I haven't ate the chocolate you gave me for Olvls. Disgusting, yes, but I'll never let it leave my bag. Never ever. ;_;

Found lots of BS.
Lost my sec 4 class photo. Put them at my old home. Lost a lot of presents, a lot of mementos. SHIT AH.

ANYWAYS.
Ant-toh-neh. I FOUND THE SPARE EYELINER.
I FOUND THE SPARE EYELINER.
I FOUND THE SPARE EYELINER.

oh. last thing. I'm really happy today. After so many months,Mr Jiunn is finally pleased with my work ;_;

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Made an exclusive PSP skin for G and me!



Hehehe.
Lots of stuff happened.
Decided to stop thinking, and.. just stay like this.

I'm happy like this, yes.

VANILLA, SALTY VANILLA!
Love ToraDora!
As you can see la lol. Why else will I have their picture as our psp wallpaper.

It's a happy comedy, with a slightly sad twist at times.
I'll definitely be very very sad when this series ends.

Minori is made of EPIC!



EPICCCCCCCCCC
THE CONVENIENCE STORE FIST OF TRUTH~~~~~



And yep.
Here is a recent CG piece.



My screen name was Noia, but my friend called it ParaNoia ahaha.
But I've quit twitlight already, so..

created a new account , called artC-ore!
Made to parody the word 'hardcore' rofl rofl rofl

VANILLA, SALTY VANILLA~

with vanilla salt
with vanilla salt
with vanilla salt
Burning Love

if it's only sweet
pour some salt on it

I want you to understand me more than anyone else
so I want to disclose myself
but I can't do it with Nothing as experience
it's rather irritating

the more I try to show my weakness
I act tougher for no reason and everything goes wrong
I'm actually a cry-baby
although I kept quiet about it

but a love that's only sweet is a little

different from what I wish for

if I'm told it's white
I'll say it's black
unable to become honest
I'm rebellious
if you say you like me
I'll say I hate you
I'm happy, but what am I saying?

just like pouring salt
to the sweet vanilla...

if I wholeheartedly fall in love
for 24-hours, 7-days a week
I think about you continuously
it's rather extreme

to be this obsessed with you
no one would've expected this
weather forecasts can't predict it
about the whereabouts of love

during the time spent together
the engraved memories are treasures

if I'm told it's right
I'll turn left
unable to become honest
I'm rebellious
if you say you like me
I'll say I hate you
I'm happy, but what am I saying?
Burning Love

rather than the vanilla that's just sweet
putting a little salt on it
will make it sweeter
and you won't get tired of it...

yes, even love that's just sweet
putting a little salt on it
will bring our distance closer
probably
a tomorrow that's more wonderful than today is waiting

if I'm told it's white
I'll say it's black
unable to become honest
I'm rebellious
if you say you like me
I'll say I hate you
I'm happy, but what am I saying?

if it's only sweet
pour some salt on it

with vanilla salt
with vanilla salt
with vanilla salt
with vanilla salt

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bad day, bad day.
Critique session really sucked.

Reminds me of Alan's words. Pioneer student of DMD, and he ended up being my colleague. Meaning that he switched from art to IT. 29 years old. wasted.

Now I understand what he was saying.
Very sad ah..

I feel like giving up on animation. I really, really don't have the damn patience to do it ah. Bloody hell, tell me to sit down and re draw the same picture with minor, yet accurate edits for 1049235893532 times.. that's just torture!

Maybe I'll go to games. Maybe not. I just want to be an illustrator, just an illustrator ;___;

Very bad mood. Very very bad.
It took all of my concentration just to stop myself from snapping at everyone who talked to me.
IC's locker got locked out, and my animation paper was stuck inside. Double blow!

Lucky Ant came by and helped me out. Or else I'll really explode sia. ):<

After that, I went off early~
Had lunch with Clement and Angeline. The three of us talked abit.
I feel like I'm sliding down. Don't deserve to hang out with everyone ;_; Why are my grades so lousy?

