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ooookay, its not totally fixed yet. i cannot see my tagboard and links -.- cant tag cant blog surf. ah well. maybe it will get fixed or something. later. - edit: ok,found it. graphics pushed it down. too big lol. its at the btm right side of my blog. it will be fixed when the post containing the sigs are pushed down~ im lazy to edit x: -

im now trying to get myself as busy as possible lawl. its the unhealthy way of forgetting stuff but at least im trying. the only way to prevent my thoughts from going elsewhere lol. blast music and train hardcore. yay. hmmm. hai.

i think too much = mentally tired
i play too much = physically tired

hahaha.duno wad will happen if i think and play at same time. implode diao liao.
ANDDDD tadaa~
MN is 100% + 1% in my care~ hail the administrator of a dead and almost useless forum! im freaking going to twist it and change its fate if i have the chance lol. a very very very big IF.

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this song kept popping up on the radios -.- dunno who sang it, but its eerily.. similar to my thoughts lol.

*I know this is a wonderful world,
but i just cant feel it right now.
I thought i was doing well,
but i just want to cry now.

hmmm... getting me to laugh from the btm of my heart is impossible la.. but ive never really did. in my house, that is. which makes me wonder.. how come the words they used to describe me last time is ..at extreme opp ends with my own. i very cheerful last time meh. .___.''

my daydreams are changing again lol. abit cant bear actually. i had the same dreams for months. but this is ..less violent ba. heng.

going into delph again later, i dunno lol. maybe im just trying to work myself to death. bwahaha. but im desperate for 3rd job. d.e.s.p.e.r.a.t.e. haha. ill wait.. sooner or later.. everything will go back to being the same ler. boss, me... but not kenny. hai. audition ah..

i thought ill have to leave boss alone.. and now.. -.- its kenny's turn.

feel like a flitterer la -.- flit here flit there. forced to be a butterfly. leave friends here, find friends there.. -.- wrecked by guilt.

and btw, another lesson learned. dont eat ice cubes in this kind of sai weather. i ate one only.. then tio stomachache ler. stuck on bed. -.- 1hr. then suddenly.. POWER CUTOFF!!! no electricity~ i was like omfg.. no radio no com no lights!

feel so.. small. stuck in this lego house, cut off from the world. im really sick sia. no com no life.