Wtf HAX

My current mood is comparable to a rat stuck in a sewer pipe.


F O U L.

Feel like I'm drifting away from loads of my new peeps. Is it just me, or has cliques started to form in DMD03?

I don't like. T^T

Feeling quite cheesed off at something that I can't define also. The irony of the situation I'm in probably. And now that I'm at it, whats the problem with getting just a teeny bit of privacy even when a person is in a relationship? People should get some privacy every once in a while, be it what status they are in.. Not getting it results in mental stress instead.

Anyways. Hell - whats up with the two words; soccer and men? Join them two together and even the infernal hell seems like paradise for us girls. Well for my case its computer games and men. Bloody hell.. the excuses are crap ( that even I once used in the past )to begin with. I feel amazed at my capability to contain and not shoot back at every given chance. Its like a kid in denial - I now know why everyone got so pissed when I was obsessed with Audi, Maple, S*T etc..

..and now I'm the one getting pissed off.

Sometimes this fact will be used as a shield - the fact that I once was obsessed with games make it right and just to do the exact same action. Wtf is this..? So instead of moving forward and improving our own lives, dwelling on the past and evening up every mistake is the way to go? At least I'm not having the problem with computer obsession now..

Looking on another side of the situation, being so focused may also mean that other than playing the com, theres nothing else to do. And this deals a huge whammy on my side. A great deal of time is spent together, but yet theres nothing to do with each other? So much and yet so little connects this whole rln together. Sometimes I feel it too - maybe being too close can be a huge obstacle sometimes.


Or maybe I'm just being overly sensitive. I hope I am.