At least Angeline gave me a few tips.

hehehe.

Daydreamed a lot today. I dreamt that Josh really came down to visit and teach me how to play Dota LOL.

Summary of this topicless post: Shan needs a hug~

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Dry ice!
Old pic, but I've always wanted to document this moment. The people in twitlight are always, well, taking twitish photos, so I couldn't put mine up. ):

So yes. We had a little competition between ourselves. Each of us reached into the bucket and grabbed the huge cube of dry ice, and tried to hold it as long as possible. All of us ended up getting frostbitten lol. Damn pain.

But I like :D

So fun!

Linked Ashley! She look so much more cute and youthful with this new hairdo.. tsk tsk. can't believe you're older than me by so much. Must go to the same salon someday. Hah. I'm a copycat, sue me. x:

Mmm. My china doll bangs disappear already oh. Went back to my generic fringe style thingy. It's hard to find a hairstyle to suit my face, with my wide jaws killing the usual ''oh my god I'm a damsel in distress'' look. Chinese girls look nicer when they have this fragile looking face.

Or thats what I think lah rofl.

I restarted my make up ritual le. Everyday must go to school with powder and liner! Sooner or later I'll start laying on mascara already lol. kidding. My powder is bought at Vivo's Daiso. Best one I've seen so far. It's glittery, but not too glittery... lol wtf am I saying sia.

Started getting more active le. Walk and run around.
Planning to hit the gym with G soon, too.
He seriously need to get his health back up. Or else how to have babies HUH.
I need to slim down, too.

Magazine said females in a very long relationship tend to ''anyhow'' their appearance, because they think that they are already ''steady'' le. No need attract more guys, as they have one already. True.
But if they get too lazy, their own boyfriends/ husbands might just lose interest in them!

Even G was like..
"Eh darling. You really need to shape up your butt and thighs lah."

I replied:
"Screw you, asshole! Who's the one with the huge belly paunch one HUH? "

But I know he's serious ;_; I don't want to look like an auntie so fast wtf~
Must go gym gym~

School was fun. I skipped lecture. SHHHH.

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Today was made up of bs sia. |:
Went to school, took a train to AMK hub, took a train back, went up to block M, then photocopy shop, then block L, then block M, THEN photocopy shop AGAIN, then block L, then I went home.

best part: G called me to say that he'll pick me up, but I forgot and took the long journey back home myself.

AMK hub was fun.
The counter people were really damn friendly with each other. One guy said he sawed off his wisdom tooth, and it broke into 18 pieces into his mouth. So the other guy said, "How you know one? You use your tongue count while the dental surgery is going on ah? Like.. ah! I feel one chip.. AH! ANOTHER PIECE IS HERE! "

Guy no 3. : "Eh guys, is my gum bleeding?"
Guy no 1 and no 2. " If you can taste blood then its bleeding lah, if not.. its not bleeding lah .DUH. Show us for what sia. w'piang eh."

Lol. Me and one other man was laughing away with them. Jokers sia they all. It made me realize how fun my asset auditing job was :D
Maybe being a nobody isn't that bad. As long as I have my friends. Speaking of friends..

Guys! I revive my blog le!!! :D

After that, I called Adabelle and went back to school, in an attempt to finish up my animation bullshits. (Nothing came out of that session, though. I only managed to draw seaweed on the line. )

While walking to Blk M, I bumped into Danny..
Sian lor. I was taller than him in Sec 4, but now he's like.. towering...

didn't recognize him at first. He called out to me then I notice. That asshole-ish smirk still haven't changed, hahaha. Same goes for my 'Yo' replies. I guess Danny is still danny, regardless of his height. Shan is still shan, regardless of her weight.

Went up to M and spotted Nigel.
Surrounded by friends sia, that guy. Tsk. Jealous.

