Saturday, December 16, 2006

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sian~ so im blogging again lol.
thought abt it for ages. still thinking now. but i guess my mind officially gave up being useful. lawl. drifting everywhere. conflicting advices and view and opinions and ideas and yadda yadda yadda. everything feels so jumbled up. but i dun wan anyone to make up their mind for me. ironic. haiyo. sometimes i really feel that im stupid. but being too clever aint too good also. sometimes its best to stay naive and ..i dunno.. view the world as a purer place. haha. thru my eyes now ah.. the world is very the contaminated. haha. discrimination and ranks. remind me of Kira.

i wan deathnote D: maybe double copies of that book also can D: or make it triple. then any obstacle will be .. exterminated! scribble and -tiew- they drop dead. shuang. too bad i dont have the brains to make full use of it. reminds me of 28 dec. wahaha. deathnote2. sad. cant see le.

EXTREME DIETING IS NICE
Though i dont recommend it lol. these few days i practically starved the crap outta myself. then when i walk over to the mirror.. i dont feel like smashing it anymore. i was like. zomfg, i swear my face is thinner by 2mm!! lawl. im not anorexic, just in case. it was a case of pure determination.

want learn guitar -.- but no chance. am i really that ill fated with music?! feh.

looking arnd for music files and free d/l sites. help appreciated if theres info. i can only find anime song sites. ><

I lurked at maplesource de forums there today~!
Felt abit sad as usual.. memories. got the i-am-ignored-feeling whenever i saw my ex posts. also found out got simi quarrel things going on last time. but.. its not my prob anymore lol. i shd stop troubling myself with old memories. after seeing my posts..felt quite disgusted by the wrong words i said last time. i always hated the old me, even if it was just yesterday. im a perfectionist when it comes to pleasing ppl. i guess. haha.

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