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o_o

i lag badly , i guess

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heh hi5 ! same boat same boat ><
im yearning with all my heart for that day to come too :D

think i can start the club of sinister smiles already . my level of control improved so so much.. enough to able to turn the tables around too X: well im not going to just sit on my chair and get moody, cough. you go wallow in sorrow, ILL go make good use of my time. how else can you ignore the pain :/

lol, still tearless >< wonder if ive sold my soul to the devil ever since that incident.. or maybe this is too broken to let me sense anything anymore

but either way, still have to pull ourselves together for examssss. yea i know its a lousy excuse to cheer up, but still~

will say the truth here :/ shit i really cannot accept their bloody point of view lah, and to think ive been covering up for them all these while
well, if its because of my future, my life, ill have nothing to say of course. -__-
but how can you people focus on such small stuff to blow up about WTF im speechless
why. so. su. per. fi. ci. al?!
and god dammit my hints are still not taken -_- if this carries on, no matter what i do.. clashes will arise -.- everytime i get questions fired at me.. i dont see the one im looking for -_-
ultimately its still not me that you people put as priority >< the starting ones were total guilt trips, i admit.. but now, what happened! finally starting to show the real reasons , i see..

sad lah :/ just my luck lor, what sin did i commit in my past life lol ..or rather. what sin did our whole family commit in our past lives to deserve this :/ no wai im gonna bridge the gap again -.- ill just let things be this time round

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i feel ashamed for em o_o ah well, this secret will never be leaked out~

school is so boring omg >< 1/2 of the people are gone, then by recess, another 1/2 of the 1/2 will sneak outta school, leaving less than a handful behind yay -_- i learnt my lesson, nod. go over to the dark side i shall. LOL. am getting influenced to play again o_o maple and GE. they wont ever succeed this time round eheheh, im off games!

and thats it! the good old essay typer is finally stumped about what to write LOL.

empty life i have :/

by the way o_o is rozen maiden a nice manga to read? iono who im asking this to but ill still put it here LOL

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this feels like last year :/
is it really spite meh, but i dont remember having any motive in the first place
is it really loneliness meh, but i dont remember having any lack of chit chats in school leh

lol im just as lost as everyone else ._. i need a shrink omg, how come i dunno anything about myself -_-

everything is soooo fuzzy now :/ point of views and conditions kept on changing and changing.. and changing. little snippets of information every now and then. even if i wanna update you people, its going to be so confusing lol -.- i dont know where im heading myself too.

but of course i wont waste the time just stoning and emoing and unwillingly studying away! ima work on my skin for now :/ it will be 100% my work omg, ill draw everything myself >< Swan song shalt be the theme :D its the healthiest way of de-stressing myself hehehe. ah well..see i wont ever give up on drawing no matter what shit happens LOL. pat on the back for me :X

looking forward to meeting you guys in school again!

@jiahui: i shy leh LOL :/ no one i rly know did the test yet, i wait till more people do le then i do :X