Went into animation room, and got into a mini moodswing. I see the seaweed I sian already lol. Spent most of the time zoning away and listening to Xian, evone and CH's conversation. Sigh. I wish I can find someone in the same situation as me sia. I need some advice too ._.'

But it's expected lah. Who would be thinking of marriage at a mere 17 yrs old, you tell me.

But still. I dunno leh. Given my personality.
I shouldn't be settling down so fast.
My heart is still very wild ah, to say the truth.

With that said, I get the feeling that E is avoiding me..
Which is good.
But the guilt..

Hem. So I went back home and slept. Looking forward to my Mac apple pie. It should be coming at 11pm plus. 2 hours away. hehehe.

Read Shiwei's blog, AND RECOILED IN HORROR
wtf. I seriously look like shit on photos, man.
My GOD.

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Gosh, I'm starting to miss Josh |:
Pun intended.

rofl. Haven't talked for weeks/ months ah. Come visit NYP soon, you SP loser.

Ms Gail gave a long talk today.
Scared the shit out of me. If working life in the industry is really as taxing and stressful as the World Skills programme, I think I'll just quit and be an asset auditor or something. Back to my part time job. Back to being a nobody. rofl.

Speaking of the future, my birthday is coming soon :D
One month further.
What should I do? Should I organize a mini nano party for me and G? Should I just forget it and carry on as per normal?
G's definitely hosting some mega party. 21 years old, afterall. Still as childish as ever, though. 27 of Dec. Falls on the same day as ykyk's birthday. I still can't get over the shock, lol. Oh well. Have to wash up and start preparing. Get rid of all my facial flaws and be a pretty little vase for the party. :D

His friends are total weirdos.
Can't say much, since mine are the same, too. PSP RANGERS UNITE!



Looking forward to it. Met Nicol yesterday, too. His army buddy.
I was totally unprepared for the meeting lol. He just popped up in the car.
It was the first time meeting him, so when he introduced himself, I thought :
"...Nicole?!"

Awkwardddd.

He's a fun guy, though. Unlike my little sack of lard over here. Tsk.

The class hosted a birthday party for Jim. Sad stuff. Poor guy almost got his nuts smashed in. Cake was nice, though. Cookies and cream. I want a vanilla flavoured cake for my birthday! (Looking at you, G)

THE Anime Convention is coming soon. The major one where all the professionals are attending. the one where May'n, the singer for Macross Frontier, will be performing in. The one where all my otaku fetishes will be met rofl.

I might be going as Haruhi. If I have the time lah. Show you guys an old photo.



Yeah my skirt is unzipped, that's why I've to clutch it. Or else it will just drop lol. I took this in the dressing room lol. Anyways, yeah. Squash and stretch. Can you see it?!
Stupid sample's zip jammed. So yeah. Sorry Josh, it isn't my figure afterall. It's just the loose uniform playing tricks on your eyes. >:
I'm still missing a headband, her ribbon, the armband, and brown contacts plus hairspray.
IF ANYONE SAW IT ANYWHERE, TELL ME NAO
I'M DESPERATE.

note: Hmm. I have shaky hands. Can't seem to take focused photos.

ANYWAYS.



Asuka and Rei, from Eva. One picture from my collection of 140 cosplay pics lol. Enjoi.

Slipped

And fell in my school campus's linkway today. I've gotten loads of scrapes before but this actually hurt quite a lot.

Was trying to walk down the linkway ( the floor is paved using stones, mind you ) after finishing my work with my classmates. 5.55pm, I recall. My good ol slipper/heels gave way as I walked down a sloping area, even though I was walking reaaaallll slowly.

I tumbled, stumbled, tilted forward and [i]slid[/i] down the slope. My right leg got all the damage, and best of all, MOST OF THE WOUNDS ARE ON MY DAMN KNEE! Cuts on knees are a real bother to heal, since walking tends to open the wounds frequently..

damn...

