"Will you defeat them, your demons, and all the non believers, the plans that they have made?"
Because one day I leave you,
A phantom to lead you in the summer,
To join the black parade."

went to the link josh gave me. not bad, the video. haha. mon go sch must thank him. forgot to do so tdy..
ahh~ MCR! haha. feel like going back to my darker side. i miss the sulking me. found out that something is wrong. my designs.. are happy instead of..sad. -__-
i gotta change back. cant lose my style now that ive found it eh.

did smth that i really wanted to do last time. i dont need to read minds to be able to understand everything. i just need to ..ask.
haha. seems that all females are freaking sensitive. im not the only one.
err. just want to say thank you for saying that you guys will not give up. but..i really thought that history repeated itself on some instances. haha. but i wont change that easily.. not that i dont want to. i cant. it has been 3 years nia ><

and speaking of 3. got back my CCA report. IM STILL A BAND MEMBER?! blown away. but i wondered alot la. why am i still feeling like this.. guess im still sore at myself. i simply lack determination.. again. i got 2 chances and i blew it. he made things worse by saying that i have talent in music -___- just that my attitude covered it. haha. ha. yea right..right. hai.

thinking of becoming a graphics designer. haha. desktop publishing. why not take a chance eh. making a mini port folio. but im worried that im not creative enough tho..

talked to my pri sch friend. so long le wor. we drew apart so much le. too freaking polite. abit sad.
Youli, Haowen, xinying, shimin!! wahaha. you 4. dominic and howard too. the rest i forgot le. feel like going back.. restart my life. from pri sch. and get my foundations right this time. bleh.

hm..im starting to sound like the old me again. heng. watched the vid again.. liked the part where the nurses and the backdrop fell. feel happy. haha. you zhong jie tuo de gan jue. freedom..! sudd got urge to draw le. bleh.

"And we will send you reeling from decimated dreams
Your misery and hate will kill us all
So paint it black and take it back
Lets shout it loud and clear "

ah. cant stop snipping the lyrics to put here. btw,its from my chemical romance, welcome to the black parade.