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ok,its maple. lawl. ill list info when i first get my soul arrow. which will take weeks. cough -it might be only days if i want to chiong - cough. hah. sniper! bang bang.
btw, i officially suck.
when im not busy, im wandering around, thinking how boring life is. i have no goals or whatever. just a wandering soul. then ill be disgusted at myself.
WHEN im busy, i go around slamming myself FOR letting me forget everything i was supposed to worry about. THEN im disgusted. at myself.
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wtf is this, shan?!
but for now, ill push everything to the back of my mind ba lol. enjoy life while i still can. next years going to be hell. so..im going to go back to chionging.. just for today.. (:
im cutting myself some slack lol. feel guilty for being so selfish .. but heck, i dont have the energy to care anymore lawl.
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ok, i cant wait :X getting sick of Paint already. MY PICS LOOK SO $%^& PIXELLATED! 27%, photoshop~ kekeke. finally i got smth to tinker arnd for 30 days..instead of forcing myself to play maple lol~ Its the perfect time to see if i really have designing genes or not :x bwahaha. ill be a full fledged forumner, in which, i still dont know. haha.. Maybe ill find a new game or smth, but i doubt its gunna change these few mths. Audition ahh~ wo de
Reminds me of my maple guild. Shattered. and the Virtuafied Operation. walau.. last time we crap tgt 24/7 de lor.. meetings.. playing.. slacking.. now its deader than dead la. -.-
Makes me really really jealous of those 20+ de. lol. i dont know why, but they are ALWAYS successful in having fun and company in whatever games i play de. Maple saw.. Audi..saw.. every game im in..saw!! they even freaking met up during events or go kopitiams la -.- sad can. took photos. hah. im dripping with bitterness and jealousy again lol. will i really become like them when i reach that age? if so.. SOMEONE INVENT TIME MACHINE CAN!?!?!
dying of hunger. but when i ate.. i felt even more hungry lol. heng i managed to force myself to stay on my chair. if not ..these few days..wasted. bleh. these kinda stuff.. cannot turn back de ><
back on topic.. cant keep on steering it away from my mind lol. i think..basically.. its just a matter of realism and fantasy. pick one and tadaa, you will be meeting a new ending. or beginning. damn. -.- its still not bringing me anywhere actually. i want to reside in fantasy, but i know that reality will pull everyone out sooner or later. so its the same sticky end. zz. if only fantasy is the new reality. i always get the feeling that the stupid answer to my question is already right in front of me.. but i cant see it.
maybe its in my dreams... haha. storyline of my dreams change le. still bloody, but .. i suddenly realised smth more lol. i didnt have a family in those dreams. i knew everything i wanted to learn in real life.. yadda yadda.. my friends were all there..its like almost everyone i know was there lol. and the leads were there.. stabbing and slashing away. then the weird thing comes lol. everytime the person lands the killing blow.. always got ppl take blow for me. -.- wtf. wan die in dreams also cannot. ..... summore that sway person and i .. not close at all de .. tho we're related -.- damn his face T-T triggers so much memories.. of all ppl summore. zz. creep.
i deciphered the dreams liao. finally. but ill be keeping it to myself. haha. too sad an affair to share. hai.
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