Bled like hell. I've to force myself to stop walking just to mop up the blood thats flowing down. People were staring at me like I was a complete freak. What, never seen a poly freshie bleed before?!

...

But its not all that bad. As I was sitting on the steps right outside the station, waiting for my boyfriend to pick me up, a random stranger stopped his car in front of me and opened the door. His daughter, who was also inside, cried the moment she saw my wound lol.. but anyway.. he stepped out and offered help. Stuffed a fistful of tissues in my hand. Chatted with me for a bit to distract me from the pain.

It really improved my mood loads. But better stuff are coming. A group of seniors from my campus spotted me and rushed forward to help. Can't be blamed that the crowding around me drew a bigger crowd, but still.. I'm deeply touched :D They gave me plasters, more tissues, offered to help me clean up the wound..

Man am I touched or what. I really appreciate all the attention from the people, mostly because I didn't expect it at all. I've always thought that people in Singapore are kinda cold and unforgiving.

Very lucky my boyfriend called my phone right after I fell. What a coincidence. Or rather, is it telepathy? haha..
If he didn't call, I might have been stucked on the private bus - standing up. Lucky I got a ride from him.

Happy day.
Was fun doing homework with my classmates too..
They actually gave me the drive to complete 42 sketches in one day's time.
Lucky I have them.

Really lucky, this day was.

taste of working freelance

Was busy working on a project for a client last few weeks, thus the silence and absense..

was busy working on a NAMECARD DESIGN!!~


haha. Its fun knowing that people are actually interested in your works and are willing to fork out money to get them. but of course, for this case ill be getting zilch ^^ but hey, ive been leeching off them for 6 months already.


Its almost finalized, and Ive already planned to add that beautiful lil thing into my online portfolio. ( Actually I swear it could have been a lot better, but the restrictions the clients posed are... restrictive . )

Now I'm just waiting for the last client to drop by and do the last few tweaks. Then I'll save in high res. Then she will go on and print it out. Then the whole thing is finished.

Designing a namecard took one whole month of my life.

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I'm here to enter a log about my nightmares! Else, I wont even bother to come here and log lololol.

Most recent one: This morning, round 7~9am. Greyscale
This is the creepiest one I've ever had. In one part of the dream, some groupies came into the scene. Problem is, I don't even know wtf groupies mean if you ask me that in real life. How the hell can I know the meaning and even depict it out in dream form?

PS: I later checked the dictionary and found out that its actually correct.

This time fear dominated the entire scene. I'm forever running away from people and creating reasons to avoid their wrath @_@ My nubhole included, even. I also dragged my past senior into the nightmare this time round, it seems. I'll never forget that female groupie's face, though. Looks stupid and ridiculous at first, but if i look deeper ill see eyes that are trying to convey something.
Best thing is, no matter where I go, I'll always walk past the path of my old home.

Damn.


Cant forget it.

My sec2~3 nightmare:

The circus and the silent band. Greyscale. Blood. Now I kind of understand the nightmare. It actually served as a premonition...
And a reflection of my worries.

My Pri 6(?) nightmare:

Skyscraper. Coffin. Charcoal. Falling doll, me climbing out of window to get it, and falling.. to my death.
Till now, I havent understood why the hell charcoal is included in that dream.



And all these brings me back to the reason why I wanted to draw so much.
I have to draw all these stuff out and find a freaking psychologist to decipher all these memories.
But if anyone has a clue of whats going on in my subconscious mind, please offer some help over here. I cant seem to ever forget them, even after all these years..

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I'm doing some experimenting over here.
watercolours on a digital platform.

bloody hell, still cant draw out perfectly nice lines without any breakage.
below piece is for my codid
ill work on it more to include it in my portfolio..

in short..

WIP.

MMMmmm

I've improved.

2ND ATTEMPT



1ST ATTEMPT

WACOM INTUOS 3 REVIEW

Behold. The WACOM Intuos 3.

