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sian dao go do quiz lol. the ans kinda shocked me. every quiz i go.. they gimme the character Chi as result de. guess Chobits is a common victim for quiz answers. bwahaha.

*Your true form is....Mysterious. She's calm and quiet, and moves quick. You have a job as a shrine maiden. you're clairvoyant,but can't fully access your powers for another two years.

Shrine maiden wtf! no comments. but i do wish that i really had magic powers lol. zap and .. everything is solved for me. ill just sit and slack, and continue being the lousy person that i am~
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lurked in a forum and found a nice site containing almost *every* genre of music. it got interactive GUI de summore. wtf. pwnt. i found latin + goth.. not bad actually. Not sad to a sappy kinda style, not defiant to those kinda rebellious feel. and its not happy themed. very dark, melancholic..not for people who loves the spotlight. bwahaha.

i have a weakness for those latin beats.. techno.. rock.. goth.. but sadly no mainstream pop -.- am i that different.

*Moby - In My Heart! D: it was in that radio ad lol. found it in that site. dont like it much tho.*

saw that im not the only one who trusted online-turned-real-life-friends more than normal real life friends. haha. maybe normal rl ppl.. we took each other for granted. online turned rl.. understood each other first.. and worked on it from there. so lesser quarrels and tiffs arose, for they did the basics first lol. most rl ppl is like.. just jump into friendship de. and understand each other from every difference they encounter during the journey. id prefer virtual ones then , thank you very much. tho rl friends are not bad also, but its just a matter of choice what.. i guess im standing on the middle ..and leaning slightly towards virtual. x:

another nice quote..
*And everything could be over, all these nightmares
But that was all it took to undo all my efforts
Nevermind, I'll try again
Time is on my side.

):

gosh. maybe im really that bad apple ): thats why everything seems rotten to me ): what can i do, isolate myself again? or get help and cut out the bad side of me? if so, who would help? why should they? how can they help? if im isolating.. where am i escaping to this time round? for how long? what will happen to me in the end?

choices, choices.
IF ONLY LIFE HAS CHEAT CODES! if only.
lost lor. everyone seems to be busy with their stuff. except me. maybe i should go learn something too. and say goodbye to this hermit-ish lifestyle? cant slack anymore..? ):

i feel like im ..standing in a deep deep well... with water rising every single second. and theres a rope right in front of me..i can just grab it can climb out. but the problem is.. i dont know how. -.-ill slide down with every step i try to take. maybe ill die in this watery grave, maybe i wont. i dont know the answer. but i do know.. im all alone in this well. ): maybe i hear people shouting at me from the top.. but all their faint shouts and calls are not helping..