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ah. so my navi bar ended down there AGAIN. i didnt put graphics liao leh. how come. ah well.. ty for the two tags lol. nearly got a heart attk. thought i erased everything then suddenly two came out.

uh.. lol. abit speechless. abt the tags. but ty ty ty for the words and advices ah. haha.

one more day to school. ok i shant elaborate the feeling im having. zz.
its mixed with happiness + bitterness. happy cause i can escape from home, bitter cause.. well, duh.

its sick having to act stupid and pretend nothing is happening while everyone is whispering in decibels of 30 or something. im starting to think that they screw up more stuff than helping now. zz. still dont wan admit that they are taking my friends for inspections and slamming warranty signs on them. when everyones gone im going to double slam them hard. damn. no one treats my friends like that.

and plus, see. one simple call and everythings ruined le la. happy? eesh. havent it freaking dawned on you that im RECIEVING THE CONSEQUENCES FOR EVERYTHING YOU PEOPLE DO?! SO QUIT INTERFERING! even if i plan to go to the police, its not your problem anymore zomg. you people restarted everything. then you go, " eh we meant no harm one lor " you guys triggered it! now wan think counter attk issit. save it man. screwing up things is bad enough. STOP making it worse. >_>'

sian.

anyway, saving up my money to get my stuff. O: copic markers! and stuff lo. maybe a little guitar if i want. keke. self learn. the web is a great place.

and thats the weapons im arming myself for school. lol. plan to doodle away. fate's sealed. O: i dont even know the basics lmao, still want me learn advanced in sec4. hahaha watta joke. -.- i think ill have to bribe to go into poly or something le lol. seems impossible when science is at this standard. imagine all As then one F come out. wah kns. jump building.

suan le.
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edit :
i read a blog post from a certain blogger and was.. downright horrified by the jerk who chose to leave friends to reach his so-called success. NUS grad with honours somemore. its karma that he met with such a bad ending. hah.

but it also shoved the truth up my face. im not the only one with a lousy life. but i know things will not end so well for me. there will be no happy ending, unlike the blogger. im a person who will NOT try again after failing the first time. mind you, i have to stress, im very competitive in games and non academic stuff. very. but what the hell, ill still meet the same sticky end if i dont let down my pride.

gawd.

not my pride pl0x. i treasure it more than my computer.