- the review -

Let me tell you this first. I've already mentally prepared myself for a gazillion times for the initial shock - that the tablet won't make my art look like something that will look like it was hung on the art galleries of the heavens before. But.. I still ended up feeling flabbergasted.

Not in that kind of positive OMG-THIS-IS-SO-NICE shock, but the WTF-HOW-THE-FCK-DO-I-CONTROL-THIS kind of shock.

I swear the stuff I draw on paper is x1394834326 times better than the wacom version. AND my traditional drawings already suck real bad.

First I tried using it as a mouse. I ended up clicking stuff when I wanted to just move the cursor around, and the cursor ALWAYS tap on any button that I pulled across in my journey to reach the great X of the window. I won't even start on the control this pen gives me. The cursor is shivering. Literally. And who was the one who thought that the pen would give me more control as compared to the mouse?

me Some people who misled me with their comments in dA, of course. COUGH. And anyways..

DRAWING ON PHOTOSHOP CS3. mmm. This shall be the start of my rant.


Lookie this. Of course, remember to scroll in order to see my piccy in its full glory.
Look at how fuzzy my lines are! I tried doing one stroke stuffs, but the shivering cursor kept making my line ' jump '.

Damn thing also draws when what I wanted was just to move over and select a colour or two. WTF. In the end, after many tries, I found out that I've to lift the tip juuuuusssst a little bit above the tablet, so it won't draw but can still move properly. This isn't really safe though, as sometimes it still draws a line or two. My shaking hand can't take it, you see. I'm used to keeping the pen on the paper. Meh.

I dunno if I'm doing this wrong, but I'm sure that I haven't learnt enough about it yet. Sourcing around for tutorials already. Positive this pen will aid me loads in future, when I do more complicated drawings, but for now..

Maybe I'll just stick to my beloved pencil.

Castle of Tears

Castle of Tears - Best remix I've ever heard.



Hear it ; Worship it.

Mr Jiunn's lecture was an eye opener for me. After looking at the many photomanips and sickening Pikachu pictures ( not to say the WonderAIDSwoman ), I've gotten inspired. I've the perfect idea for the advertisement now, but the sad thing is..

..

..

I don't have the skill to bring the effect out fully.

I'm researching like hell on references and have started my material collection. Gotta make this work. Gotta be in the top few in class. Even better, get an A++. I'm gonna empty my heart and soul into this piece. WOOT!

Am very satisfied with DesignFund. Life/Death Assignment is doing great. I'm seeing some nice stuff forming already. Loads of ink used. ;_; Have to cherish this sense of highness and arrogance before I go to school tomorrow and see the top two elites dash my hopes again, lol.

I'm jealous ...



Mmmm I'm picking up speed already. Still stumbling along in Fine Arts though. I mean.. PAPER EDGE IS THE SAME AS A RULER!! Wassup with using the paper edge if you have the damn ruler already? Humans created this tool for a purpose, people, a purpose! I can't wait to draw a human body though, fully clothed of course. I'm more interested in human anatomy.

Starting to re-welcome Colour Theory. At least I still haven't screwed up yet.

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Aw man I still can't get over Castle of Tears. I've been looping it for hours already. That guy is a musical genius, a gift from the heavens to us mortals~

Castle of Tears

Castle of Tears - Best remix I've ever heard.



Hear it ; Worship it.

Mr Jiunn's lecture was an eye opener for me. After looking at the many photomanips and sickening Pikachu pictures ( not to say the WonderAIDSwoman ), I've gotten inspired. I've the perfect idea for the advertisement now, but the sad thing is..

..

..

I don't have the skill to bring the effect out fully.

I'm researching like hell on references and have started my material collection. Gotta make this work. Gotta be in the top few in class. Even better, get an A++. I'm gonna empty my heart and soul into this piece. BI SHENG~!

Am very satisfied with DesignFund. Life/Death Assignment is doing great. I'm seeing some nice stuff forming already. Loads of ink used. ;_; Have to cherish this sense of highness and arrogance before I go to school tomorrow and see the top two elites dash my hopes again, lol.

