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Today is Friday.
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WOOT. i survived one week ^^ with no bad memories whatsoever. hahaha.

1st up, PE. we ran in the rain. walking is alright, i love it. but RUNNING. heck. no wai im carrying on. so we took every shortcut available and cut our laps from 6 down to three. Hey, our school is HUGE. 3 is enough for a month or two. but still, we're drenched. hahaha.

Played badminton with HL. we have the same style when playing. Played using force and reactions. no skills needed. O: Just whack the shuttlecock and see the other person run everywhere to return the ball. and vice versa. the shuttlecock was like zooming everywhere LOL. our arms were sore from all that smashing.

Then, the best part came. MUSIC LESSONS ZOMG WTF. cher told us to write what we did that was associated with music.
i saw some.
"Band practice"
"Playing games"
so i thought a bit, and decided to put something special.
"Starting a rock band. :D"

Lmfao. everyone was exploding when cher read this out. with laughter or chatters. But im serious leh -.- Its my dream. my last dream that is not fulfilled. im on the track. the moment i perfect everything is the time i shall drag the pitiful victims to be members. muahaha. yes im looking at you.

i also wrote "Momentum" as my fav song or something. majority put " welcome to the black parade " . my ex fav song.

and talking abt MCR, zomg Gerard Way is still as charming as ever. O: he looks 100.1% like a pretty lady when viewed at the right angle LOL. still like his eyes. i judge people from their eyes. ^^

Making little avatars for people, (: im proud of my photoshop program. it does everything for me lmao. i just click and drag and a lousy pict comes out. spend a little more effort and it will look presentable, tho not to the rate of being excellent. im still at the C5 grade wahaha. ill post up the links to the designs when im free.

got a feeling that i was being interrogated during recess. ok la, look. My close friends are 90% guys. be it virtual or real life. Dont ask me why im like that. Ask god.
Now look at yourself.
How do you treat your close friends? stand a metre from each other and smile politely?

BULLSHIT.

pardon my crude language, but its the best word to describe my inner thoughts.

if you can get chummy with your friends why cant I get chummy with mine? >_>" like im doing anything disgusting like that. i didnt even go to your standard of touching and hugging and pulling and tugging and pushing AND molesting.

AND plus, i was un-informed. no need to elaborate right.

i really had a very good mind to give them a knuckle sandwich when they probed. irritating. but of course i cant la, cuz im still partly responsible for this. will be my fault if i flared up. i would have become unreasonable. so i smiled and replied. THEN. LOL. I went overboard with my happiness when i said that sentence. I CANT CONTROL MY EMOTIONS LOL LOL LOL. i started giggling like crap and going hyper. man, i should just pluck my face off and stomp it on the ground.

shan. you will snap out of it. now relax. but that feeling is so damn.. lol. FUNNY!

cough. i really.. cant wait. seriously. haha..

and btw, im not a flirt. to you two.. i might look like one in your eyes, BUT IM NOT ZOMFG. Maybe i really treated my guy friends as my sisters liao. wahaha.

but ..i still love everyone. haha. that sentence cheered me up.

about everything from my past, im forgetting it all. im sorry if ive hurt anyone. landed anyone in trouble. but im determined to go on. start the new chapter in my life.
Sapphire is not my audition character, Sapphire is ME. Im no longer the saddist from the past. Trying my best to be positive. Ill stop asking life to give anything to me. Ill give what i can to life. it was a mistake, ill admit it. a mistake from the very beginning. goodluck in life. (: