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Today has proved me wrong yet again. It was.. - no offence- a blast. lol. chatted with wq and hl abt studies~ swimming~ maths~ and loadsa crap. i was struggling to stop laughing throughout the whole ritual -.-''

one scene was worth remembering again.
''Nu xu shi bai de hor" = means "in laws wear white de hor" in eng.
i heard it as..
"Ni Sapphire hor" = "You Sapphire hor"
blanked stared at aunt LOL. then i got it -.- wdh.

i grew taller~ keke. maybe 160 now. when yy stood beside me and wq.. we went wtf lol -.- too freaking tall.

Tuna talked to me lol. is it that obvious that im having problems? but he guessed wrong. luckily. i was going all polite on him~ but deep inside i was actually smirking at his.. i-know-it-all attitude. wahaha. but its nice of you guys to help la. lol. even tho.. you guys nv audi anymore~ but xie xie for remembering me!

im getting very very very very very hooked on the audi movie soundtrack. my mood totally changed when i heard it LOL. its nice. but not too cheery.. not too sad. perfect! im happy~ so long nv hear such kinda song themes le. but getting my sanity and calmness back is not totally good also -.- my hand sudd feel so pain lol. regret putting the cuts there -.- cannot put plaster.. surface area too much -.- zzz. but its been changing into a habit lol. today the ritual was sian as usual.. and i started scratching my hand for no reason again -.- hl, yy and ay kena freaked out .. and hl grilled me for it la -.- bbq-ed.

ok i take back my words. i hate tuna -.- bloody hell. zzzz. i thought he changed -.- so he didnt. damn. shdnt have trusted him again.

im changing le lol. even tho i still look like zombie on the outside.. i can see/feel that my character is .. getting different.. le.
[1] i cant bottle up any more negative feelings anymore.
[2] i freaking laughed today.
[3] i actually welcomed happier songs.
[4] im off gothic. tho black/red is still my fav. but no more goth. im going towards the fashionable rocker kinda style.
[5] (:

-ill update later-