I'm jealous >< edge =" RULER!!" style="color: rgb(204, 0, 0);" size="5">

Aw man I still can't get over Castle of Tears. I've been looping it for hours already. That guy is a musical genius, a gift from the heavens to us mortals~

I'M IN LOVE

with realism..

look, this picture is made up of instant win..


Morning Coffee by *Orioto on deviantART

Damn I'm so gonna try my first realism attempt on Mai. Mmm this grading week has caused me to reflect a lil on my artworks. I always finish it and look like its the nicest picture in the whole wide world - then I come to school and feel my face fall when I check out the others' artworks. I should be at an advantage already, with my 3 years of practice. But why..

1) I realized during the three years of drawing, not once did I make a real determined attempt at going outta my comfort zone. This sucks.

2) Over confidence. Need I say more T^T

3) I KEPT ON GETTING DISTRACTED

Uhuh. This can't go on. I need to get to my IF Studio, I WANNA DRAW A PICCY OF PEPPER1@#!@$

I'll start drawing with a open mind from now onwards. I don't care if my brains fall out or something. Oppppeeennn mindddd. Zeeeeeennnnnn.

Oh well. One more peekture to go around.


Anger management by *Orioto on deviantART

C O D I D M A D N E S S

Yea, its finally over~!! Have to chiong up my idea book version 2 soon though.. Arr. Don't even have much time to breathe. Lucky the slacker in me ain't dead yet, and has successfully persuaded me to get off my work table and type out a post or two. Relax.

Mmmm I'm real happy today! :D After a grueling 4weeks of intense drawing and technique learning, I finally got an above average work churned out. Everyone was getting praised by the teachers so much that I felt so de-motivated. My turn finally came today. Doesn't matter that I'm one of the last to get compliments, I'm still happy. T_T Two of my works scored in the Color Theory module. Ms Grace would be keeping the works to scan in and showcase them as a feature or something. I'm not sure. I just know that shes scanning them in.

HAPPY! :3

But I know she will be darn disappointed when it comes to color swatches sooo... argh...

Anyways, back to CODID.

I dressed up as a Witch for the second round - to King Vanity's Party ! First time hearing a lecturer describing himself as a King. BHB anyone? But nah, hes really a nice guy. I dressed up as a Black and White girl on the first attempt. Didn't go too well I guess. Hahaha...


Firstly - I present to you - Group DMD03, iCastz! Its taking one hell of a time to upload this thing so I guess I'll keep the pictures in the minimum.



Antony, Adabelle and Me

edit: ill update this post tmr. something is wrong with the uploading thingy

MELON PAN!

Update~~~

I was scooping some pro hokkien mee to eat.. and then.. a piece of art emerged from outta no where! Too bad this phone is VGA one.. not even megapix. Or I would have gotten a nicer shot of this beauty before I ate it all. The thing in the middle is a piece of crab stick.

Its in the shape of a HEART!~~

I drew pictures of my mascot as usual. Trivia 1: My mascot's name is Mai.
Tried out different postures and stuff, and did my best to get the anatomy right. I'll host up some sneak peeks of the two drawings :D

Tried drawing a weapon without doing it with half ass efforts.. I guess I didn't let myself down too much! Still awaiting my darling scanner/ stylus so I can finally get my dA account up and moving again. Considering opening a website as a online free lancing head start but man.. am I busy or am I busy.

Mmmm CODID is being a jerk to me. The pictures I printed out are punier than puny. I dunno how I can survive this without handing in the stuff late man. Still need to source around for some new clothing. I'm a lil worried already, to say the truth.





Met Chong Yi.. Sheryl.. Elisha.. etc in the library. Met Shimin yesterday too. Nice to see my sec school peeps again.. the memories~

Tuu Duu Doo!

