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And without you is how i disappear
And live my life alone
Forever now.
-MCR, This is how i disappear.

i cant stop ..taking out snippets of their songs. I cant .. understand how the heck they can manage to turn sappy love songs into such a shiok rock act. Nothing to say lor. wow.

And did you know that in track 10, the intro and endings were actually gerard's own voice! he was in a lotta stress when his brother, mike, went into depression or something. gerard got so worried he started having nightmares and everything he wakes up from it, he will record the contents of the nightmare down. and yes. the intro and ending contains the snippets from the tape recorder. every song of them has a little story behind it one lor. at first i didnt like some tracks, but now, after reading their thoughts and stories, every song in the album simply owned. i know quite alot about the album now. interested people can ask wahaha. i did my homework kay. find me in msn D:

LAN WAS ALMOST SHIT, OK.
well, i enjoyed some modes, but the rest were hell ): liked it when i went into audition. even though i suffered from foul mood at the revival of the memories.. -well i doubt anyone noticed. im a good actress muahaha- ..i still managed to have fun and totally piss chad off with my noobness in cs. i remember there was once, i didnt reload. then bam.

and there was another time, was being killed by someone 5 times or so in a row, when he just promised he wont turn me into free frag.
worse was the mode that needs to hide de :/ i revive 1sec die le. shiok mah.

anddd well. ytd night's guild chatter was very very very interesting. they were yakking abt games from the start.. and of course i didnt participate, worse than greek to me. all that theory was driving me nuts. i was thinking, "walau, serious bo?! game nia.. analyse until so in depth.. you people ..are treating it more like a job than a game.." but of course i cant comment. i did in depth analysis for some games i liked too. :/ then someone noticed that i went all quiet and changed the topic.

ended up talking about.. violation zomg. nth to say, nth to say. >_>" need to slap some kinda parental advice label on this guild branch.

im suffering from cases of seriously low confidence. ): you know why? Cause i saw many chiobus in Bugis LOL. their eyes were mesmerising. and i was like staring ..staring.. staring..

but hey, i said i judge people from their eyes.

went home tired and sore. april and shan were totally beat. D: but yet. the guys were still in partying mood. HELLO YOU PEOPLE, WE SPENT 10 HOURS OUTSIDE ZOMG. even if you gave me your credit card and forced me to shop for 10 hours i wont do it. my god. heng we're sitting in the lan shop, or ill seriously need someone to carry me. -_- or get me a wheelchair.

wore my long black layered top/shirt with a lose tie + jeans + high cut shoes. D: looks.. ok la. surprisingly. clipped up some of my hair and let the rest down. i really want to snip off the fringe.. well, some of the fringe. but i cant. i need to let my hair grow in order to get the hairstyle i fancied. D: add highlights when i graduate from sec sch and bam. it shall pwn.

Talked to tuna!! gave my analysis on relationships.. got me all warm and fuzzy. haha. elaborated on hugging techniques and the thinking of a female. i felt like josh and semi talking like that. all that chim theories. LOL. um.. haha. he was being so sweet to the girl lol. i can see. felt abit of that .. feeling too. imagined.. hai. too bad i aint interested in anyone in school :/ i still have to wait. hah. i tell you, when a girl suddenly appears in a different mood whenever you walk over, dont ever think that she just acting happy. 90% chance is that you REALLY DID drive away her unhappiness. it just comes back when youre gone. just repeating from the chat. lmao.

My god. im melting all over again. haha. disadvantages of a soft heart.