PS: ANYONE WILLING TO SELL ME SOME PHOTO PRINTS OF THE CODID CLASS? ;_;

Wtf HAX

My current mood is comparable to a rat stuck in a sewer pipe.


F O U L.

Feel like I'm drifting away from loads of my new peeps. Is it just me, or has cliques started to form in DMD03?

I don't like. T^T

Feeling quite cheesed off at something that I can't define also. The irony of the situation I'm in probably. And now that I'm at it, whats the problem with getting just a teeny bit of privacy even when a person is in a relationship? People should get some privacy every once in a while, be it what status they are in.. Not getting it results in mental stress instead.

Anyways. Hell - whats up with the two words; soccer and men? Join them two together and even the infernal hell seems like paradise for us girls. Well for my case its computer games and men. Bloody hell.. the excuses are crap ( that even I once used in the past )to begin with. I feel amazed at my capability to contain and not shoot back at every given chance. Its like a kid in denial - I now know why everyone got so pissed when I was obsessed with Audi, Maple, S*T etc..

..and now I'm the one getting pissed off.

Sometimes this fact will be used as a shield - the fact that I once was obsessed with games make it right and just to do the exact same action. Wtf is this..? So instead of moving forward and improving our own lives, dwelling on the past and evening up every mistake is the way to go? At least I'm not having the problem with computer obsession now..

Looking on another side of the situation, being so focused may also mean that other than playing the com, theres nothing else to do. And this deals a huge whammy on my side. A great deal of time is spent together, but yet theres nothing to do with each other? So much and yet so little connects this whole rln together. Sometimes I feel it too - maybe being too close can be a huge obstacle sometimes.


Or maybe I'm just being overly sensitive. I hope I am.

...

My 9797xxxx phone line is officially cut off yesterday, due to another climatic peak in the dramas of my unfortunate life. Starting to miss my secondary school peeps - they are the only ones I can open up to up to this date. Not to say DMD03 peeps aren't as good as them, they are great and highly reliable people to be with, but I'm close to neither one of them. Seems that everyone here is too caught up with school to say anything related to their personal lives.

I'm not going to buy the stylus pens that the school wants us to buy ; I'm going to get the Bamboo Fun version instead. Like, come on la, a whooping 85 bucks for a single stylus? I can get the full set for just 200 dollars.. the stylus included. What unreasonable pricing is this @_@

The moment my Bamboo Fun is bought I'm gonna restart my drawing journey. Roar. Now for some visual entertainment..



Best creepy song on Earth.

I researched a little on Eraserhead too. Remember the Visual Audio Lecturer's slides? The movie promo poster for Eraserhead. Creepy stuff. Seems that the main character, Henry, had a uber deformed kid with bandages for flesh.



And now for more pictures regarding this film..



If those pictures hooked your interest, here is the wiki article regarding the sypnosis..

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Eraserhead

Thats pretty much all. Bye for now, lovelies!

Here I am..

Had a load to get off my chest. Changed the url of my blog in an attempt to run away from eyes that I'll never ever want to meet. Again. You can say that I'm a person who can never ever sleep in peace, hahaha...

Took part in King Vanity's Party aka the CODID assignment from sschool ( NYP ) and well.. I personally think its slightly irrevelant. I can't bear to invest money getting the correct dress/ gown/ proper dressing needed to attend a King's party knowing that I won't be wearing it a second time.. Thats just stupid. So I'm kind of at a total head blockage over here..

Teacher was pretty harsh on us, though I can see that he has really lessened his impact of his words a lot already. So I can't imagine what will happen when I actually hit Year 2. Like what my colleague said, Year 1 would be fun and nice, while Year 2 will cause serious stress. 90% of the people should be dead by Year 3 already lol. Stress.

Learnt that my SP friends started school today~ Hurray for you guys, now you know my suffering~!

I'm currently hooked onto Vampire Knight too, so any VK lunatics.. feel free to MSN me and we can chat up all the time~~~